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I am the fabled starving artist
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Catalyst
Suffering in absolute silence Hate breeding, edge of violence. Ears closed to desperate pleas Snarling rage, just let me be. No tears pool,  no drops fall Strike a match to burn it all. Hands falter with rush of memories Bittersweet i smile sadly at the scenes. No words to egg me nor beg me stay Mildly curious gaze as I walk away. Fire licks fingertips with a flick its no longer dangerous. Filled with anger,  none to blame I alone hold all the shame. The denominator of pain The catalyst always stains. Head held high, trailing flames I move on for there is no other way.
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Legend
Thinking back to 27 wild and untamed Upon town lips My name was sang. Drinking whiskey from A gallon tea jug On the highway Going 100+. Covered in snow In the middle of June Yelling free bird When the band cued. Hops and barley Flowing through my veins The blues of my eyes Drowning under the strain. A different bar Every night to play the same A new group of prospects To set the stage To a sea of randoms I show the rage. Musical motorcycles My favorite game. I'm alive at mostly 37 I've been rage since 11 Tame for the most part I'll still die a legend.
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The Hole In Me
Whispers heard on backs of whippoorwills Carried across the ears of mourners Dirt falls silently from shovels as the dead are laid to rest Fearsome lovers, Fearless Fates, softly the tears fall, softly the hearts break, the rhythm of life without them, shudders at the slower pace. Gone to rest too soon, too soon, The final fall of dirt proof of end. The sound of birds and melodies of flowers sing “I miss you my beloved, my forever darling.” The echo of silence, the sound Oh the sound of mine heart breaking. Gone down to one where once there were two You were buried and my heart died with you. The hole in the ground Filled more
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My King
A ghost of this feeling Had me mimicing motions For far longer than I should. Pride burst forth with love The connection, our bond,   repaired in an instant And I can breathe once more. It's been gone so long I feared never would it return. I want to cry in relief I want to laugh with joy. With one gesture you've shown That I mean the world to you. You dusted off my throne Placed my heart back in its home. I don't need to be the center Of your universe, Just the axis on which it turns. You hand me my crown Together we watch The match unfold.
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Jumbled
I love you still and it eats at me every single day. I feel like I'm living someone else's life it's a great life but it doesn't feel like mine. It doesn't fit, like you did. And I miss you! Every time I breathe out, I bite my tongue so your name doesn't escape. It's been years dammit why can't I have a reprieve? I haven't even seen you in all this time but it's like I've never left your side. I'm happy but A huge part of me is missing and how can I ever be ok without you?
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Neverending Story
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Too Old Too Play
I've pasted the age of willing to share I've been the wife the other woman truthfully neither seemed real I want to be the one and only to know that never will he stray To say the words is easy To put it into action to no other will you have an emotional nor physical attachment it becomes not so easy to practice you have to be faithful in more than just your body but also with your actions I don't want suspicion to turn into a habit it's too easy for it to fester and breed since when am I no longer all that you need why did you piece my heart back together if your goal was just to make it bleed stop making me question my place in your li
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In All Honesty
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June
It's been so long And I've been long gone And a song comes on And I'm in your arms A tear falls down A heartbreak sound And it's still too soon Since I saw you And the month of June It's an avalanche and I can't fight it A dynamite blast and I can't hide it An earthquake and a hurricane Don't you see the rain? I'm all shades of blue when I, think of you. A lighter that's been around the world A sappy soul in a frozen hearted girl Mile 112 and highway 109 Memories and songs They blend in time My own brass knuckle lullaby No more fights but I still cry It's an avalanche and I can't fight it A dynamite blast and I can't hide it An earthqua
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Set Me Free
I can't think I can't sleep got these feelings moving round in me Can't let it go don't tell me so everyone knows I'm stuck on you Please take this badboy out of me please take his ghost and set me free oh take this badboy out of me Everywhere I go memories come and go where you and I had the time of our lives We fought and raged rattled each cage stopped and loved the same way gave it everything we had Please take this badboy out of me please take his ghost and set me free oh take this badboy out of me I've made my peace I've left you be mostly and I'm still drownin in you I've moved on oh yeah I'm long gone but the hold of the p
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Catalyst
Suffering in absolute silence Hate breeding, edge of violence. Ears closed to desperate pleas Snarling rage, just let me be. No tears pool,  no drops fall Strike a match to burn it all. Hands falter with rush of memories Bittersweet i smile sadly at the scenes. No words to egg me nor beg me stay Mildly curious gaze as I walk away. Fire licks fingertips with a flick its no longer dangerous. Filled with anger,  none to blame I alone hold all the shame. The denominator of pain The catalyst always stains. Head held high, trailing flames I move on for there is no other way.
