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You do not sleep, do not you sleep yet? by LilSimona You do not sleep, do not you sleep yet? by LilSimona
oh well, hello if someone is reading this.
i wanted to say sorry for deactivating randomly right after i posted the last pic.
im also surprised that few people tried to contact with me?
im sorry if youre expecting me to open up, opening up means trusting others and sometimes thats
just too much for me, i really dont want to bother anyone with my bullshit.
i dont think anyone is able to save me anymore in this horrible world.
ive started cutting people off in my life because i feel like im being a burden to everyone.
im worried about everything and sometimes even over nothing and it makes the problem seem bigger than it is.
its really easy to think yourself sick or lose your mind and not being able to think clearly anymore.
"Often, that first step is simply talking with someone who cares about you."
i have someone who is everything to me, but i think im nothing to her.
shes my everything, shes all ive ever wanted and when i had the chance to talk with her i felt important and alive, she makes me want to live again,
but im afraid i ruined it all again... atleast you have people to support you and everyone loves you, so i hope youre fine?
i dont know what to say, its getting bad again and all i know is i need to try my best to get out of this hole i put myself in.
but im tryna change, i wish i didnt hate myself.
somedays i feel like i should just kill myself but then i think of you and it all feels worth it,
but right now i feel really worthless, constant suicide thoughts and nosebleeds every day.

apparently i have monophobia, im always sad and im always lonely.
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:iconzectzu:
Zectzu Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2018  Student Digital Artist
hey.
i know that we haven't talked alot but i wanted to say this:
im in the exact same position as you are.
and do know that, if you need to vent to someone or feel like no one cares about you, im willing to listen to you.
you deserve happiness and i know you can do it.
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:iconlilsimona:
LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
heyy
ive gotten a little better, atleast thats what i want to believe
also thanks <3 right now i feel pretty okay than i was few days ago
idk ive tried to show more empathy towards others and not cry plus overthink so much

also jebus ;;;; <3
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GlitchOutNow Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018
I was worried sick when you deactivated 
And I would be absolutely devastated if something happend to you
just remember that we care about you, okay?
I don't really have anything to say to help you, because I have similar thoughts and I'm scared that I will say something stupid.
I really REALLY hope that you will feel better, 
Also because I'm here WATCH OUT FOR 
any video related to the
word "Narcos" because I saw the video on twitter and I'm scared af and I don't want you feeling worse that you are now

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:iconlilsimona:
LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Oh okay.
And okay, sometimes i feel like im just being a burden to everyone.
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:iconwhydoyoulookatme:
whydoyoulookatme Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Sim, I was worried as shit before, and now I'm even more worried-
I was so confused as to why you deactivated your account, and I thought to myself, "Maybe she just wants some alone time?"
So I sort of just left you alone.
And I saw this just now, and I was so happy! You were back. I had hoped you were okay.
And then I read the description?
I read it multiple times?
And it suddenly got so cold.
And so dark.
If you don't dm me soon, imma find out where you live and give you a giant hug!
Just consider that a warning owo
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:iconlilsimona:
LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
ah its ok i guess, there are other people who need more help than i do.
also jebus--
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:iconwhydoyoulookatme:
whydoyoulookatme Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Idk if that's true or not, but at the moment, I want to help you.
also i t s  n o t  o k a y
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:iconlilsimona:
LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Oh, why is that so?
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:iconwhydoyoulookatme:
whydoyoulookatme Featured By Owner Jan 26, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Because I'm your fren
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:iconfoxystash:
FoxyStash Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Student General Artist
Ma olen väga õnnelik et sa vahepeal kirjutasid mulle ja sa tundusid nii rõõmus! :) Kõik on sinuga hästi ja saab tulevikus olema ka. Kui midagi on, võid alati konsulteerida.
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LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
nojah, kuid ma sain aru et ma olen ilmselt mitte midagi ühele inimesele.
vahest selline tunne et ei näegi järgmist päeva.
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:iconfoxystash:
FoxyStash Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Student General Artist
Oeh, nii see tunne kahjuks ongi. Mina olen püüdnud kõigest sõltumata mõelda nii, et iga päev, iga hommik on nagu uus väike algus, on võimalik suurte pingutustega hakata ellu suhtuma nii, et iga päev saab midagi muuta. Ja kui läheb halvasti, lähed halvasti. Homme teed paremini. Aga miks ka mitte kohe? Eahhh.
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LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
oeh ma ei tea, ma lihtsalt tahaks minna eemale mõneks ajaks ja siis tagasi tulla kui mul parem on
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:iconfoxystash:
FoxyStash Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Student General Artist
Seda teegi :)
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:iconfoxystash:
FoxyStash Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Student General Artist
Aga ilma, et peaks füüsiliselt midagi korda saatma...
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:iconfoxystash:
FoxyStash Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Student General Artist
Lihtsalt ma kustutasin Facebooki ära, nii et kirjutamiseks sobib praegu Instagram. Oot
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niokuni Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Student Artist
i was actually quite worried about you when you suddenly deactivated your account, but was too afraid too reach out to you, thinking that i would be a burden to you

anyhow, i really hope you're doing better 

/and please remember, that there are people who truly care about you and who would be absolutely devastated if you were to die

take care ;;
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:iconlilsimona:
LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
naw tommy mu poiss, sa pole kunagi mulle kooremaks olnud c:

and jesus, i didnt know that-
sometimes it feels like people in my life are better off with out me.
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niokuni Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Student Artist
ah, sorry
i have trust issues and i find it really hard to believe stuff like this sometimes :'))

but really, no matter how lonely or depressed you might feel, just remember that there's always someone who really cares about you

/so please, try to be strong and think about positive stuff c:

//also yeah that sounds really fucking cheesy but still, try to be more positive 
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LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
look who is telling me to be positive  angry crying laughing murder emoji by strazi   thinking emoji contemplating by joltik-stamps  
kk sorry
eh eks ma üritan i guess-
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niokuni Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Student Artist
hahahah ma tean ma olen ise arvatavasti palju negatiivsem 

but i'm not important and i really want you to feel better :'))
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Melly-fox Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Ahh I was worried about you! I'm glad you're back =u=
Try to push past the negative thoughts and try to find something positive, and remember, life is for living it and you are strong, do not give up. Most of us have these moments, with individual feelings and difficulties. No matter what, try not to drown in these thoughts... Reach for the fresh air, find people you trust and spend time with them by talking, etc.
Just remember - stay strong, find positivity and don't give up.
Loodan, et kõik saab varsti korda <3
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LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
oeh jumal sa nii positiivne ja julgustav ;;
eh eks ma üritan aga vahest ikka selline tunne et annaks alla ja lihtsalt tõmbaks ennast oksa.
kuid aitäh <3
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Melly-fox Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Pole tänu väärt, jää tugevaks <333
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carrajou Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
im glad youre back
anyway, i hope everything will be good and the things will disappear
just keep going into this life and everything will be better someday Heart 
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LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
ill try, thought i feel like giving up already.
but thank you <3
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carrajou Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
try to not give up! I believe in you <3
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xXRoseCreamXx Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
I was wondering where you went! It's good to have you back!
I hope you're doing okay right now! :(

Sorry if there's nothing I can do to help yah ;w;
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:iconlilsimona:
LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Ah its okay, I did this to myself.
Also why is it good to have me back? xD
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:iconxxrosecreamxx:
xXRoseCreamXx Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
idk I'm just glad you're back o<o
I'm not good at explaining things lol ;w;
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LilSimona Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Its okay, no worries heh.
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