All she ever wanted to was be with him.
To see him, talk to him, just be in his arms.
He felt the same way; so he said.
She loved him.
And he loved her.
Everyday sense she had known him, all she wanted was to be in his arms and love him.
Never to see him, she cries herself to sleep everynight.
She hated her life.
Having a horrifying childhood.
Feeling out of place in her family.
Having no friends.
Talking to him just made all that go away.
He never once failed to make her smile.
They were meant to be together.
Never again to have one another.
She thought about meeting him.
A billion questions filled her mind, questions, never to be answered.
Would we ever get back to gether?
Does he really love me?
Are we ever even going to meet..?
She stayed up for hours on end thinking about him every night and day.
She only ever wanted to talk about him.
People whom she told saying to find another guy.
She could never! She loved him so much.
More than she had ever loved a person before.
All that love...
Just to bring her pain.
Pain she cant handle.
Pain she cant express.
Pain she cant tell anyone about.
Nothing to make it go away but one cure.
Thats all she needs to live.... to be painless.
Now, she knows there is no one whom she will love as much as him.
She knew they would never last.
Never even to meet.
Way deep down inside her heart, she just knew she wanted to marry him.
To have kids with him.
She would be proud to call him her husband.
Well one day at least.
One day to never come.
And why not?
She would never tell him how strongly she felt like that.
He would never feel that strong about her.
She still didnt understand why he loved her in the first place.
To herself, she thought she was the most unlikable person she knew.
To him, well she dosent know.
Look, I love you.
I dont care what my friends think of you or what they say about you.
I, me, Chelsse Alexander, I love you.
Ill always love you.
I dont care what youve done or what has hapined.
I love you for you and I love only you.
Listening to: my lonly heart pound
Reading: his words for ever more
Watching: him slipping away
Playing: nothing but this game of love
Eating: my sorrows away