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Legend
Thinking back to 27 wild and untamed Upon town lips My name was sang. Drinking whiskey from A gallon tea jug On the highway Going 100+. Covered in snow In the middle of June Yelling free bird When the band cued. Hops and barley Flowing through my veins The blues of my eyes Drowning under the strain. A different bar Every night to play the same A new group of prospects To set the stage To a sea of randoms I show the rage. Musical motorcycles My favorite game. I'm alive at mostly 37 I've been rage since 11 Tame for the most part I'll still die a legend.
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The Hole In Me
Whispers heard on backs of whippoorwills Carried across the ears of mourners Dirt falls silently from shovels as the dead are laid to rest Fearsome lovers, Fearless Fates, softly the tears fall, softly the hearts break, the rhythm of life without them, shudders at the slower pace. Gone to rest too soon, too soon, The final fall of dirt proof of end. The sound of birds and melodies of flowers sing “I miss you my beloved, my forever darling.” The echo of silence, the sound Oh the sound of mine heart breaking. Gone down to one where once there were two You were buried and my heart died with you. The hole in the ground Filled more
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My King
A ghost of this feeling Had me mimicing motions For far longer than I should. Pride burst forth with love The connection, our bond,   repaired in an instant And I can breathe once more. It's been gone so long I feared never would it return. I want to cry in relief I want to laugh with joy. With one gesture you've shown That I mean the world to you. You dusted off my throne Placed my heart back in its home. I don't need to be the center Of your universe, Just the axis on which it turns. You hand me my crown Together we watch The match unfold.
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Jumbled
I love you still and it eats at me every single day. I feel like I'm living someone else's life it's a great life but it doesn't feel like mine. It doesn't fit, like you did. And I miss you! Every time I breathe out, I bite my tongue so your name doesn't escape. It's been years dammit why can't I have a reprieve? I haven't even seen you in all this time but it's like I've never left your side. I'm happy but A huge part of me is missing and how can I ever be ok without you?
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Neverending Story
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Too Old Too Play
I've pasted the age of willing to share I've been the wife the other woman truthfully neither seemed real I want to be the one and only to know that never will he stray To say the words is easy To put it into action to no other will you have an emotional nor physical attachment it becomes not so easy to practice you have to be faithful in more than just your body but also with your actions I don't want suspicion to turn into a habit it's too easy for it to fester and breed since when am I no longer all that you need why did you piece my heart back together if your goal was just to make it bleed stop making me question my place in your li
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In All Honesty
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June
It's been so long And I've been long gone And a song comes on And I'm in your arms A tear falls down A heartbreak sound And it's still too soon Since I saw you And the month of June It's an avalanche and I can't fight it A dynamite blast and I can't hide it An earthquake and a hurricane Don't you see the rain? I'm all shades of blue when I, think of you. A lighter that's been around the world A sappy soul in a frozen hearted girl Mile 112 and highway 109 Memories and songs They blend in time My own brass knuckle lullaby No more fights but I still cry It's an avalanche and I can't fight it A dynamite blast and I can't hide it An earthqua
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Set Me Free
I can't think I can't sleep got these feelings moving round in me Can't let it go don't tell me so everyone knows I'm stuck on you Please take this badboy out of me please take his ghost and set me free oh take this badboy out of me Everywhere I go memories come and go where you and I had the time of our lives We fought and raged rattled each cage stopped and loved the same way gave it everything we had Please take this badboy out of me please take his ghost and set me free oh take this badboy out of me I've made my peace I've left you be mostly and I'm still drownin in you I've moved on oh yeah I'm long gone but the hold of the p
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From The Viper's Mouth
without a glance or a single spoken word you swallowed what was left of us in one big gulp as i had to swallow my pride and learn how to move on from what we created together everything that was ours was now just mine as you left it all behind without thinking twice well girl, let your hair down rub off all of that makeup and show me your face and the faces you make when we make love when we made love i promise the world is yours if only you'd hold on tight enough welcoming the embrace of a coward is something you became so good at while you held me close pretending this was what you wanted for so long how did you keep such a poker fa
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Finding Solace
i never took myself for much of a romantic or a lover more of a fighter but never able to fight when it counted only when it was trivial or circumstantial well i survived this long by just getting by how could i ever hope to thrive when i only know how to survive if there's one thing i'm sure of it's that you had your hooks in deep and as i grasped for air while you dragged me under i couldn't help but feel it was somehow my fault for not learning how to swim better or traverse the waters of what we had oh god, how i would scrape my knees begging for forgiveness for actions that weren't my own i would beg pardon for things i hadn't don
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Too Old Too Play
I've pasted the age of willing to share I've been the wife the other woman truthfully neither seemed real I want to be the one and only to know that never will he stray To say the words is easy To put it into action to no other will you have an emotional nor physical attachment it becomes not so easy to practice you have to be faithful in more than just your body but also with your actions I don't want suspicion to turn into a habit it's too easy for it to fester and breed since when am I no longer all that you need why did you piece my heart back together if your goal was just to make it bleed stop making me question my place in your li
