Well, argh. Just... argh.
Don't worry, it's nothing colossal. Simply frustrated by the fine print and irritating details of jumping ship. I'm still carrying forward, this is just the point in the game where I have to pay attention to small details... well, details that SEEMED small when I first thought of them. Now having to actually contend with them?
And I thought, well, I could revise my plans, or even scrap them entirely and start again, but I've had too much of Square One for a while. My life has been routing back to that for some time, and then I have the audacity to be upset that I'm not making progress. Uh, how did you think you were going to, what with the property you basically own on Square One, Pope? Moving forward means, y'know, not going back to Square One all the time.
So, I'm faced with a few decisions I need to make, but I have until the end of June to make them. I have time, but I don't want that to be an excuse I can use to drag my feet on making the choices I need to between now and June 30th.
I don't like things that suck. And this sucks.
BUT... I'm glad I have this opportunity, even if it sucks, because not having it would suck way more.
But I still do not care for things that suck. Crowmamma
has a thirtieth birthday coming up and I'm scrambling on ideas. I have a handful, it boils down to that whole pesky decision making thing again. I don't have problems sticking to a decision, it's the making it part I don't do well with, or, rather, spend lots of time doubting myself and working out potential situations and weighing one against the other.
I do have to say, at least I'm making a lot of progress otherwise, especially in terms of artwork. I've spent a lot more time doing it, unlike 2018, when I basically sat on my artistic duff all year. Nice thing is, the artwork I engage in now is not stressful, and I don't feel like it's another chore in my day, like I used to believe. It's my method of processing stress these days, and man, I'm glad I got that back. I allowed it to be taken from me, but hey, at least I took it back. There's much to be said for reclaiming what's yours.
Hope life is treating you well. Don't do anything I wouldn't do.
... whatever THAT is.
God love you like I do, my Babies.