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Feeling so sad because I lost track of my family!

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 27, 2018, 7:05 AM



A heartfelt hello to everybody here! :heart: rvmp :blowkiss: revision :blowkiss: revamp
It's seems such a long time ago that I was really active at this place!!! And I also miss it so much to be around, to view my friends' new art, have conversations, creeate and post my own new art! Tears  How on earth could that happen? My last journal was posted last year in June, my last persosnal piece of art was posted in April - and it wasn't even comepletely new, I haven't touched my camera for many months - I didn't take any macro or rose shots this year! It's ages ago that I really checked my inbox for new art on DA, read and commented on any journals or deviations, I am not lurking and hanging around here anymore! Why? I never really think about that because life is so busy and full of changes but today it's breaking my heart!!! :sad:
 

It feels like the DA world has forgotten me, like I lost my family, my friends, my drive to create new art! This is really sad! :cry: 


What happened?
Well, the first thing that comes to my mind is the fact that I had a boyfriend for the whole past year. A lot of my attention and energy was bound in that relationship. Now that it is over I feel somewhat relieved because I couln't really live my own life anymore. But the released time and resources didn't bring me back to DA right away. New projects, new tasks, new ideas were filling the free spots. Also my business needs more attention again! I planned to finish the Mandala Calendar from last year to make it available for 2019. I didn't succeed yet.  :blush: remake  So many other things to do, so much time spent on the road moving around! Yes, those are my years of wandering, no permanent residence, no real home to go back to. This is probably one of the other reasons why I lost track of my daily Internet routines. Only doing the necessary things..

My Birthday recently
The comment section on my profile looked like abandoned for quite some time but on my Birthday October, 13 many people left a Happy Birthday comment for me. Of course it lifted my spirits when I saw them. Finally today I found the time and the mood to read and thank them all. Reading those comments had triggered this sadness in me because the majority of the commenters I didn't know at all although they are all my watchers. sad  Only three or four old friends from earlier days on DA were among them. I realized that I had lost contact to my friends and watchers and didn't know anymore what is going on here.

There is nothing to be done except starting over, make new contacts, make new experiences, make new art. I am sorry! Please have me back, DeviantArt!


:love: Thank you for listening, friends! :hug

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

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ShoneGold Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2018
Beautiful Lilyas, I can relate to your sadness, I have felt it over my absent years from here as well. I am coming back not with pixel art but with photomanips. Over the years of watching you, I was totally inspired by your work and wanted to try to create beautiful things like yours. Please come back and create beautiful realities. I saw a real living rose coloured just like your rainbow rose. You have inspired so many with your work.

I need to tidy up the mess which is behind the walls of my front page, it is very untidy and uncomfortable. Then I will start uploading my feeble attempts.

Let's get the community going! :hug:
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alamuel Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Looking forward to seeing your beautiful work!
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2018  Professional General Artist
I am excited, too. :excited:
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AliDee33 Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Wonderful to have you back, my dear!! You have been missed!!!
:heart: :heart: :heart:
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2018  Professional General Artist
Tight Hug  Thanks so much, Ali! :heart:
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:iconalidee33:
AliDee33 Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
You are most welcome!! :tighthug:
:heart:
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:iconsecrets-of-the-pen:
secrets-of-the-pen Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2018  Professional Traditional Artist
Happy to see you reconnecting! I'm working on doing the same myself. :heart:
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2018  Professional General Artist
So thanks for reconnecting with me, my friend! :hug:
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secrets-of-the-pen Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2018  Professional Traditional Artist
Hug 
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FanFrye24 Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Totally can relate to what you went through. Trying to make a comeback myself. Welcome back! 😄💖
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2018  Professional General Artist
Thank you so much! :hug:
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:iconcolin-bentham:
Colin-Bentham Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2018  Professional General Artist
Glad to have you back, was wondering why you were so quiet. just thought you must have a big project on the go...
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2018  Professional General Artist
The big project is called life. But yes, there was also the story with the boy-friend. Thanks for the welcome back! :hug:
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:iconcolin-bentham:
Colin-Bentham Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2018  Professional General Artist
Ha, Life always has a way of getting in the way.  I haven't posted much on here myself in the past 6 months. and I could be even busier for the next 6 months :)
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jennystokes Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2018  Professional General Artist
Hi Lilyas................never forget friends despite what happens in life.  I have so many so-called friends that only contact me when they need something.
Life on d/a goes on without the old chats we used to have.....I don't know whether this is because of non-stop 'texting' or what. I find it very sad.
:love: you lots and live your life how you wish with empathy.
Jenny
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2018  Professional General Artist
Thank you, dear Jenny! I agree you have a point with the smartphone texting and chatting. It's crazy, when I use public transport I see many many people only looking at their phones all the time. They don't realize anymore what's happening around them.
Hugs and love from Lily :heart:
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jennystokes Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2018  Professional General Artist
Yes..........I have a 'phone for emercency's which cost about 5euros.

