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When I called you life, I ... by lawyer, literature

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When I called you life, I ...

When I called you Life, I wasn't lyingCry to make my pain go away But it only makes it harder to write Slowly the tears are falling There on my right cheek The water in the other eye is still inside I am only expressing facts Do not think if you leave you will make It easier for me for the long run Because I will suffer till my end The end meaning the day I die I understand why you are so cold But trust me this is not the way to heal it I know you are trying to make me strong As a shield for my future which awaits me Without you by my side anymore But this only makes me paler It is enough I can no longer have you Why start from now Why blo...

FuLL oF FlaWs by lawyer, literature

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FuLL oF FlaWs

embracing myself staring at my reflection steam dancing my eyes burning my face vivid stunningly i look at me trasnslucently pass the linings pass my eyes nose lips i touch my heart still poundering from the lost touch from the final line of connection i look at myself and smile hugging my complexion wiping away my tears amidst the evalanche of broken promises amidst the adversity of bidding my other me farewell i still managed to stay strong i still fake that crumpled smile smiling at myself loving me for the first time although resting reassuringly aware that my delicate skin and screaming personality are full of flawstrying hard to conn...

Little ThinGs That Mean Alot by lawyer, literature

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Little ThinGs That Mean Alot

Here is a little something to remember you by A lose university ID A passport sized photo A little letter in my wallet An empty candy plastic bag A lovely recited poem Conversations from the past Photographs of every moment we shared Short and shirts Graduation video cassette These little things which helped tie the bond Do you remember the harsh frown I gave to your university security guard? When you registered He destroyed the old ID Your ID I was so willing to keep For him it was garbage For me it was a treasure I willingly hide in my beloved chest of treasures He laughed at my angry gesture And apologized light heartedly You probably ...

Sweet SonG by lawyer, literature

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Sweet SonG

Sweet SongEvery night every day Every smile gone astray Every word every say Every look gone my way Every light every ray Every doubt every may Left me in DisarrayEvery glance every scorn Every feeling that is born Every promise that is sworn Every sweet every corn Every lie meant to adorn Every grin that was worn Left me tornEvery touch that I felt Every burn every melt Every wound every welt Every fight that was dealt Every shield every belt Every letter that was sent Left me peltTill when must I hide When will I glide? When will I find you beside? When will you love as wide? When will we take our ride? When will you abide You, I and lov...

A Pool Of ThouGhts by lawyer, literature

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A Pool Of ThouGhts

A Pool of ThouGhtsLivinG in a world of contradiction StruGGlinG between the heart and mind TryinG to mend my own corruption FailinG to make our lives bind.SearchinG out there for any distraction NothinG unfortunately is there to find SurrenderinG himself to weak cursed temptation ForcinG myself to leave memories behind.DemolishinG all the bricks from construction TearinG me thouGh I was blind LosinG myself in a whirlpool of contemplation BurryinG this heart who was nothing but kind

Not just a Picture by lawyer, literature

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Not just a Picture

A picture +++ It is true when they say A picture speaks a thousand words But I have a picture That exceeds the greatest novels A picture of life A picture of death A picture of reborn A picture that alerted me when I was unaware A picture that made me Gaze with wonder A picture that made my heart pounce before I take My first peek A picture that made me race home A picture that shook my veins Before the medicine Was injected +++ My trembling hands Opened the pc At first I barely recognized And the concept was blurry My mind was at ease When you were ok But were you really The picture spoke a lot She whispered in my ears She hissed at me An...

wish you were here by lawyer, literature

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wish you were here

Wish you were here Amidst my pain I scream Scratching the scorn from my heart Wish you were here Resentment building up Tying my hands My tongue To spill the words I might regret I die in agony In silence Why don’t you break it? Wish you were here Outside is so cold Your coat is not on me anymore Shut the windows And the doors Lighting the candle Reminiscing your voice Wish you were here Too far away To control Bricks are building in Blessed tears grew tired To fall No one there to caress My cold cheeks Anymore Even water Wish you were here Swirling my coffee With the tiny golden spoon Gleaming on hunting memories No one to fiddle with my ...

how can you let go by lawyer, literature

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how can you let go

Here I write once again, my pen is bleeding. After the wounds were slowly healing, the injury started to get worse. Bleeding relentlessly, I scream, wishing for clots to form, why can’t I just die peacefully, why can’t my heart just stop. There you were my knight in shining armor, holding my trembled hands, guiding me to the opened sea. There we felt the cool sands on our feet, there you held my hands firmly, and kissed me… How can I forget the lustrous stars, how can I forget your eyes that shone even brighter than the beautiful palette above us. How can I forget the way we sat together, the way we listened to Tupac, the sounds of our lau...

