Rajani [The dark one]
[Lots of reading ahead and more mature situations in boi]
Psychological imbalance; Rajani is a male who others see as confident, playful, talkative, flirtatious and just a bit sensitive, in other words, a mask of complete security. It’s who he was before the Morrígan came into his life, a bad time for a growing mind, so he shows it off to make sure no one knows how much he’s changed, because change is sometimes a horrible thing.
On the inside he’s an emotional wreck. Having no one but the Morrígan to turn to for comfort of his emotional needs, which he rarely received because in his mind he could not go to his Mother or brothers, and which were broken, mended and broken again by her, he’s in great need for any sort of comfort, physical or emotional, because of it. His self-esteem bordering on shattered, connection to others, mostly emotionally, is flighty; Either him opening up completely or not at all, showing them just his mask due to his morally grey views on others and his relations to them.
Physical Rush; Rajani actively seeks out physical connections to bring his esteem up, he eats and breaths for it, and in turn, has one night stands constantly, with any instance of a longer relationship falling flat for his constant need to ‘want’ and feel loved by another or he is used by someone else harshly while not seeing the signs of abuse and in turn make him feel like it was his fault.
He has completely conditioned himself to act this way because he thinks he feels his needs, physiological and physical, are being met, when in reality it’s temporary. While being rejected multiple times makes him shut down, get highly defensive or throws him into a great depression. He corners himself constantly, breaking down, acting out, hurting himself, throwing himself into other things because he is not stable enough to handle it alone.
His emotions and actions start getting highly volatile and desperate if his needs are not met, which mostly leads to him acting on violent impulses of starting a fight with others as an outlet.
Claws & Bones; Due to the Morrígan’s cruel conditioning for sensing pain, releasing outlets of emotions, and vividly grey morals on others life, while his Mother/brothers/tribemates, in stark contrast gives him love, attention, connections and black & white morals, Rajani is a peculiar bundle of contrast and utter confliction.
If your seen as an enemy, he can kill without any thought or mercy in mind and doesn’t feel anything afterwards, regardless of who they were and why they were an enemy, he just thinks to win. Though he values even the smallest life and will try to protect it or help and gets frustrated when called out by his hypocrisy.
Rajani loves to fight as it’s one of the only outlets he doesn’t need someone else to lean on for. When his spirit was crushed and carved again and again by the Morrígan to be a champion in her vision, he strived to pour everything he had into it as it was his only choice. Being abused physically and emotionally, constantly in his developing years, molded his mind to think that fighting was a pleasurable thing, being wounded was something he could shrug off, and that being abused by her was okay.
He shrugs off physical abuse because he believes it’s okay, even sometimes finding it like a game and comes to enjoy it, but Rajani can not handle emotional abuse for long periods because he himself is not emotionally stable.
Reliance and denial; Growing up with the Morrígan, Rajani, while resenting her and his position of powerlessness, came to see her as his teacher and ultimately, his friend. Since he could tell no one in his tribe of her and his magical binding, he grew almost completely dependent on their relationship.
Accepting her faults, abuse, and rabid violent views as something that she was and, in his own way, thought that they were just normal things that someone like her had. That it wasn’t her fault, that she wasn’t to blame and that it’s his fault for being a failure.
He denies any prod at her cruelty and abuse, waving it off as something he came to live with, and defends her with everything he has because she is literally everything to him, passing it as ‘loyalty’. The Morrígan is his guiding light in the darkness that she created and in the back of his mind he knows this, but denies it all the same because it’s safer that way. Everything's better if he just accepts it.
Blood In The Truth; His constant fights with Destrien had brought much needed light on Rajani’s views, which have made him utterly imbalanced. At first finding him simply attractive, after letting his tightly kept secret go, the threads that keep him together fall apart whenever he’s around the older male, making him utterly enamored and completely frustrated as he finds everything she taught him was wrong, is wrong in the eyes of others.
Everything he is, is wrong and that is what makes Rajani keep coming back to Destrien because he feels like if he is accepted and loved by him, then he could change the monster that is him and become someone who can be loved completely.
Though while finding himself smitten by this aspect of discovering more about himself and wanting to know more from and about him, Destrien’s verbal abuse and constant rejection makes him feel unworthy and disgusting, stabbing his already fragile sense of self-esteem and making him see himself as nothing but a beast or monster and not himself.
In a way, it makes him seem more like a shining light and that Rajani is a pit of darkness that shouldn’t touch him because he is impure, but desperately wishes to. Thus, makes him fight with himself, throwing him into depression and distress over his confliction of desire, comfort, emotional connection and views.
*Love In Darkness; Having Destrien finally accept him, seeing everything he is, that he’s done and even becoming mates, has given Rajani the much needed reprieve from his failings and previous views. Becoming more outgoing and more in touch with his feelings on actual love. Though, he still is physical by nature and will crave his partner’s touch bordering on insistent. No longer having to be an unbreakable champion, he’s opening up to new feelings of wanting to be protected, after being stunted at his young age from any feelings that were considered ‘weak’.
[Enhanced] **Only a Flesh wound; Doesn’t feel much, if at all, pain from wounds and broken bones. Only severe wounds can be felt. *[Only magical attacks or weapons can harm him, can bare the weight of a full grown elephant without being crushed.]
Quick healing; Wounds and broken bones heal five times as fast than normal as long as there is magic. Scarring can occur.
Morrígan’s blood; When excited for lust or battle, the energy in the blood will make it feel like it’s singing and will persist until the user is sated. Gives the champion several times their own strength and stamina for long periods, lasting at most six hours.
In The upside down; Abuse has made him highly susceptible to mind attacks and mildly to possession.
Badb’s Talons; Rajani is literally half dead, technically making him a Draugr, he is more susceptible to shut down and act on impulse if he is hurt too much. Friendly fire is on.
[Enhanced] **Undying The Undying; His infused, shattered soul constantly seeks to fix itself, unconsciously absorbing the magic around him to build on itself. This includes other spirits, souls, and magic in realms/items and spiritual attacks are highly likely to be absorbed than felt [30%], while this does make him stronger and physically shows, too much will and can kill him.
Fatal wounds can be fixed with an excess of magic. Effects can range from internal bleeding, sudden broken bones, losing consciousness, temporary memory/vision/hearing loss, and getting extremely ill.
-**Undying The Undying; With the Morrígan’s revival, she has given Rajani almost all of her own power’s. Enhancing [Only a Flesh wound] and giving him full reign of her passed ‘Champions of the Slain’, a count close to 3,000 warriors that will obey and fight for him as the ‘Jarl’. Any summoned will bare the wounds that killed them in their lifetimes, but each will be intact and able, each has their own fighting style and traits. Though, if they die again or if Rajani receives a fatal wound, that life is snuffed out and unusable.
“Our forms can be summoned in any manner of way, but know this, a life once shattered can not remain. Whether a shadow or a flame once lost, one life will be gone, that is the cost. And when all are gone, only you will be left, to the Tuatha Dé Danann, you will finally rest.”
Buffs: [Morrígan buffs are absolute]
My Champion; Champion is always three times as strong than normal, twice as fast.
The Twilight; Champion has a mental link to the Morrígan and her realm.
*At My Behest *(Null); Champion can not disobey her direct orders regardless of dissent.
Badge Of Valor; Champion’s magic output is always six times stronger than normal.
Rajani and Destrien are now marked as mates.