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Rising like the smoke

By lily-fox
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She is Krishna, she is Kali -- the sacred and profane, breathing fire into the universe.

I struggle to not throw a halo onto everything I draw, more so now than ever with Raja, since she is a cosmic deity.

This is the first thing I wanted to draw when I got into Raja, but I just figured it was out of my skill class. This is exactly how I pictured it and better – like Miss Nadia said, I swear I will never say ‘I can’t’. I can and I did.

There are a lot of things I learned that I can do, most importantly that I can balance being a mom and drawing. I can step away from my project and not lose momentum. I can take my time and execute ideas that are beautiful and exciting to me. These are things I pretty much gave up for lost after I had David. My mom stopped drawing when my sister and I were born, and it always broke my heart.

I promise I won’t quit. I promise myself, I promise my mom, I promise David.

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Reading your post hit a lot of points in my heart.  Ive been in such a bad and depressing art block for years.  I stopped drawing when I got to college when it started to become almost a chore for assignments.  I felt like I lost the freedom and creativity I once had for drawing and stopped altogether.  Have you ever been in an art block?  what did you do to get out of it and what keeps you drawing and learning new skills?

Also beautiful piece! Love the middle eastern taste to it!
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I'm sorry you've been dealing with that. Nothing sucks like an art block. If you don't have your creative outlet, it can feel like your heart's dried out. I've had plenty of art blocks, but I have a lot of other hobbies. If I find I can't draw, I'll knit or sew something or take photos, etc. but for art, I usually just have to wait for inspiration to slap me again, like Raja did.

Don't fret babe, it'll come back in full.
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remanthHobbyist General Artist
I love this a lot, it's beautiful
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An-archeeHobbyist General Artist
Amazing work and a very touching piece you've written. Thank you for all the feelings - you're doing great and those promises will be easier to keep than you think (even though they always seem so hard at the beginning). Everything about this is beautiful, thank you for sharing.
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This is so inspirational to me. Thank you so much. Thank you for continuing when it was so hard to see the point of it. I'm so proud of you. And your work is incredible. It means so much to me as a fellow artist - thank you for everything that you do. <3
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amazing - regal and terrifying <3
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ErmacEruErmacHobbyist Traditional Artist
Very good
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This is beautiful :heart: 'grats on doing more than you thought you could!
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