Liburnica

I put down my book, The Meaning of Zen, and see the cat smiling into her fur as she delicately combs it with her rough pink tongue. Cat, I would lend you this book to study but it appears you have already read it. She looks up and gives me her full gaze. Don't be ridiculous, she purrs, I wrote it.           - From "Miao" by Dilys Laing

I have something called fibromyalgia. It describes as extreme pain, all over your body, depression and sleep disorders.... Well, this explains alot, finally I know why I always feel pain and why I can't sleep at night or sleep all day... I have to say that I'm very relieved to know, now I'm not just some whiny looser, there is something wrong with me and it is serious!!!!

Some Changes are in order for me, I have to do that to try to change my current state of mind... Which is not good. My depression is getting so badly to me that I´m crumbling down. So in order to change something I kicked my boyfriend out, so I could focus on myself, I know this is cruel but I have to do something for my mental health... I can´t feel like this any more, it is too hard, I´m dropping out of school because I´ve been so sick lately with depression, I literally can´t get out of bed when I´m at my worst, and that tends to happen every month for at least a week, it seems to follow my period. Well, I&#