I decided to Write than to Cry
I decided to write instead of crying,
I wonder and I guess is just that thing with the heart.
There is nothing much to say but the fact
and the truth of what I have lived,
but is curious to see how a movie
changes you way of thinking and feeling.
Today I encountered the guy that broke my heart,
took my pride with lies and I still love
It was interesting to see my reaction.
It was one of fear, of nauseas, of hurt
and while I was watching him making a left turn, he didnt see me.
Or I guess if he did he ignored me,
what blows me away from all of this
is my reaction on just seen him.
My heart almost failed in that instant,
memories came to my mind
and most of all feelings where revolving.
I realize I havent stop loving this man
if you can call him that,
but most of all my sense of failure
of not having what I love and want.
Above all I know God is
moving all around me and in me,
and I failed him the most.
The gift that was bestowed in me
for my future of husband
I just gave it