The last two years we didn't celebrate christmas, it was extremely depressing, and only one person understood my story about that, the others were always asking me "why?" "not even a little?" "I don't understand how it's possible."
It was harsh, especially with internet and youtube, all youtubers were asking about what gifts you had, how much you ate, etc etc.
I'm SO glad my family is reunited this year, I missed to much christmas magical atmosphere. I'm like a little kid with christmas, I love decorations and sparkling things, christmas tales and the cold weather (because this way I realize how lucky I am to have a roof, blankets and hot chocolate).
Christmas is a way to escape big daily issues with my family and my loved ones. That's all I ask, that's all I want. And I think that is why I know the difference between that and a lonely christmas I can tell I don't care for gifts anymore
However, the day I will have kids, holy crap how many gifts they will have. Maybe as an young adult I don't really care anymore about gifts I'll have, but way more about gifts I'll give. Just looking at my niece beautiful smile when she's oppening her gifts, it's heartwarming.