Welcome to Setsuna's DA!
I did actually state in my journal that I would say I wanted to do more art, announce projects, and then fall off the face of the earth, didn't I? Well... at least I set the expectation, I suppose?
I'm back again! And this time... maybe I will subvert expectations and stick around a bit? This last month we spent a lot of time cleaning up the room in which my desk is situated. I actually have a desk now, because for a while it was just the catch-all storage area for orphaned things that didn't have their own place in the house, but didn't want in the basement. We had our bathroom redone last fall, and the closet had no shelves, so towels, sheets, and whatnot all lived on my desk. Well, for my birthday, I got shelves and everything is now back where it goes. Yes, that is how hard I am adulting - I asked for bathroom closet shelves for my birthday. XD
For Christmas though, I asked for a nice desk chair, which I now have, and over all this time we've been getting storage containers and organizers so that I could someday have an actually usable desk! And now I do, complete with super duper comfy chair, and Funko Pop! figures looking over me for inspiration. I am ready to create!
Except for that pesky ideas thing. Kinda need some of those. Which I do! Oh boy do I ever. But it's kinda like choice-paralysis, where I have so many ideas, I don't even know where to start.
Not to mention... my name here on dA is still "ladyalikolecir" which is a bit of a buzzkill since I universally go by another name online now. I just can't bring myself to pay for that Core membership unless I actually stick around long enough for it to be worth it. Which is a bit of a chicken or egg situation. We'll see though... maybe having this nice clean desk will help. :3
Something that I never really did much with when I was an active dA member before, but has become one of the biggest pieces of media driving my life over time, is Kingdom Hearts (the game series). I LOVE that series. And the third main-series game is coming out this year, supposedly to finalize the "Seeker of Darkness" saga (yeah, I see you Square Enix, leaving yourself open for a new game in the same core rule system later on down the road. You can't fool me). I. Am. HYPE. I have what my husband calls my Kingdom Hearts "shrine" which holds all my wonderful KH related merch. And I keep adding to it. Plus, getting jewelry, clothing items, accessories... you name it, I probably already have it. Especially if it's got Riku on it. He is my absolute favorite since day freakin' one.
My point being that as we get closer and closer to KH3's release, my creative endeavors may veer a bit toward the Disney/Final Fantasy mashup wonder that is Kingdom Hearts.
If I actually follow through and create new art, that is... 9.9
Anyway... felt weird to post a new piece without updating my journal. It's rather intense... and I sat on it for about a month before I finally decided to post it. But... I wanted to share it. I showed it to a friend and she felt a few lines in particular resonated with her, and I thought maybe... someone out there could read it and maybe my message could help. Or maybe no one will read it and I'm just chatting into the void here. Who knows, right?
Either way, life is... a different adventure every day. And I'm trying to take it one step at a time so I don't find myself in a pitfall. If you're struggling, and you're looking for advice, mine is to take things in the smallest steps possible. Break it down to however small you need. If the thought of getting out of bed is too much, then make it even smaller. You're not getting out of bed, you're sitting up. You're putting one foot on the floor. Then the other. Then you're standing up. Take a step. Then another. Break each task down until it's a small enough task that your brain doesn't say "that's too hard."
And if you can't find that smallest step... if you're still seeing those small steps as being too hard, then find someone - anyone, who can listen. I put this in the description of "Help" but while I may be flaky on the posting side of things here, I do lurk and check my notifications about once a week or so. If you don't want to talk to someone you know, or don't have someone else to talk to... my inbox is open. Sometimes you just want someone to listen without hearing a lecture or getting "advice" from someone else, so I will only respond if you ask me to. But if you just want to vent... to be heard? I will read what you send. I will hear you. If nothing else, let yourself be heard by someone. It may be exactly what you need to find that maybe, that small step isn't too hard to make after all.
Thanks for stopping by,