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Another fallen Pin up girl.
Sometimes I think of you together. Jealousy settles in it's course Then I remember... Me and her we're a like.. That round style face The Dark hair.. The quirky interests.. The fact that she is now What I used to be .. And what was I ? A pin up girl for your wall Slightly torn- Bent around the edges With only time to wear me down..
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Getting my stuff out.
The pale sky stretches out before me Rain pings off the ground around me As if the weather could tell me the outcome of the day My cheeks sting as the rain strengthens I barrel my fists into my pockets All too soon the apartment looms infront of me Pain and fear aches my chest. Will she be there? And then the world spins My heart rushes up Attempting to throw it's very self at the door But I can't move. I sink slowly and the ground runs to meet me.
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Who am I now
Who am I now ? Woman condemned by love Never to trust again Alienated forgotten distrustful ungloved. Perhaps cryptic. Embarking into an endless hunger Starving for sustenance Stripped of all that was loved Even oneself. Because in the end it's all a story it doesn't have to be a good one Because I believed and made true all the lies
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Sweat insomnia and tears
Bolt upright, sweat pumps down, The covers tight-en Sixth time tonight. How long until it kicks in These dreams are not My dreams once ag-ain This beds so big and im so thin Eye's lull, sleep takes hold Hostage to cupids chokehold again Shakes me rips me and leaves me where my inner most nightmares un-fold
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Just want to
Just want to Scream Shout let it all out Cry Pout Just let it all out.
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Sweat and tears saga.
How will I ever know now , The times when you were home, Where were you with your mischief, Were you actually alone. And what about the bed-sheets, Who else had you there, You claim you never brought her, Yet still I found her hair. Now what about the happy times, When we walked hand in hand, Do I try to forget them? Where the f*ck do I stand.
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I just can't suppress itThis
I just can't suppress it This shadow inside It lurks deep within me But like the coward: It hides.
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What day is it..
Can't comprehend what day it is... Don't know what is the time Only know to eat just enough to survive..... The mirror talks shit The scales weigh me down I don't know where to go from here..
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baggy jumper, please
Stand in the mirror Glare at it. Stare. One hour of Workout Still so much fat there. Open the fridge It's all just the same Calories sugars saturated fats I'm loosing the game. I want to be skinny It's all I think of morning until late Catch site of my reflection in the college doors See the fat that I hate. Don the baggy jumper.
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I don't like you and your skinny j-genes
Everything's changed Nothing is as before I just Don't recognize Can't accept Don't want to be Who I am anymore. Glass fattens Shadows lie. Mirrors, Cameras, They all try Repress me Depress me Force me to cry.
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Another fallen Pin up girl.
Sometimes I think of you together. Jealousy settles in it's course Then I remember... Me and her we're a like.. That round style face The Dark hair.. The quirky interests.. The fact that she is now What I used to be .. And what was I ? A pin up girl for your wall Slightly torn- Bent around the edges With only time to wear me down..
G
Getting my stuff out.
The pale sky stretches out before me Rain pings off the ground around me As if the weather could tell me the outcome of the day My cheeks sting as the rain strengthens I barrel my fists into my pockets All too soon the apartment looms infront of me Pain and fear aches my chest. Will she be there? And then the world spins My heart rushes up Attempting to throw it's very self at the door But I can't move. I sink slowly and the ground runs to meet me.
W
Who am I now
Who am I now ? Woman condemned by love Never to trust again Alienated forgotten distrustful ungloved. Perhaps cryptic. Embarking into an endless hunger Starving for sustenance Stripped of all that was loved Even oneself. Because in the end it's all a story it doesn't have to be a good one Because I believed and made true all the lies
S
Sweat insomnia and tears
Bolt upright, sweat pumps down, The covers tight-en Sixth time tonight. How long until it kicks in These dreams are not My dreams once ag-ain This beds so big and im so thin Eye's lull, sleep takes hold Hostage to cupids chokehold again Shakes me rips me and leaves me where my inner most nightmares un-fold
J
Just want to
Just want to Scream Shout let it all out Cry Pout Just let it all out.
S
Sweat and tears saga.
How will I ever know now , The times when you were home, Where were you with your mischief, Were you actually alone. And what about the bed-sheets, Who else had you there, You claim you never brought her, Yet still I found her hair. Now what about the happy times, When we walked hand in hand, Do I try to forget them? Where the f*ck do I stand.
I
I just can't suppress itThis
I just can't suppress it This shadow inside It lurks deep within me But like the coward: It hides.
W
What day is it..
Can't comprehend what day it is... Don't know what is the time Only know to eat just enough to survive..... The mirror talks shit The scales weigh me down I don't know where to go from here..
b
baggy jumper, please
Stand in the mirror Glare at it. Stare. One hour of Workout Still so much fat there. Open the fridge It's all just the same Calories sugars saturated fats I'm loosing the game. I want to be skinny It's all I think of morning until late Catch site of my reflection in the college doors See the fat that I hate. Don the baggy jumper.
I
I don't like you and your skinny j-genes
Everything's changed Nothing is as before I just Don't recognize Can't accept Don't want to be Who I am anymore. Glass fattens Shadows lie. Mirrors, Cameras, They all try Repress me Depress me Force me to cry.
So... Am I Pretty Yet?
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Make a Wish
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Girl behind the mask
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Always
Always happy, never snappy, heart of gold, wisdom of the old, accepting and loving, pick up after the fall, they do it all, best friends, connection never ends!
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No Rhyme No Song
worries fill me with dread, how will i ever leave this bed, I shake, cold, awake, all is wrong, the day too long, empty and full, no rhyme no song, I hide, burry it deep inside, no one shall find, the damage it's left behind.
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little voices
Little voices. Little voices pick us apart, squabbling mind over heart, It's time to restart.
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Caught in the under-tow.
Caught in the under-tow, acting as part of the great show, I aim to fit in, to hide what's within, become a blank face in the crowd, not to talk too loud, you press your ways on me, suppressing my originality, But I am strong, I'll prove you wrong, You can put me down, but I wont drown, Caught in the under-tow.
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What I Didn't Know.
What I Didn't Know. It wasn't fair, your cool stare, When you said you see, I know you lied to me, I loved you so, But you weren't to know, My heart sinks, My mind over-thinks, What we could have been, All I could have seen, But I let you go, Afraid of what I didn't know.
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For those of you who are wondering, I am still alive and kicking, just very busy. I have been working on some pieces... and have started a big project.. the details of which I will link you to and talk about later. Thanks for keeping me on your watch list despite my absence. Hopefully I will grab some time tonight and tomorrow to take this page by the hands and cause mayhem. Love to you all =) Lean ;).

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Hey, thanks for being one of my watchers!
If you take the time to guess a number between 7 and 77 on my journal you can win some Halloween candy, snacks , and an original art piece/sketch!
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Thank you for the Watch! ^_^!
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Luxiella| Digital Artist
Thank you for the watch! <3
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don't forget to return the favour ;)
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Luxiella| Digital Artist
alright lmao xD
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~thankyou for the watch~
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hsybbed|Hobbyist General Artist
hi dear,
I'm here to bring bad news.
But first, I shall introduce myself.
I'm :icondebbysh:, do you remember about me? check in your friends list and you'll find me.

Someone hacked me, stole my points, my art and my account.
Would you still follow me?
Please, I really need to know that friends are still there for me :(
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