Newpapers/books?????????????

BIG :hug:'sss back.
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Majeeka Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well Hun, I may not be an old friend from before seeing as I'm rather new on DA myself, but there is always something nice about finding new friends too.  Welcome back, and try not to be too hard on yourself.  You did what you needed to do.  We all must travel the path the Universe has for us even when it doesn't seem to fit the plans we had for ourselves to begin with or when it seems to change things in unexpected ways.  Trust in the fact that all is as it should be.   Animation Spread the Peace 1 by LA-StockEmotes HUGS FOR ALL OF YOU! by Sugaree-33
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2018  Professional General Artist
Thank you for your sweet and heart-warming comment, Majeeka. :heart: Yes, the path of the Universe - I know that there is no way to really know what comes next. That's the reason why I try to accept everything as it is. Universe knows what it is good for.
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Majeeka Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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:iconcdlevit:
CDLevit Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2018
Do your besT!
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2018  Professional General Artist
Blankface Workout 
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Thiefoworld Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2018
I know the feeling, it happens to all of us and actually I think there's nothing wrong to go out there and focus on other things, coming back however, after a long time, can do feel a little disheartening, because the internet changes so fast, people change and when you come back and see other people you used to know also focus on other things and aren't here as often, it's sad. BUUUUUT, there are still some of us around! :D I hope you find your drive and motivation to start creating again and share it with us here :hug: Here's for reconnecting! :ahoy: 
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2018  Professional General Artist
Hey, it's good to see you, Thiefo! You works are awesome as always! Thanks for being there on my return and encouraging me! :hug: It's much appreciated. :surprise-kiss: 
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StaciTaylor Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I know exactly how you're feeling - I've lost contact with pretty much everyone I talked to on here, and only recently have been creating new stuff (a lot of it definitely not my best stuff.) I've gained a few new watchers & visitors, but creating new stuff seems like a struggle..it's been like that since I lost my mom 2 yrs ago in December.  :hug:
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Professional General Artist
Thank you! I hope you'll find your way through these times of privation. I am sorry for your loss! :hug:
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StaciTaylor Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:hug:
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Dieffi Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Willkommen zurück! freue mich, wieder von Dir zu hören/sehen!:iconbighugplz1::iconbighugplz2:
Ja ja, die Männer! Bringen einen nur auf dumme Gedanken! :icongrin--plz:
Und mach Dir jetzt blos keinen Streß, das reale Leben reicht ja oft schon!
Was Peter :iconaugenweide: über da sagt, stimmt leider! Masse statt Klasse! Aber einige von den Alten sind schon noch da...so auch ich. Treu und bislang unverwüstlich!
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Professional General Artist
So ist das wohl, Wolfgang. Dann sollte man doch lieber ohne Mann bleiben, dann geht alles leichter, unkomplizierter und schneller. Tongue fella (Smileys)

Die kleinen Hugger fallen mir, hi hi! :iconbighugplz1::iconbighugplz2:

Und wir werden bestimmt noch lange die Stange halten hier! Danke für das herzliche Willkommen zu Hause!
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Xathanix Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018
Hallo Lily,

es ist schön, dass du wieder da bist und das auch mit einem solch ehrlichen Text.
Mach es dir gemütlich und komme erstmal an, danach beglückst du uns sicherlich wieder mit tollen Bildern.

