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20.02.19 - Indefinite Hiatus by KurobaFox1412 20.02.19 - Indefinite Hiatus :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 3 7 Valentine's Day 2019 by KurobaFox1412 Valentine's Day 2019 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 14 8 I will purify you AND the night! by KurobaFox1412 I will purify you AND the night! :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 7 6 You don't need holy water to kill the demon by KurobaFox1412 You don't need holy water to kill the demon :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 12 16 Melody by KurobaFox1412 Melody :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 7 8 You wanna watch me whip? (Read Description) by KurobaFox1412 You wanna watch me whip? (Read Description) :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 18 29 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 7 by KurobaFox1412 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 7 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 5 8 Ruptures in Reality - Prologue 1 by KurobaFox1412 Ruptures in Reality - Prologue 1 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 4 3 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 6 by KurobaFox1412 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 6 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 6 12 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 5 by KurobaFox1412 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 5 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 6 4 RiR shorts 1 by KurobaFox1412 RiR shorts 1 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 7 10 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 4 by KurobaFox1412 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 4 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 4 5 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 3 by KurobaFox1412 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 3 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 5 5 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 2 by KurobaFox1412 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 2 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 6 7 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 1 by KurobaFox1412 The Prophecy of a Wielder - Chapter 5 Page 1 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 6 9 31.01 by KurobaFox1412 31.01 :iconkurobafox1412:KurobaFox1412 12 7
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Aww, you drew Sonic looks cute! He turned out really well, the background is really fit, but there's a thing: This is a Gender Bender, ...

The animation you made was really cool! I like everything of it, mostly is the scene when Sonic goes into his Hyper form, but the smoke...


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Prophecies and Crossovers

Journal Entry: Thu Jan 24, 2019, 9:33 PM

That’s the name of a Discord server I just created, which is only a baby at the moment.

But I’ll get to the point: If you would like to chat around with other people in the server who are also interested in the stuffs I have (if you’re actually interesred, heheh), then you’re coming to the right place.
The server will focus on me updating pages of “The Prophecy of a Wielder”, alongside “PMD: Ruptures in Reality”. You can chat with not just me, but also the writer of both stories and other fellows who are interested too.
For now there’s not much updates on eiher stories since I’m preparing for exams, but I will come back to them eventually.

I will see you all there!


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Perfectly Fine | Fine | Getting Better | Getting Worse | Depression | Wavering | Uncontrollable Bouts Of Rage | Manic | Split Personality (again) | Losing It | Lost It | Insane | Psychotic | Schizophrenia | Seeing Things | Intense Paranoia | Moderate Paranoia | Delusional | Lost Touch With Reality | Amnesia | Re-living Traumatic Event | Unknown |


Isolated | Sleepy | Neutral | Regretful | Murderous | Uncomfortable | Love struck | Homicidal | Mixed Feelings | Silent | Deified | Distrust | Dread | Fear | Hostility | Jealousy | Lonely | Shy | Suffering | Jumpy | Anxious | Frightened | Paranoid | Deathly Afraid | Unknown


Perfectly Healthy | Healthy | Okay | So-So | Sick | Hurt | Injured | Recovering | Critically Wounded | Mortally Wounded | Hospitalized | Dead | Ghost | Unknown

:bulletgreen: Simply call me Kuroba. Everyone does!
:bulletyellow:It depends if I like the new nick-name you give me
:bulletred: Dare hurt or do any offense things on my friends? Beware...

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~Crazy bish~
:iconkirashadraws99: >:3…………………………………………………
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:bulletblue:~Memorable quotes~:bulletblue:

:rose: Time can solve anything, if someone hurts you a lot, no matter how painful it is, it'll pass away with time.
~KurobaFox1412 aka me :rose:

:rose: Forgiveness is the sweetest revenge.
~SilverAlchemist09 aka FineEve :rose:

:blackrose: If we do something for nothing or no reason, it's just a waste of time.
~KurobaFox1412 aka me :blackrose:

:blackrose: It's so sad to lose a best friend.
~kuraikitsune13 aka Spirit :blackrose:

:rose: Stay as cool as you are!
~Jason Griffith - Sonic's Voice :rose:

:rose: Any friend of Kuroba's is a friend of mine.
~sparrowty12 aka Tygene :rose:

:rose: Believe in me, you're much stronger than you can expect.
~Haku360 aka Andres :rose:

:rose: Just remember that I believe in you and you're always strong.
~chris0976 aka Christian :rose:

:rose: Never give up or surrender!!
~KurobaFox1412 aka me :rose:

