For the past few days I couldn't bring myself to draw anything, and tonight I basically been suffering a major heartbreak. A person I strongly had affections for did not return mine in the manner I hoped, and I couldn't stay friends with them. Not when I felt so much for them. They were everything to me and even though we fought I still cared a lot for them. They were my first real love interest I had in 12 years. So it's so painful I can't even seem to function right now. Happiness should come from within yourself, not from an outside source but they were everything to me. They made me happy. They were my muse. I really loved them.
It's pathetic of me to basically feel like the world is ending, and i don't have the right to.. when it was my choice to push them out of my life, but I just couldn't handle the thought of just being friends with them and knowing it could be possible that someday they would like someone and it wouldn't be me. Also i felt it was a punch in the stomach to stay friends with them while they knew how much I liked them but my affections wouldn't be returned. I will miss them a lot.
I'm a selfish person, I know that but I really don't care right now.
So until I can bring myself up again, I am removing my social media sites, all expect for DA. If i do come back again I might make a new DA account and try to start all over again.
Thank you for understanding.