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Feelings
feelings are such a fickle, fleeting innervation with such a lack of tangibility and tactility it's almost difficult to tell if they are real or simply ignis fatuus, a cozenage equivocation of sorts simply dangling before us as to fool us into believing that our heart can contrive us in the right direction of hope i submit that what i feel shall not dictate what i do any longer as long as i still have the will power to subdue those tricky feelings before they take hold and steer me into the abyss or perhaps it is not the abyss that they wish to steer me perhaps it is into the light that they guide me so and if ever so the light is my
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Because Of You
the sad truth is that i     ache in every ounce of my body knowing that i can't have you one day     at a time          i have to swallow               that giant pill that tells me just hold on what you want is not too far out of reach and just be p a t i e n t and it will come your way but i've never felt quite so alive as i do when i'm with you i'm standing here     waiting for you          to be ready               for us to be and i'll wait as long as it takes if it means having you in the end i praise the sky the heavens above the millions of stars twinkling down on me that i've found such a cosmic beauty inside of y
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It's Complicated the EP
i close my eyes and imagine you by my side knowing good and well that this is a fantasy     a dream world     where i escape to     when i can't take it     anymore i'm hopeless romantic chaotic reaching my hand up through the loose soil trying to climb myself out of the grave i dug and no amount of reflection     will bring me any sense of clarity          so i'll tear apart the night's sky              to hear your voice one more time          to see your face one more time     but i keep falling back into the same trap is this what you intended all along
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Until You're Mine Again
I'm not the perfect guy, here I stand on bending knees, praying you see beyond my flaws. Deep down there is a romantic dying to see the light. I hold my head up high, walking through the clouds, hoping to come across the stars. Each and every step is me walking away from you, and you're letting it happen. It's as if everything we shared means nothing now, and my feelings don't matter - the feelings you cultivated and helped grow, and oh Hera, I can't handle this again. I can't keep calling your name or begging for forgiveness, I just don't have the lungs for it anymore. I can feel your heartbeat slowing and my mind keeps racing, and fuck, nob
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Back To You
routinely we message each other in hopes that the other will respond and dear god all i want is a response something to show me that you still care but you wouldn't dare be the one to cave in you're my addiction and i'm craving my next fix you left me bruised black and blue all over and i'd do it all over again just to have you when i look into the mirror and see my reflection i can't help but think i can't recognize the image staring back at me you left me in pieces i'm unable to piece back together without help i don't even remember what i was like before and i search for myself inside of others only to find disappointment i
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You Never Buy Me Flowers
When you come home after a hard day's work, there's a plate on the counter and food on the stove. Your favorite bottle is chilling in a bucket of ice; as you relax in your Lazy Boy, I think, "isn't that nice?" You never buy me flowers While you watch a movie or go to play Xbox I'm standing in the kitchen, elbows deep in dishes. When you say you're tired and you're taking a nap, my arms are overflowing with the laundry stack. You never buy me flowers After you awaken you want a shoulder rub; I put down the broom and attend to you at once. Then you go to shower and find a shirt needs sewn; once the tear is mended tomorrow's lunch must be
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Blood and Tears
I've got scars and Many two way streets of broken hearts, I'm just a shell of a woman I'll be labeled till I die. I've seen hell and death And blood and tears And yeah i've caused them all One time.... I may have lost myself But I'm still me. Drowning in myself But I'm still me. Sometimes I hate myself But I'm still me. I want to crawl inside myself But i'll still be me. I look in your eyes And see my torment reflecting back at me. Sometimes it seems that you're Exactly me. You've walked the road I've been painting And it gives me hope, As your still here to tell the tale You say it's all you wrote. I may have lost m
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July 23, 1982
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It's been so long since I've been here and even when I was I was a ghost. Showing up long enough to post and run.  I want to come back,  to write daily again,.  Its a struggle but I hope I win the battle.  For now my lovelies I'll say Hello and goodbye again for now.  
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It's beyond okay
I'm not okay, Everything is not alright, There's nothing else to add Words can't express the pain.
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MY 14 year old daughter joined dA, you can find her here DJ-Pikachu (https://www.deviantart.com/dj-pikachu) She is a pretty good artist for her age and considering she never received any schooling for it. She loves anime with a passion so that is pretty much all she draws. Anyways check her out, give her a llama. :Love:
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xfillernamex|Hobbyist Writer
omg your personal quote..... quoting bruce lee, or cowboy bebop's quote of bruce lee?
www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVWVPa…
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ladyshadowrage|Professional Writer
Bruce Lee....I know who Cowboy Bebop is but I only ever watched one episode way back when.
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royalocean|Professional Writer
Happy birthday. Hope you enjoy the gift!
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ladyshadowrage|Professional Writer
Again, thank you so much. :huggle:
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Happy Birthday, Rage! :)
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ladyshadowrage|Professional Writer
Thank you Sweetie.
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