:blackrose: Nightmares... Go to dreams... Only into lost thoughts.
~sparrowty12 aka Tygene :blackrose:

:rose: Girl you have a noble and pure feelings, do not let the silly fights dominate your heart, you're stronger than you think, go ahead and be happy...
~SilverAlchemist09 aka FineEve :rose:

:blackrose: If you take revenge on a troll had insulted you before, you're just like him/her at that time.
~KurobaFox1412 aka me :blackrose:

:blackrose: Wounds will always leave a mark, whether it's small or big.
~Bojaking aka Halo Freak :blackrose:

:rose: Your smile... That's all I need.
~Sonic the Hedgehog - Sonic 2006 :rose:

:rose: You couldn't wear black, you couldn't listen to anything with drums, anything with guitars, you couldn't have long hair, you couldn't do this and you couldn't do that. Everything was so lifeless. I know I'd read the Bible and be like...'This isn't what the Bible says. I like the idea of living for Jesus, but I hate the idea of living for you.' Ya know?
~John Cooper - Skillet :rose:

:rose: Sometimes it doesn’t seem like there’s hope, and sure you can choose to give up, but why not face it ‘Awake and Alive’? Life is full of challenges, and sometimes when you look deep into yourself, you can feel weighed down by sin and the ‘Monster’ that lives inside us all. But the more you realize your need for Christ, the less you focus on that, and on Him instead. Everything we sing about on this album is something someone can relate to, and if anything, the songs will let you know you are not alone.
~John Cooper - Skillet :rose:

:blackrose: Trust is like a glass, if you break it and try to fix... Never stay the same...
~SilverAlchemist09 aka FineEve :blackrose:

:blackrose: Misfortune tests friends and discover the enemies...
~SilverAlchemist09 aka FineEve :blackrose:

:blackrose: False friends are just like the shadows... they only last when sun shines...
~SilverAlchemist09 aka FineEve :blackrose:

:blackrose: El dolor es inevitable... El sufrimento es opcional...
~SilverAlchemist09 aka FineEve :blackrose:

:rose: A turning back in life is cowardly move, but got in front resisting every arrow, bullet, knives is a way to call yourself a hero.
~Haku360 aka Andres :rose:

:rose: Art is not a thing; it is a way​.​
~Elbert Hubbard :rose:

:blackrose: Remember, I'm your best friend and I'll always help you of everything.
~Memories360 aka Dayana :blackrose:

:rose: Do not end up your journey of life so early just by killing yourself, the best things are yet to come as a reward later on.
~KurobaFox1412 aka me :rose:

:rose: Life is fair. When you've gone through a bad moment, there shall come a good one.
~KurobaFox1412 aka me :rose:

:blackrose: The best weapon to destroy your enemies is that they use as weapons to your friends... You happy now? Wanna destroy me? Well, do it effortlessly...
~SilverAlchemist09 aka FineEve :blackrose:

:rose: Anyone can lie in anything, that's just the hurtful truth. But I know for a fact the people around you aren't. I can't give you the evidence you'll want to see because it's one of those things you have to take in faith, like your belief in God.
~Little-Tails aka Michael :rose:

:blackrose: Because what's the point in making others feel bad?
~Sonar15 aka Sonar :blackrose:

:rose: If you bully someone going through a tough time just because you think they’re an attention seeker, you do not belong in this community you’re not part of this community and I do not want to be friends with you.
~Jacksepticeye aka Sean :rose:

────(♥)(♥)(♥)────(♥)(♥)(♥) __ ɪƒ ƴσυ'ʀє αʟσηє,
──(♥)██████(♥)(♥)██████(♥) ɪ'ʟʟ ɓє ƴσυʀ ѕɧα∂σѡ.
─(♥)████████(♥)████████(♥) ɪƒ ƴσυ ѡαηт тσ cʀƴ,
─(♥)██████████████████(♥) ɪ'ʟʟ ɓє ƴσυʀ ѕɧσυʟ∂єʀ.
──(♥)████████████████(♥) ɪƒ ƴσυ ѡαηт α ɧυɢ,
────(♥)████████████(♥) __ ɪ'ʟʟ ɓє ƴσυʀ ρɪʟʟσѡ.
──────(♥)████████(♥) ɪƒ ƴσυ ηєє∂ тσ ɓє ɧαρρƴ,
────────(♥)████(♥) __ ɪ'ʟʟ ɓє ƴσυʀ ѕɱɪʟє.
─────────(♥)██(♥) ɓυт αηƴтɪɱє ƴσυ ηєє∂ α ƒʀɪєη∂,
───────────(♥) __ ɪ'ʟʟ ʝυѕт ɓє ɱє.

