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Literature
Routine
Dark thoughts spiral me
into dark spots and I'll be
paying the hard costs
killing myself with thoughts of
Past loss
Late nights keeping me
in depression's sights
laptop screen's fake lights
keep me up till it's daylight
Waste of life
Loneliness keeps returning
me to being a mess
a tired and an over-stressed
pathetic shell that's worthless
I confess
Fears consume what's left
of me, years of gloom
leading to my final doom
wanna lock myself in this room
This will be my tomb
Nothing left, no hope,
left bereft, I can't cope
On dreams dead, as I choke,
what's in my head, no one knows
No joke
This routine makes me
regret what I have been
doing to my own damn being
really wanna start over clean
The pain's obscene
Eyes are tired, my body
now gives up and retires
to my bed, it desires
to simply rest till required
Sleep acquired.
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Literature
Alone
Another day, another reason to break down.
Another person, another trust has been broken now.
As if my existence mattered to no one,
Unfortunately my happiness depends on everyone.
How does one stand alone,
How does one stand strong?
How does one walk this road,
On their own for so long?
How does one fight and defend,
at the same time?
How does one stop the bleeding,
When your heart itself is crying?
Another night, another spate of isolation.
Another fright that I am again the victim of desertion.
As if no matter how much I give to others,
I will always be left in loneliness that smothers.
No man is an island,
No man can live alone,
But being stranded in their silence,
Is all I've ever known.
Being stranded in their silence,
Is all I've ever known.
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Literature
Fire
There is a fire in me,
That this world has tried to put out many times
This fire burns free,
Even though burning brightly has been made a crime
This fire wants to spread love,
And this fire will never go out,
This fire just needs to BE loved,
And it will burn even brighter without a doubt
This fire burns too strongly for some,
Illuminates them brighter than the sun,
And when their demons cannot bear that light,
They escape, fleeing into the night
This fire has consumed me many a time,
But it roars even louder when the past is dying,
I've been burnt to ashes, but come out flying,
As a phoenix reborn, with a new fire that shines
With every passing day, although it grew in size
I'd vowed to never stop fighting to keep it alight
But in a flash of the blaze I've finally realised,
I AM the fire burning bright
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Literature
Cuts
The cuts that left me unwanted,
The cuts that left me haunted,
The cuts that came out of nowhere,
In my soul have left this tear
The cuts have left me marred,
The cuts have left me scarred,
The cuts left on my skin,
They have split me wide open
The cuts are deeper than I can take,
The cuts have left me in their wake,
The cuts, never know if they will heal,
All I know now is how they make me feel
The cuts on my hand to match,
The cuts that my heart did catch,
The cuts are still hanging around,
Like old friends that make no sound
The cuts are all I have left,
Of those who cut me and left,
Left alone to wonder what I did wrong,
These cuts are all I have to go on
The cuts make the broken stronger,
But I can't take these cuts much longer,
Maybe I should be proud I've survived,
Through every day I've felt I've died
And now these cuts linger there,
But I'm not scared to lay them bare,
The cuts, of me they are a part,
Like broken memories etched on my heart
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Literature
Patience
As the silent hours pass,
My mind begins to crack like glass,
And the light that's on the inside,
Starts bleeding through my broken pride
The demons on the other side,
Been years, yet they've not died,
With their heavy fists, they beat the wall,
But I will make sure it does not fall
I hold it up, I try to stand tall,
And not let myself be in thrall,
To the voices, of which there is no end,
Of the demons, that do rip and rend
To the cracks in the glass, I must tend
Even if my bones break and my body bends,
I must remind myself of my final goal,
That I cannot let them take my soul
The one that slowly, this world stole,
It's time I tried to make it whole,
To be true to what makes me free,
Gives me power to be the best version of me
Yet it is difficult to hide, to not let them see,
The cracks in people as broken as we,
But I do this is for them, for whom I care,
For those who love me, for they are rare
Now that I'm spent, I lay myself bare,
The demons fall silent, they do not dare,
For I h
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Literature
The Course of Life
Set firmly upon the earth,
On this road built of patience,
Let life's chariot take you far,
Uncertain are your destinations.
Do not let your fear parry,
Let the Fates take their course,
Life is the undulating valley,
Between the mountains and the shores.
And love is like the clouds,
Unreachable from down here,
But time is at the helm,
Unfurl the sails, let time steer.
And as the seasons pass,
The clouds will themselves reach you,
Love will be yours at last,
Infinite as these waters you speed through.
The future will all be revealed,
In due course of time,
As sunlight breaks through the stormy sky,
Inescapable clarity will be mine.
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Literature
Memories
The air is old and freezing cold,
Thick with regret, like a slow death,
Its stench wrapped around my insides,
Suffocating me, like something has died.
I wish I could stop breathing,
Because every time I do,
It ignites another memory of you
I wish I could stop dreaming,
Because every time I do,
We're happy together, but that's far from the truth
And when I wake up,
I just can't shake off,
What felt so intensely real,
But now seems like a cruel
joke,
a last attempt at hope,
Me creating false memories,
To replace the ones that broke
me more than I already was,
Now no amount of love
Can save this lost cause
Nothing hurts more
Than the apathy of a loved one
Because the hurt goes deeper
Than the depths that your blood runs
And so this air that is so cold,
Eats away at my very soul,
I'm trying to hold onto it but like sand,
It silently slips away from my hand
All that's left is an empty shell,
A husk of who I used to be,
I can't even feel a thing anymore,
Emotions are a distant memory
Remembe
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Literature
Inner Child
I've got my back to the wall,
Keep going back to what started it all,
Living with the fear that something small,
Could once again trigger my fall.
I've lost blood, lost love,
Lost flesh, the wounds are fresh.
The memory is the enemy,
Wrapping itself around me,
Slithering quietly and deceptively,
Too gradually for me to see.
Wounds hurt as if they were made yesterday,
It wasn't my fault, yet I'm the one to pay.
The mild bursts of pain there to remind me
of all the flaws I've gathered in this lifelong sea.
Was born a clean slate, an innocent,
Was molded by hate, anger and providence,
By fate grew up into a lack of confidence,
Negative space, that's all I've got within.
I know it's all just chemicals in my brain,
I'm doing all I can do to refrain
myself from being crippled at their behest,
But it's not enough, it's not my best.
But sadly when I'm the only one,
Who would fight by me, who wouldn't run,
It's easier said than done, to face the tide,
To stop it from washing me aside.
That love
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Activity