Happy Birthday My Sweet Blushy by lawyer, literature

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Happy Birthday My Sweet Blushy

I do not want to talk moochy I just do not feel comfortable But now I feel I have to Do not misunderstand I know am not obliged But my heart is plunging Me to write … How can you describe An angel How can you describe Your soul mate How can you express your love? Your intimacy Your relationship Deep inside you know If you were to be isolated Or caste away And you had to choose Some one to be with you With my eyes close I chose you … I can not live without you … I can not stay in Dubai without you … I suffered 2 years in Switzerland … Because I could not bare to see your empty room When you left to Boston … We were always together When the ...

too tired to talk aloud by lawyer, literature

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too tired to talk aloud

Laying on my bed staring at the screen my head hurts am too tired to grab a pill what am i writing i feel like talking but too tired to utter a sound here is my companion when everything seems far when everything seems tiring my writingwhat is nicer than writing for you I look at the black atmosphere around me complete darkness I feel my eyes they are dry I promise you I am not going to cry you hate to see me like this and I hate it moreThen again why would I cry why should I there isn't any reason or maybe there are all the reasons I know deep inside you are mine you know that yourself I know I know this isn't a love lectureNow you trust ...

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i is u by lawyer, literature

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i is u

I is U My sweet love, this day finally approached, the day of my revenge. I told you, you would want me back, and I would raise my head up high and turn my back… but once again my victory was a lost! I wanted you again…. I do not know what made you ponder on about me, was it the shirt you were wearing, or the food court, or the lonely seats in the movie? Was it my laughs, my tears, our jokes, my sweet talks, my writings? Before yesterday, you spoke to me again, I told you, I’ve written you a letter, and you laughed your pretty laugh! And asked when you could read it. Why do you miss me suddenly? Did you finally realize that my love, our lo...

if only u knew by lawyer, literature

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if only u knew

How I wish if I was ignorant, how I wish he did not tell me u were not u, but some one else. I loved every moment of our existence together. Your voice, your laughs, your smile, the color of your unique eyes, though you say you hate them, I love them… oh I hate myself, I was too timid to look at you straight in the eye, and alter these cherished breath taking words, I love you. You were there next to me, feeding me, lifting me up, as though I was a light butterfly. You were always there staring at me, as though I was the only girl in the planet, and you always managed to color my flesh crimson red. You were there the first time I saw you, ...

heart broken by lawyer, literature

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heart broken

i say these words holding back my tears, trying best to be strong, i did all what i could do, but ur a hopeless case... the pain is great, when i am the only 1 who cares, am telling u this, we're through, for u its alright, i wasnt urs from a long time ago, ur used 2 it, but for me its all new,,, im absorbing it all in, as though it was tumor in my brain,,, i saw people i love die, i wish i was there to join them, only this wish is a crime, but something i hope for, but will never do... the fantasies i still carry in my dreamz and when im awake, i would blast them out, as though it were bubbles, nice but sickening, sweet to look at, cute t...

drowning by lawyer, literature

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drowning

I drown but there is no one to lift me. I cry a million tear but no one cares. My little brother just asked me the reason for these tears, and I replied my eyes are just sensitive. This child just by laying next to me feels my misery, but those to whom I suffered, and stood by, turned their backs when I fell down. Don’t they know that I fell down, because of them? But to me, it was Ok. Everything was Ok. I didn’t take it as walking backwards but victory as though I was climbing a mountain or walking upstairs. I watch the TV, of those who suffer a lot, these children in Mali and Palestine… I see the blood that shed and those tears in their ...

sultan by lawyer, literature

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sultan

How shallow was I not to discern reality. How trivial you were in deceiving me. As they say love is blind. I fell as a victim under your disguise.My love emerged from the flame. The flame you burned in my soul. The soul you named yours. Liar I want to scream.My soul could never be yours. I have a heart unlike you. The one you shattered with no sympathy. The one you broke into countless pieces.So here I am, writing about you. Two years passed, and my eyes do not relent. I struggle to hold back the tears. But my eyes like your pollen words are strong.I fight but the wounds are greater. I know I am right to forget you. But why oh why, do I fe...