I'll be there for you as the world falls down

I will stand by your side until I cannot stand anymore. I will fight for you until I cannot fight anymore. I will live for you until the day I die

¢αℓℓιηg мє FAKE ωση'т мαкє уσυ REAL, ¢αℓℓιηg мє STUPID ωση'т мαкє уσυ SMART, ¢αℓℓιηg мє WEAK ωση'т мαкє уσυ STRONG, ¢αℓℓιηg мє UGLY ωση'т мαкє уσυ PRETTY, ¢αℓℓιηg мє MEAN ωση'т мαкє уσυ NICE, ¢αℓℓιηg мє USELESS ωση'т мαкє уσυ PERFECT, ¢αℓℓιηg мє POOR ωση'т мαкє уσυ RICH, ¢αℓℓιηg мє BORING ωση'т мαкє уσυ FUN, ¢αℓℓιηg мє α LOSER ωση'т мαкє уσυ α WINNER, ¢αℓℓιηg мє α NERD ωση'т мαкє уσυ POPULAR, ¢αℓℓιηg мє α COWARD ωση'т мαкє уσυ BRAVE, ¢αℓℓιηg мє α FAILURE ωση'т мαкє уσυ SUCCESSFUL, ѕσ ωну вσтнєя...?

"Don't walk behind me, I don't need a follower. Don't walk in front of me, I don't need a leader. Walk beside me, I need a partner."


I ain't afraid to admit...

:iconcrossplz: Jesus Christ is my Savior :iconcrossplz:

Even when you can't see Him, GOD is there! Did you know that 98% of teenagers will not stand up for God, and 93% of the people that read this won’t repost it?

Jesus had no servants, yet they called him Master...

He had no degree, yet they called him Teacher...

He had no medicine, yet they called him Healer...

He had no army, yet kings feared him...

He won no military battles, yet he conquered the world...

He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him...

He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today

Feel honored to serve such a leader who loves us...

If you believe in the trinity; God, Father, Son, and Holy Ghost

then copy and paste this in your profile

If you ignore him, in the Holy Bible, Jesus says...

"If you deny me before man, I will deny you before my Father in Heaven..."


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Undertale Flowey Stamp by Krackat HAHAHAHA Stamp by Zumipap quiet by omnivore-daydreams overthinking destroys me by JustYoungHeroes Trapdoor | Twenty One Pilots by JustYoungHeroes Migraine | Twenty One Pilots by JustYoungHeroes Ride | Twenty One Pilots by JustYoungHeroes

Spanish lang2 by Faeth-design of Spanish.

Un hombre famoso dijo una vez: creamos nuestros propios demonios.
- ¿Quién lo dijo? ¿Qué significa eso? No importa. Lo digo porque lo dijo. Por lo tanto, era famoso y fue mencionado por dos personas muy conocidas Yo no... A empezar de nuevo. Empezamos por el principio.
- Todo empezó hace 2 años. Los viejos días. Nunca pensé que volverían.
- ¿Y eso qué fue? ¿Qué fue eso?
- Es una falla en mi trabajo.
- ¿Y por qué les cuento esto? ...Porque acababa de crear demonios y ni siquiera lo sabía.
- Sí, fue una época feliz. Pero vamos a seguir con mi vida.
- Soy Kuroba y dibujo y escribo cosas interesantes. Conozco a grandes personas. Y, de vez en cuando, salvo ayudo a todos. ¿Por qué no puedo dormir?
Setenta y dos horas es demasiado entre siestas. No pensé que podía empeorar.


A famous man once said: we create our own demons.
- Who said that? What does that mean? Never mind. I say this because he said it. Translation
Therefore, it was famous and was mentioned by two well-known people I do not ... A fresh start. We start at the beginning.
- It all started two years ago. The old days. I never thought they would.
- So what was it? What was that?
- It's a flaw in my work.
- Why do I tell you this? ... Because ... I've created demons and not even know it.
- Yes, it was a happy time. But let's get on with my life.
- I, Kuroba, drawing and sometimes writing stuff. I know some great people. And, occasionally, unless all helped. Why can't I sleep?
- Seventy-two hours is too long between naps. I did not think it could get worse.