Dark thoughts spiral me
into dark spots and I'll be
paying the hard costs
killing myself with thoughts of
Past loss

Late nights keeping me
in depression's sights
laptop screen's fake lights
keep me up till it's daylight
Waste of life

Loneliness keeps returning
me to being a mess
a tired and an over-stressed
pathetic shell that's worthless
I confess

Fears consume what's left
of me, years of gloom
leading to my final doom
wanna lock myself in this room
This will be my tomb

Nothing left, no hope,
left bereft, I can't cope
On dreams dead, as I choke,
what's in my head, no one knows
No joke

This routine makes me
regret what I have been
doing to my own damn being
really wanna start over clean
The pain's obscene

Eyes are tired, my body
now gives up and retires
to my bed, it desires
to simply rest till required
Sleep acquired.
Another day, another reason to break down.
Another person, another trust has been broken now.
As if my existence mattered to no one,
Unfortunately my happiness depends on everyone.

How does one stand alone,
How does one stand strong?
How does one walk this road,
On their own for so long?

How does one fight and defend,
at the same time?
How does one stop the bleeding,
When your heart itself is crying?

Another night, another spate of isolation.
Another fright that I am again the victim of desertion.
As if no matter how much I give to others,
I will always be left in loneliness that smothers.

No man is an island,
No man can live alone,
But being stranded in their silence,
Is all I've ever known.

Being stranded in their silence,
Is all I've ever known.
There is a fire in me,
That this world has tried to put out many times
This fire burns free,
Even though burning brightly has been made a crime

This fire wants to spread love,
And this fire will never go out,
This fire just needs to BE loved,
And it will burn even brighter without a doubt

This fire burns too strongly for some,
Illuminates them brighter than the sun,
And when their demons cannot bear that light,
They escape, fleeing into the night

This fire has consumed me many a time,
But it roars even louder when the past is dying,
I've been burnt to ashes, but come out flying,
As a phoenix reborn, with a new fire that shines

With every passing day, although it grew in size
I'd vowed to never stop fighting to keep it alight
But in a flash of the blaze I've finally realised,
I AM the fire burning bright
The cuts that left me unwanted,
The cuts that left me haunted,
The cuts that came out of nowhere,
In my soul have left this tear

The cuts have left me marred,
The cuts have left me scarred,
The cuts left on my skin,
They have split me wide open

The cuts are deeper than I can take,
The cuts have left me in their wake,
The cuts, never know if they will heal,
All I know now is how they make me feel

The cuts on my hand to match,
The cuts that my heart did catch,
The cuts are still hanging around,
Like old friends that make no sound

The cuts are all I have left,
Of those who cut me and left,
Left alone to wonder what I did wrong,
These cuts are all I have to go on

The cuts make the broken stronger,
But I can't take these cuts much longer,
Maybe I should be proud I've survived,
Through every day I've felt I've died

And now these cuts linger there,
But I'm not scared to lay them bare,
The cuts, of me they are a part,
Like broken memories etched on my heart
Cuts
The most broken of us have scars, whether physical or emotional, forever there to remind us of the past.
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evangelian007 Featured By Owner Mar 6, 2016
Thank you for the fav. :hug:
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LamboMan7 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome! :D :handshake:
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WonderWomanForEver Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2015
Thanks for the favs
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LamboMan7 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
No problemo! :)
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WonderWomanForEver Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015
Haha
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