=)
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Professional General Artist
Hey, Du bist ja cool! Jemand der tatsächlich liest, was ich zu sagen habe. Ich finde Deine Reaktion sehr nett und wohltuend! Dankeschön! :heart:
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Xathanix Featured By Owner Oct 30, 2018
Bin nur ein jahrelanger Fan deiner Werke und finde solche Nachrichten viel persönlicher und genau das mag ich so.
Lass dich nicht unterkriegen. Vielleicht fotografieren wir auch mal zusammen, hab leider in letzter Zeit kaum meine Kamera in der Hand gehabt.
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2018  Professional General Artist
Hey, hab vielen Dank! Wir können das gern mal zusammen machen. Wo bist Du? Mir geht's im Moment auch nicht anders als Dir.
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Xathanix Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2018
Ich komme aus der Hauptstadt und habe nichts dagegen, auch ein wenig zu reisen. Gibt ja viele schöne Orte in Deutschland. Von wo kommst du? Kannst mir gern auch eine Nachricht schicken =)
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Nov 12, 2018  Professional General Artist
Gleicher Ort. ;) :giggle:
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:iconcarlsbergensis:
Carlsbergensis Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Still love you sweetheart. We all go through phases where our priorities change. It is good to have you home again in Deviant Art. Even though you may have been missing I feel sure that the life experience which you have gained in the interim will stand you in good stead for the future.
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Professional General Artist
Ah, it's great to hear such a positive voice! :w00t: You are right, every step in life brings experience. And even if not all experiences make good feelings so is every experience good nontheless. Thanks for the love, Mel! :hug: I tremendously appreciate it!
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Carlsbergensis Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2018  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Lily, I fell in love with you years ago. I just couldn't do anything about it. I am thrilled to have made you feel good and hope that you will continue to find positives in the things that have happened in your life. You are such a special person that you deserve all the positive energy that anyone can offer.
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 31, 2018  Professional General Artist
Oh, you did? :blush: I don't know what to say. Thank you for your continued support all these years!!! :hug: :love: I give you the biggest hug!

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:iconcarlsbergensis:
Carlsbergensis Featured By Owner Nov 2, 2018  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Your hug is accepted and is more than welcome. :icondevilheartplz:
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:iconaugenweide:
augenweide Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Alles Gute für Dich, - ich hoffe, deine Erwartungen an DA sind nicht zu groß, denn die Familie ist kleiner geworden, die Masse derer, die gehört und gesehen werden wollen, ist größer geworden, aber die Qualität und Aussage deutlich geringer, so daß wir hier froh sein müssen über jeden, der den Mut hat, seine wirklich schönen Arbeiten zu präsentieren... Als ich vor knapp 10 Jahren hier hereingeschnuppert habe, war es eine Quelle der Inspiration... - ich bin zwar nach wie vor hier, und auch gerne, aber behalte es lieber für mich, denn es ist schon beinahe peinlich, anderen von dieser Plattform der Darbietung zu erzählen... Aber warum sollte es hier anders sein, als überall auf dieser Welt...
Sei lieb gegrüßt und danke fürs zurücksein...
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Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Professional General Artist
Hallo lieber Peter, hab ganz vielen lieben Dank! Die Entwicklungen hier sind mir natürlich bekannt, das war ja schon immer so, dass die Community zahlenmäßig größer wurde und die Qualität dadurch insgesamt kleiner. Aber wer sich auf dieser Plattform auskennt, so wie wir, der weiß wie er sich hier durchmanövriert. Auf die Frontseiten schaue ich wenig, selbst die Groups, bei denen ich dabei bin, schaue ich nur flüchtig durch. Das ist sicher auch einer der Gründe, warum mir der Enthusiasmus stark verlorengegangen ist, weil man einfach unheimlich viel Zeit braucht, um mal eine neue Perle in der Masse zu finden. Ich nehme es mit Gelassenheit.
fühl Dich herzlich umarmt und bis bald!
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augenweide Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Gelassenheit ist gut, - einer der Vorteile des Alters...;) (Wink) 
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Professional General Artist
Ha ha, bekommt man auch von Meditation übrigens. ;)
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Ingelore Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018
Hallo Lily, willkommen zurueck! Ich hatte schon vermutet, dass du DA den Ruecken zugekehrt hast, wie es so viele tun. Der DA Kuchen wird immer groesser und die Rosinen darin immer seltener, um es mal so auszudruecken. Gut, eine wohlschmeckende Rosine wieder zu finden! ;)
Und, wenn auch spaet, :iconhappybirthdaysignplz:
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Professional General Artist
Ach, Du bist ja süß! Ich bin also eine Rosine im Kuchen, der Gedanke gefällt mir! :giggle:  Ich danke Dir für das herzliche Willkommen zurück und die Geburtstagsgrüße!
Jetzt schauen wir mal, wie ich wieder in Gang komme... Mad Explosion 
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Ingelore Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018
Das klappt schon, du bist ja noch jung... :D
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:iconlilyas:
Lilyas Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2018  Professional General Artist
:iconbighugplz1::iconbighugplz2:
Außerdem habe ich Superfoods! SupaGirl Woooosh 
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Ingelore Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2018
:lol: Brauch ich auch!
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Endorell-Taelos Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2018   General Artist
Hello and welcome back. :aww:
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