Time To ReconsideR by lawyer, literature

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Time To ReconsideR

time to reconsider trapped, lost and abandoned all the gates are shut and all the doors locked. the hour glass is pleased. snowballs seem to cascade. time is runninG up, but who cares?? No 1 is here 2 complain it seems like i want to die. life is not my heaven. the blood in my veins are blocked. but my tears flow though in a race. i try to prevent it, God knows how, as a shield from shame, a mask from embarrasement, but they over power me. how long will it take 4 u 2 understand? that my tears are pure. that my heart beats and drink the wounds, though they r deadly. will it kill u 2 give me a chance? just 1, i beg u. to try and understand m...

What Happened To Me ? by lawyer, literature

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What Happened To Me ?

What happened to me?I feel like I’ve been cursed. I feel like I’m under a spell. I have changed to the worse. I used to be sensitive. Especially around my parents. I was a good girl. But if they’ve yelled I cried for nights. Even if it was a little misunderstanding, My eyes still managed to cascade, Fountains and fountains of water. But now that I have grown, This heart had metamorphosed to stone. I try to shake it forcefully, But those bitter tears won't flow. So stubborn as they are, I feel worse. I try to cry, I try believe me. But no, they won’t listen. I feel malicious, heartless. My mom feels heart broken. She caught me with a fault....

HeaRt CaGe by lawyer, literature

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HeaRt CaGe

Sometimes I feel like my heart was a never ending heart beating cage, yearning for love, each time it receives emotions it shakes like a heart beat, sometimes the cage stops, and I remain breathless. Why do I always care if you loved me back, because my love is so vast, it stings me so, to sense lack of love or respect or tender care from the angel of my days and the knight of my dreams? If my love was just a smooth current in a shore, I would not have cared so much, although my eyes will not relent to cascade some tears from cruel harsh destinies, but imagine if I loved, all the pain and the hurt guilt although it might not be my fault, b...

Behind My Mask by lawyer, literature

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Behind My Mask

Behind my maskI did not lose you. No 1 can lose something he did not have.But I lost the mirage. Like water in a desert.I thought your love was pure, Like the holy water.I thought you were innocent, Like a child’s laughter.Your tricked me in believing, You were my angel.I am sad to say, You were true, you are my angel.The angel in a devil’s heart, But a tongue of innocence.You tripped me, Crashed and burned me…Yet I whole heartedly say, I can not resist loving you.This hate, like coal, Dark and bitter refuses to implant…I did not learn to hate. Why was I cursed ?? I did not need love.Love was embodied in me, Like the waves in the see.But y...

Hurt at NiGht by lawyer, literature

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Hurt at NiGht

did u ever feel that u need 2 escape every niGht ? u cannot bare the thouGht of the dark dullness, becoz u r aware that ur past will hunt u, when the world is peaceful. u open up your books, music, turn on the tv, just 2 4get, but u surrender. tears begin 2 rainfall, salty bitter tears that sting ur eyes, making u look dubious, u could barely see. u try 2 sing, just 2 4get, change ur mood, distract urself. fly away from the huge burden, and the hell of the atmosphere. u sing 2 soften ur voice, 2 make it cool again after the bitter cries of the night, and u cannot help, but think, is it worth it? u cry urself 2 sleep, but does that person, ...

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lawyer

Aug 6, 2007

I am Back !!!

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Hey, I joined years ago, and I was active the most before I started my university. So much had happened, till I found myself not posting anymore. :( I miss your writing, pictures and your opinions on my writing. Sorry for not posting any of my poems and passages for so long, fortunately I did not stop writing, although my life's issues distracted me from sharing them with you. I went through the toughest experiences :( , and writing just calmed me down. It is truly a medicine, whenever I am depressed I just type a poem, and the story builds itself on the screen. It really does calm your flamed self, without it I can not find myself. :) Tra...

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lawyer

Dec 8, 2006

more about me

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I got tagged by man9or , here we go :-1) Full Name: lawyer 4ever al legality :P 2) Male/Female: Female 3) Were you named after anyone? no 4) Does your name mean anything? yeah... 5) Nick Name(s): galooba, ( others too similar with my real name ) 6) If you had to choose a new name, what would it be? hind, amna 7) Date Of Birth: 04/07/88 8) Place of Birth and Current Location: Dxb 10) Astrology Sign: Cancer 11) Chinese Astrology Sign: madree 12) Religion: Muslim 13) What's your favorite smell? cartier 14) Political Position? striving to be a successful lawyer ;) 15) What do you prefer to drink in the morning?coffee, orinimin c 16) Hair + Ey...