It's seems such a long time ago that I was really active at this place!!! And I also miss it so much to be around, to view my friends' new art, have conversations, creeate and post my own new art!
How on earth could that happen? My last journal was posted last year in June, my last persosnal piece of art was posted in April - and it wasn't even comepletely new, I haven't touched my camera for many months - I didn't take any macro or rose shots this year! It's ages ago that I really checked my inbox for new art on DA, read and commented on any journals or deviations, I am not lurking and hanging around here anymore! Why? I never really think about that because life is so busy and full of changes
but today it's breaking my heart!!! 
It feels like the DA world has forgotten me, like I lost my family, my friends, my drive to create new art! This is really sad! 
Well, the first thing that comes to my mind is the fact that I had a boyfriend for the whole past year. A lot of my attention and energy was bound in that relationship. Now that it is over I feel somewhat relieved because I couln't really live my own life anymore. But the released time and resources didn't bring me back to DA right away. New projects, new tasks, new ideas were filling the free spots. Also my business needs more attention again! I planned to finish the
Mandala Calendar from last year to make it available for 2019. I didn't succeed yet.
So many other things to do, so much time spent on the road moving around! Yes, those are my years of wandering, no permanent residence, no real home to go back to. This is probably one of the other reasons why I lost track of my daily Internet routines. Only doing the necessary things..
The comment section on my profile looked like abandoned for quite some time but on my Birthday October, 13 many people left a Happy Birthday comment for me. Of course it lifted my spirits when I saw them. Finally today I found the time and the mood to read and thank them all. Reading those comments had triggered this sadness in me because the majority of the commenters I didn't know at all although they are all my watchers.
Only three or four old friends from earlier days on DA were among them. I realized that I had lost contact to my friends and watchers and didn't know anymore what is going on here.
There is nothing to be done except starting over, make new contacts, make new experiences, make new art. I am sorry! Please have me back, DeviantArt!
Thank you for listening, friends! 
I LOVE YOU ALL!!!
