trigger warning: cutting, self harm, depression, all those. if you don't wanna hear it, don't read this please.
But I don't know who else to tell. I don't have therapy again for another two weeks.
I never understood self harm. Well, I understood it from a psychological perspective that it releases endorphins and some people do it in a way that is supposed to give them control on something in their life. There were plenty of reasons I read about and understood in a clinical kind of way.
I kind of had my first bout of true understanding today. I didn't cut myself or harm myself. I gave a promise to all my friends I would never intentionally