To be a writer
Means to have yet another excuse for bad behavior.
It means that when I sit next to you and I am wrestling the
smoke from your cigarette like a bear I want to believe
we'll end up on the floor in gritty film rolls and beer cans
and start to choke.
Because I remember how the whiskey made her eyes
shine and her her hair a swimming pool. When she took
me aside and said
"You two are going to destroy each other," with a little
Parisian smile. Expecting one day to read great mythology
that we made with bread knives we stuck in each other's
So one day I felt like being more clever than
romantic and I caught you b
can't show emotion.
What can I do,
what can I say?
I'm voiceless, mindless, numb, and afraid.
I have no way to express what I feel,
perhaps with words...
Perhaps with words I may,
over come this stumbling block
Perhaps one day I may say
with these words upon a page
how I feel.
What I feel.
but emotions I have.
so you say.
Yet I think,
I think deep thoughts.
The cavern is black.
Careful- you could fall down there.
I've had quite a few messages over the last year requesting me to do photo commissions of various themes and models, which is of course flattering and I'm glad so many people like my work enough to want me to produce more of it. However, many of these requests have been ridiculous in expectation; essentially, asking me to create photo sets for people for free. I've had a couple of people respond in surprise when I've said I'd require a fee, telling me they assumed I would do it as a friendly gift of sorts, despite the fact that I don't know those people from Adam.
A commissioned photo shoot is not cost-free to me. I have to book the model/s
Despite having it on my profile that I have a fiancé with whom I regularly work, I still often get random males on here leaving comments or, more commonly, private messages that are inappropriate and to be honest, really f*cking annoying and not remotely flattering. It shows me that telling me how great my images are is just blowing smoke up my arse and a way to start conversation before slipping in a comment about how 'sexy' I am or that I should be their new best friend and wanting to know details about my private life, because if these people had taken a proper look at my profile, they would have clearly seen that I'm not available. O
I'm very happy to say that my lovely John proposed last night in a bar in Edinburgh after singing me a love song on karaoke ^_^ I'm now the proud owner of a purple-stoned ring (obviously, lol) and a very happy lass.
Love you so much John!!! ~stphq (https://www.deviantart.com/stphq) xxxx :heart: