An Imperfect Fool For You by LestatMalfoy, literature
Literature
An Imperfect Fool For You
You see these shell-cracked hands, these bare-roughed, red limbs? They can never be pretty for you, like I’d like them to, but they will write words for you; pages, scrolls, unending verses for you. So many words you’d get tangled, you’d forget the dry cracked skin that created the sea you’re drowning in. You hear this heart, this hollowed out, still beating drum? It’s a tarnished organ, a thumping muscle that’s still broken, but it keeps going for you. It pushes and pumps this blood in your name, in your memory and it sings loudly for you. I wish that it were whole and open for you, but it will remain constant, beating if only to be near you. You hear these words, the ones I find so hard to say? The words that leave me bare before you, in all the imperfect glory that is my life in your hands. They will tangle themselves inside you and pull you in, to kiss these lips that long to touch your skin.
The cruel night cloaks a clever beast as she wanders out into the trees. Her scent, feeble and tempting to his open nose. Teeth gleam and his mouth is dry with temptation. Tasty treat she appears to the wolf, but is this meal worth the danger of attacking in the open clearing? Worth a night time hunter lurking in the woods for a kill? The chances are slim and he licks his lips. She will taste so sweet, and he aches for that first bite. The stalking is his favorite part, as he watches her, unaware of the beast so near. He almost loves this girl. She will be killed with passion, devoured in admiration. A perfect murder and a thrill of their love. He lets her hear him, brushing near a tree, and she glances around in fear, wondering if someone is there. He can hear her heartbeat quicken and she picks up her pace. He’s wondering if he should prolong this torture or make himself known for what he is soon. Both possibilities have merit. Will this one scream or gasp so delightfully to his
I don't want to know me,
I don't want to make a sound.
Let's pretend I've stopped existing
and start breaking ground.
You can dig this hole for me,
even though I'm nowhere to be found.
You are the only one who can finish this,
though I'll never admit you were the only one keeping me around.
I don't want to hurt you anymore,
so go ahead and put me to rest.
Let's bury my body
and put denial to the test.
Who is this girl you knew?
Where is she?
She drowned on her own words
and now you're free.
Look me in the eye
as you lower me down.
I'll never stop being the one
who let you drown.
Forget me
for I'll not make a sound.
Being with you was like embracing the storm
I could have run
gotten away
Escaped the total devastation that would remain
Instead I ran to you
shot myself at you
Knowing you wouldn't catch me
just so I could taste you
and remember how it felt to hold you close
as I picked up what was left of me
Some might call me crazy
deluded
naive
But I knew my ending long before they could judge me
You were worth this pain
The briefest glimpse I was allowed
has made my broken heart new again