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Ever

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Ever

Ever thought I fell far from grace. But ever again did I see that was not true. Ever again I thought I erased your face But I keep waking to the thought of you. Holding onto the thought that this will end. Grasping to things I know aren't true. slipping again and I fall from grace. And I keep waking to the thought of you. Ever again I thought that I was done with you. But ever again you show me that's not true. Ever again I wished that you would fall on your face and die there and leave me soon. And here comes death to test me to see my loyalty to reality. And here comes Death to test me testing me to kill you.

Through the ashesthrough the

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Through the ashesthrough the

Through the ashes through the broken machinery Through the echos I think I can finally see. I stay collected as the sun rises for the first time Inside a fire rises so large I could die. I can taste it the freedom I yearned for the release I've prayed every night for. But you stand there in the shadows threatening to take it all away. I raise my walls up as the first flood threatens and tries to break down and seep through everything I've put in place. But not today not today. My levee won't give way at least not today.
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Artist // Student // Literature
  • June 5
  • United States
  • Deviant for 11 years
  • She / Her
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birthdAy '10: decade of deviousness
My Bio
My name will be given if you ask for it.

I love music, with all my heart, with every cell within my being. I am a poet, but will try my hand at a paint brush once in a while.

Feel free to ask me whatever you'd like, but please keep in mind that doesnt mean I will answer your over the line and in my personal space questions.

Current Residence:the batcave
deviantWEAR sizing preference: my size
Print preference: a working printer
Favourite genre of music: Rock, metal, rock opera, classical, alternative
Favourite style of art: whatever catches my eye
Operating System: one that works?
MP3 player of choice: one that has all my music
Shell of choice: a cracked one??
Wallpaper of choice: D: does this imply that my walls are naked?
Skin of choice: I like the skin im in thank you
Favourite cartoon character: J.T.H.M and gir
Personal Quote: "method to the madness"

Favourite Visual Artist
hmm..Deviantart people and jhonen vasquez
Favourite Movies
Dont have just one! I like very different types of movies.
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
.. you cant make me choose!
Favourite Writers
Edgar Allan Poe
Favourite Games
gah..ask me later
Favourite Gaming Platform
whatever i can get my hands on
Tools of the Trade
its a secret
Other Interests
music, poems, tattoos

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You didn't lose who I lost Stop trying to relate. Stop trying to pretend you care.

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I don't know why I keep fooling myself. Telling myself I'm okay when I'm not. I don't want to fucking cry anymore but god I can't stop it sometimes. Knowing I can't hear his laugh anymore, hear his voice, anything breaks me up. And what hurts me more is how utterly alone he must of been in his life if I was the one who was more worried out of the lot. I can't help but think," If only I came into his life sooner." Maybe then I could have at least tried to talk him out of it, show him that he was worth loving and he was worth living. And that even though life has gave him a ton of shit it wasn't going to be forever. You're an idiot to think n

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Sorry I'm not on here too often. I'm usually on tumblr, if you want my url just send a note my way. Other than that I'll try to be on here more often.

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YesImDeadpool General Artist
Hey hey, birthday coming up I see! :D
YesImDeadpool General Artist
Happy birthday!! :glomp:
LadyofmusicStudent Writer
thank you!
YesImDeadpool General Artist
Welcome! :D
conniekiddHobbyist General Artist
I've featured your work in my journal. <3
Have an awesome day! :tighthug:
LadyofmusicStudent Writer
thank you!
conniekiddHobbyist General Artist
:hug: