The last two years we didn't celebrate christmas, it was extremely depressing, and only one person understood my story about that, the others were always asking me "why?" "not even a little?" "I don't understand how it's possible." It was harsh, especially with internet and youtube, all youtubers were asking about what gifts you had, how much you ate, etc etc. I'm SO glad my family is reunited this year, I missed to much christmas magical atmosphere. I'm like a little kid with christmas, I love decorations and sparkling things, christmas tales and the cold weather (because this way I realize how lucky I am to have a roof, blankets and hot chocolate). Christmas is a way to escape big daily issues with my family and my loved ones. That's all I ask, that's all I want. And I think that is why I know the difference between that and a lonely christmas I can tell I don't care for gifts anymore
However, the day I will have kids, holy crap how many gifts they will have. Maybe as an young adult I don't really care anymore about gifts I'll have, but way more about gifts I'll give. Just looking at my niece beautiful smile when she's oppening her gifts, it's heartwarming.
You and I sound a lot alike. I to know what its like to not have a roof over my head and to also struggle to keep one over my head. I had to sell my junk car to a junkyard pick a part to have Christmas for my little one this year. I got $40 for it! not bad for a death trap! We needed to get him clothing and a few things so it was a great opportunity to get rid of a lemon. I don't think we would have had a Christmas this year if I hadn't found out I could sell junk cars. I'm glad we will get to see him have fun! Even if it is a small Christmas!
A lot of people I knew growing up were and still are very selfish. All my friends would complain about how they only got a pair of Nike shoes for their birthday and a video game. I was lucky to have new clothing every few years. In fact, I'm still wearing clothes from high school. I've had to learn to adapted and make things work and last for years. I think a lot of people don't understand what its like to go without. Once they do then they really know what its like to appreciate gifts and family more. Thank you for sharing this! If you ever need someone to talk to let me know! I know life can be hard and be depressing its good to have support and not battle things alone!