Updates on personal life #6

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Points i'll be covering:
:pointr: Romania struck by tragedy
:pointr: Why i've been half-inactive
:pointr: My dA activity
:pointr: dA anniversaries


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I. Romania struck by tragedy


    It's been almost a month now, but we, the Romanian people, including myself, are still shocked and grieving after the Colectiv nightclub fire which has claimed 64 victims. I was half-away from dA when this happened, but i used the posts to keep you guys updated (now i took them off my page). I am fine and i didn't have friends injured/dead in the fire, but some of my friends have friends that were there that night and didn't make it/are still fighting for their lives. I couldn't stop thinking that if this was to happen a few years back i could've been one of the victims - it looks very similar to the "clubs" i used to spend my time in when i was younger. Stories from everyone involved, from doctors to survivors, from firemen to witnesses are shocking and haunting. Even the strongest and well seasoned cried.

    It happened on a Friday night. I found out later in the night about it (two hours after it happened because i was studying and didn't watch the tv) and waited for news on how can i be of help. Vlad rushed to the hospital to see how can he help but by the time he got there the rush was over and everyone was already in the OR. When he got back home we received confirmation that the Transfusion Institute opened at around 2:30 AM because of the huge emergency and we rushed there to donate blood. I had never seen so many people there before, patiently waiting to help. I got there at 3 AM and left at 6 AM, that's how many people were. And everyone was so nice, the donors, the staff who was brought from their homes in the middle of the night. It warmed my heart to see this, but i was so sad because of what brought us there. This continued for a few days and people and shops volunteered to bring food and drinks for the donors and the staff.
    Below is one of the last videos of the band in the beginning of the concert. Bear in mind that many of those you see in this video are either dead or still fighting for their lives. From the band, only the singer survived but he is badly injured. If you can pay attention to the lyrics that would be great because it shows the reality and the irony of living in Romania.



    Here's me right before their concert in 2013 at Rock the City festival, you can see their banner in the background. Little did i know back then...

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    Anyways, after the 3 days of national mourning ended, the protests against corruption began. Romania fought for dignity and it seems some things have changed:

    Day 1: around 35k in Bucharest. The government resigned the next morning.

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   Day 2: Around 35k in Bucharest and 30k in other cities to reform political class and system.

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    Day 3: Around 12k in Bucharest and 10k in other cities. The president invited representatives from street people to a talk the next day.
    Day 4: Around 6k in Bucharest and several thousands in other cities. The president told the civil representatives that he will come incognito to talk to people in the streets, indirectly hinting that if we want true change we need to keep asking for it so the politicians can't pretend they don't understand what is asked of them.
    Day 5: Around 3k in Bucharest.
    Day 6: Several thousands in Bucharest, the president went to talk to the crowd, like he promised.
    Day 7: Several hundreds in Bucharest.
  
    Now we have a new government consisting of techocrats and people have high hopes for them, although it's impossible to change the cancerous system that's been here for 25 years in only one year, until the next elections. But they started doing the stuff the people asked of them, so at least there's that.

    "The day we give in is the day we die" - The day we die, Goodbye to Gravity, the band who wanted to release an album but started a revolution.


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II. Why i've been half-inactive


    Pffft. You guys know this September i graduated Med School and that i had one more exam to take so i can start working. So, for the most part, i was kinda away because i had to study really hard for one last time (for now!).
    I took some time to put into pictures what my experience has been in the last 6 years, the Octopus representing Uni & studying & worrying and the badly drawn stick figure being myself.