~Tony Stark - Iron Man 3

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~Inner Demon quiz from Quotev~
Your inner demon is Jaded, or Emotionless, otherwise known as Muhyojona. Your inner demon makes you appear cold and unfeeling, like you've surrounded yourself with an indestructible wall that won't let people and their emotions and that won't let your emotions show, either. Being jaded as caused you to loose most of the friends you have, and the friends who still hang around you try their best to act friendly, but they are unsure of how you will react to what they do or say, so they tend to try and avoid being too close to you. To most people, you're a monotone monochromatic robot walking down the school hallways that always stares straight ahead and doesn't react to any of the bullying or name-calling you receive. They all think you are one of those people who doesn't care about the world and will never love, but that's really not true. You actually are a real, feeling, thinking human on the inside and whenever the kids at school make fun of you, it really hurts you, you just don't let it show. Your reasoning is this: "if I don't let them know it gets to me, they'll eventually stop, right?" But it turns out you were wrong; that makes them bully you even more. And even if you want to break out of the emotionless protectiveness you've wrapped yourself in, you find that it's nearly impossible. Your brain and heart are so used to the emotion-numbed feeling you've trained yourself to have that they aren't willing to let go of it, and you keep sinking further and further into the monotone sea of jadedness you have put yourself in.
It wasn't always like this. You used to be super popular and had a lot of great friends, and possibly a boyfriend to. You had a loving family at one point, and your neighbors could be pretty cool at times, too. Generally, you got along well with everybody, and you were good at sorting out your emotions and keeping your head screwed on straight. You thought you had life figured out and every thing was just as it supposed to be. But then something bad happened, and it was something that was never supposed to happen. You didn't see it coming at all, and you were not ready for it mentally or emotionally. Slowly, you started to become more and more quiet, trying to understand what happened. All the hurt and uncertainty of why that had to happen turns into hatred towards what happened, then that turns into sorrow and guilt because you couldn't do anything to stop it, and then that goes back to major hurt and it exhausts you to the point of where you don't even bother changing the tone of your voice when you talk, even when you feel happy. Soon you start to become what seems like a living robot. You do this because you are afraid of something bad like that happening again, and you want to be better prepared for it, so you build a mental wall that doesn't show your emotions. But then as time goes by, you let your defenses down cautiously and start showing more emotion and add your opinion to things. As more and more people start to notice that you are going back to your old self, they also notice you have become naive and clueless again as you enter the world of emotions because you have been jaded for so long. Feeling emotion again is so new to you that you have forgotten everything you have learned about life beforehand, and you don't know how to properly protect yourself from people's tricks and lies. Eventually, people start to take advantage of that. At first it's just small things, like bending your opinion to where it sounds like you're siding with them. But then that turns into things like guys asking you out just to dump you the next day so they can see how gullible you really are, or just because they're bored and think that that's the only solution to their lack of entertainment. Then after more and more horrible things are done to you, you become jaded once again. You decide that this time you will not let your emotions show once and for all, because you have realized that the world is a dark, cruel, twisted, evil place that preys on the innocent, and you are better off if the world can't see your emotions to use them as leverage against you or others. So yet again, you build that impenetrable wall around your emotions and you don't let people have a big impact on your life. Now you are what you are today: a jaded person that nobody seems to like. Your past was hard, so you don't want the present or future to be any harder than it has to be.
So how to you try and get rid of this awful inner demon of yours? First of all, you have to know it's not your fault this happened to you; the world played it's game a little too harshly with you, and that led to you becoming who you are. But don't worry; the real you that feels emotions and has personality is in there somewhere; you just have to find where it's hiding. You can start by trying to find a nostalgic place that brings back happy memories and let the happiness spread throughout you and warm your body. Let yourself smile, and maybe smile to a person you helps you or waves at you while you're out of the house one day. A smile means everything to a person; it lets them know that you appreciate what they did for you, and it also means that you accept them and you want to be friendly. It's like a common interest thing; everybody wants to be felt appreciated or loved, and a smile can make them feel both. And when you're at school, try being more friendly and out going. Just be sure not to let your guard down too much like you did last time. I'm not an expert on these things, but I have been jaded at one point of my life. So just go out there and let the ice that has frozen around your heart melt with a smile or two; you'll be surprised at how far it takes you.

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PandoraMusicPunnyCat Featured By Owner 2 days ago  New Deviant Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for the re-watch 
KurobaFox1412 Featured By Owner 5 hours ago  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome
Al-KHALI Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2019  Student Artist
Well.... just take your time when you working the commissions...
KurobaFox1412 Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
It won’t take long
Al-KHALI Featured By Owner Edited Feb 12, 2019  Student Artist
Ok then Aww But it seems that my birthday is nearly here....... :D
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