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Yesterday he was at work, the car he was driving was old and something failed. It fell off a cliff and, though the other 3 coworkers will heal, he died suddenly. At least I have that: he didn’t suffer. He didn’t have time to be scared, or hurt. We’ll miss him a lot. He was only 67.

If you have pendant businesses with me, I’ll try to go back to commissions asap, but please give me some time. It hurts too much.
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EDIT: 29th of June, 2017

Hi, people. It’s been a week, and thank God my family is better. We’re still mourning and missing my dad terribly. When I hear the doorbell ring, I still somehow think it’s him, by reflex, and stand up to go open for my dad, just before realizing that it’s not him, nor will ever be again.

I miss the way he joked, and sang terrible songs on Sunday as he urged my mom to get pretty and go out together, and the way he stole pieces of sausage and ham from the fridge when he thought no one noticed, and how he’d scratch his back on the wall corners like a bear.

He’d been working like a mule since 7 years old, and had impeccable work ethics. He paid his workers religiously, gave them huge Christmas baskets and always reserved the most dangerous tasks to himself, so if anything bad happened, it happened to him. He went to school only for 20 days, and still he managed to build his own company from scratch and give a job to countless people. He’d been through so much, and still he was so devoid of malice, like a child. He was terrified of snakes, but when one crossed his way on the road, he’d get off his car and move it away with a stick so it didn’t die just like that, under his wheels.

He could hardly read a book and lacked much culture, yet he absolutely loved having a daughter who painted strange things and wrote silly romance novels, which many parents don’t. At least one thousand people passed by his coffin that day, and there were so many flower crowns that I could barely see it. He wasn’t perfect, but he was loved, and respected, and a good person, and had balls of steel.

It won’t be easy to go without him.

But we’re smiling and kinda… joking again, and going out for groceries, and everything’s slowly getting sorted into place. We’re still sad and confused, and the void of him is everywhere we look, but… There’s nothing else to do. I wanted to thank you all for your words and comments, and your lit candles and prayers; your dedication and support was moving, and it helped a lot with my mourning. I didn’t expect so much love from people across the internet.

Thank you all so, so much for your kindness. Really.

I’m back to commissions again, so when I finish a couple, you may expect a silly, horrible Star Wars romance cover soon, as a token of my gratitude. I don’t know how else to appreciate.
  • Listening to: Starset
  • Reading: Some romance novel
  • Watching: American Gods
  • Playing: World of Warcraft
  • Eating: Mint-choc ice-cream
  • Drinking: Probably Nestea
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Poetsiren Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2017
I just saw this entry!! I am so very sorry for the loss of your loved one! Your edited entry was beautiful and painted a picture of a human being who touched many lives and will be dearly missed. May he live forever in your heart, and in other hearts of those who adored him.
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LiberLibelula Featured By Owner Jul 31, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much, Poetsiren. I hope so, he was a good man. I mean, he had flaws like any other, but he was one of the good ones. We'll miss him dearly.
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Jeardawg Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2017
I am so sorry,   
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VeKKat Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2017   Digital Artist
All my condoleances. As someone who has lost a parent, I know how it feels. Your father seems to be an awesome man. You and your family take care of each other, it's the most important. I hope it will get better soon :hug:
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Neyebur Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2017
Te mando mis mejores deseos y muchos ánimos
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verauko Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
I'm very sorry to hear about your Dad, it sounds like he was a really awesome guy. I'm hoping everything will get better soon *hug*
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Inay Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
My condolences, I'm sorry.
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duVallonFecit Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017  Professional General Artist
Hug 
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newtman001 Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017  Professional General Artist
Hey Again:

Just so you know...  Please take your time coming back to work.  I'm glad you are not alone in your grief; that helps a little. 