Badass representation of the last 6 years by Lintu47

    As shown above, you can easily see how not ok i got out of this period. The pressure and the worries really brought me down.
    I took the Residency on the 15th this month and later, on the 22nd i chose my specialty. I decided what to pick literally while i was waiting in line to do it. I chose Infectious Diseases and if that night when i got home i cried for a long time wondering if i made the right call, now it started to grow on me. On the other hand, i also cried when i heard on the speakers what Vlad chose (i was not allowed to go inside with him, just like he wasn't allowed to be with me when my turn came). It was such a raw reaction, like "OMG, my fears have come true". Usually i keep my composure, especially if there are hundreds of people who can stare at me and judge but in the heat of the moment i didn't care. Luckily i was standing next to a friend who hugged me so i could hide my face in her arms. He went back to his first love, General Surgery. I always feared this because i know how passionate he is and i am afraid that he'll live more in the hospital than he'll live with me. This hit me hard because for the past two years or so he also considered Nephrology and i always hoped that he'll stick to it. But i guess you can't forget your first love. He is over the Moon for the both of us, i'm more like "meh, that's that".

    I felt so many emotions in a such short period of time that i don't have the power to be happy about anything. It's been an emotional roller coaster these past few weeks with a bunch of panic attacks and crying and despairing, oftenly asking myself what did i do with my life.
    For the moment, i am disoriented. I was stuck in an Uni for 6 years and never made any solid plans for after the Residency exam and now that it's all over i don't know what to do. I mean, i know i have to go and chase a bunch of papers to get hired, but aside from that what? It's scary to think that i'm an adult person with responsibilities and if i fuck up now, i fuck up real bad. I know it's silly and i know it's not in fact now that i've become all of that, but somehow while i was studying i felt protected from the "real/outside" world, despite the octopus eating me alive. Now i feel naked and vulnerable. I guess the next step is making wedding arrangements?
   

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III. My dA activity


    I will do my best to be as active and as involved as i can, but there might be days/periods when i won't be able to immerse in dA like i used/wanted to. You have to understand that this is my life from now on. I will promote events and projects, such as Comment Outreach, which is a site-wide awareness project that aims to educate, engage and elevate the interaction with art across DeviantArt, i will do features, i will keep commenting and i will give llamas, but i can't say if i'll do more because i don't know if i can. Of course, if you want to make me a CV i won't refuse though! :dignity-laugh: by KimRaiFan :sigh: by Blue-Berry-Boy I'm not joking :stare:


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IV. dA anniversaries


    This is added on 12th of December because i didn't want to do a whole new journal for what i'm about to say.
    I am happy to say that a few days ago, on December 8th, i celebrated my 9th year on deviantArt. How times flies by, right? I remember like it was only a few months ago when i uploaded my first pictures (they're deleted now), when i received my first comment and my first watcher. I want to thank everyone i met for molding me into what i am today. Thank you sincerely, everyone, for this wonderful experience! (Do i have any old watchers still active? If so, please comment!)
    Also, in two days from now, on December 14th, i'll celebrate 4 years since i had the great honor of becoming a Senior. Once again, thank you for supporting me and standing by my side through thick and thin. Love you all :huggle:


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    As i said in the last journals, "i cannot emphasize enough the importance of routine checkups and doctor visits when something unusual comes up, regardless of how unimportant it might seem to you at the moment. Please don't ignore your health, it's the most precious thing you were born with and you have to protect it". I mean every word of it. And take care of your pets too, either it's a budgie or a cat, a hamster or a dog, they all feel pain and we, as their friends and caretakers, need to treat them as part of the family. Do not ever abandon your pet in their time of need!
    Lastly, don't wait for special occasions to express your feelings to those you love, life is unpredictable and you never know how much time you have left to spend with your loved ones, so make every moment of it count.
    I will be back with personal updates when i will have other news for you. I appreciate every message from you, your support means a lot to me. Meanwhile, take care of yourselves and enjoy life! :hug:

Love,
Cristina.



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Don't let the fact that you can say a lot of things on the internet without consequences take away your decency.
Stay safe! ♥

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I'm really sorry, I really am 
I'll keep Romania in my heart and I wish them the best. Romania is awesone! 
Sper ca totul este rezolvată în curând. Starea de spirit. O îmbrățișare
(Yeah i talk a bit of romanian)