lawlietlk

So I noticed I hadn't updated my journal for like... two years. SO HERE'S AN UPDATE ABOUT A COOL THING!!
My husband and I moved to Japan this week. We're still settling in and getting over jet lag, but everything's going pretty darn well. 
Although walking around and /attempting/ to talk to everyone really makes me realize just how much Japanese I have to learn. Just when I think I'm doing kind of okay someone tries to tell me something important or make me sign something and I'm like, ".....wutokaysure."

I'm really worried that I'm not learning fast enough. I've only been here a week, but I hear other people talk about how quickly they pick up new languages when they're surrounded by it all the time, but I've never been that good at memorizing or studying so I'm afraid I may never pick up Japanese. I couldn't even get through high school. I feel like I should be learning at least like ten new words a day, but I'm not. I feel like I shouldn't be speaking any English at all, but I totally do. Most of the time. I feel like I'm not immersing myself enough. But I can't really tell. I don't seem to have the ability to learn Japanese from only listening to/reading Japanese. I have to look up translations and try to memorize them. I can't just figure out what people are saying from context alone. Is that normal? Am I just dumb? How is this supposed to work? 

It's not really fair of me to judge myself to harshly based on only a week's worth of experience, but I'm still really worried. I always am. 
Anyway, there's what's on my mind for the time being.