Your father was a great man.  You have all my love and sympathy.
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MelodyLynngrace Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Hug 
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kiiwi-fruit Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017
as someone who also lost their father unexpectedly, i know how you must be feeling right now, and i'm glad you and your family are able to support each other. take care of yourself and take your time-- the world always seems way more chaotic after the death of a loved one, and taking time to catch up and put yourself back together and reflect is important. as much as it hurts, you'll survive and someday when you remember him it won't hurt at all.
be safe, we all care for you. :heart:
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LiberLibelula Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thank you so much.
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mystikcelt Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017
*offers another pint of mint-choc-ice-cream while we wait for American Gods s2*
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:iconliberlibelula:
LiberLibelula Featured By Owner Jun 30, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Heh, that's actually a great plan :D
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:iconbringerofashes:
BringerOfAshes Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Sounded like a good man. No matter what your beliefs are, I do think he is resting somewhere peaceful. It'll be hard for a long time, but eventually the pain from this loss will lessen; only for your love for that person to grow. Hope everything only gets better for you.
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Lady-Abbington Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017  Student Filmographer
I'm so sorry for your loss. :( Love and prayers for your family, and for the injured men and their families. <3 
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Stagiselle Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017
Reading this made me cry terribly, he sounded like such a great man. I'm so sorry for you and your family's loss, hopefully you will all continue to find strength from one another through such a hard time.
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jiobutler Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Shedding many tears for you this day. It will happen to all of us sooner or later, but it never makes it easier. 
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juuhanna Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Oh no, that's so terrible! :( Take care and give yourself as much time to heal as you need, recovering from such a loss should never be rushed. :rose:
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Rayba Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2017
Mis condolencias. Sé lo que se siente al perder alguien querido de golpe, te deja desvalido y atontado, y cuesta aceptarlo. Tómate tu tiempo, cuídate y procura que te mimen, y piensa que con el tiempo queda la cicatriz, pero la herida cura. Por cursi y manido que suene, es la verdad.

Muchos abrazos desde el lado norte de España.
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LiberLibelula Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Muchísimas gracias Rayba.
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:iconrayba:
Rayba Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2017
De nada, cuídate mucho y muchos ánimos.
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Brianna330 Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
My sincere condolences. I hope you'll feel better soon. 
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RobinTheBard Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
OH my gosh, that's terrible!!!!! :iconcryforeverplz: Hug  I am so sorry that happened to you and your family! :( Take all the time. If you need someone to talk to, I'll listen.
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FortheLoveofKei Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I'm sorry for your loss.
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:iconamyln:
Amyln Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
My heart is burning with sadness for you darling. Take all the time you need. 
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winter-herdiscontent Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
i am so very, very sorry to hear this lovely - any words i could come up with probably would be of no help in a time like this so all i can say is ...you are in my thoughts and i am sending you many, many hugs xxx
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Olooriel Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2017   Digital Artist
I am so very sorry.
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:iconaxalendra:
axalendra Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
i am so sorry for your loss
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jiobutler Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Endless apologies for your terrible loss. 
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YingYue24 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2017
My deepest condolences.
 :(
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FMARocksSoMuch Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I'm so sorry for your loss sweetheart. I hope things get better for you soon dear... :(
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Loukilouk04 Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2017
Sorry for your loss. Take care of you :/
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:iconmazoq:
Mazoq Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2017  Hobbyist Photographer
Oh my goodness... I'm so sorry... please take all the time you need. 
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CarolDrawsStuff Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2017   General Artist
I'm so sorry for your loss :(
Please, take care of yourself first.
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Topkicker26 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I am so sorry 😢
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Halduis Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2017
All my thoughts are with you and your family, Liber. Take as much time as you need to process all of this and to heal. We are all here for you.
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AlysaTaladay Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2017  Professional General Artist
:( so, so sorry for your loss!
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Fayen-ri Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
My sincere condolences.
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SasjaAnne Featured By Owner Edited Jun 23, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
So sorry for your loss, I can't even imagine how that feels. Don't try to put too much work on your shoulders to fast, needing time is okay <: )
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PhantasmicYouth Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
My condolences.
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TheDrunkenDarkHorse Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2017
My condolences to you and your family.
Take all the time that you need to mourn with you and your family, don't rush it. :)
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Avalonfang4 Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2017
My deepest condolences.
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The-Necromancer Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
My sincere condolences. 
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ProfDrLachfinger Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2017  Professional Interface Designer
My condolences. I can't imagine how you are feeling right now, but I wish you and your family a lot of strength!
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Auberghyn Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
I'm really sorry to hear that :(, my condolences. You take as much time as you need :(
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MaddalinaMocanu Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2017
I am so sorry for you. I can't imagine what you are going through.
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newtman001 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2017  Professional General Artist
I'm so sorry.  I've got an idea of what you're going through; I lost my father nearly four years ago.    Just know that I care about you and what you're going through. 

Please drop me a note if you need someone to write to.
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ExarKun922 Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2017
My deepest condolences.  Don't even worry about clients and commissions right now.  You take all the time in the world that you need for you and your family.  May you experience the Peace that passes all understanding.  
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estump Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I am so sorry that you suddenly lost your father.

Yes, in some ways there is comfort he didn't suffer.  My father died slowly from prostate cancer, but I did have a chance to visit and say goodbye, which was heartbreaking in itself.

Your father knew that you loved him, so know there is no regret in things you wished to say (I hope).

It's hard, very hard to lose a parent.  It hurts, but in time it gets better.

You have my deepest condolences.
*{HUGS}*
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