I'll Still Love YouMother, Mother, look into my eyes,What do you see?Mother, Mother, If I told you,What would you think of me?Would I become the black sheep?The family taboo?How would your love for me changeIf I shared my secrets with you?Maybe one day you'll see these wordsAnd you'll understandBut I hope these words don't keep you from resting peacefullyIn God's Promised landI do not love your husband, this man I call "Dad"Believe it or not, I don't do the things I do just to make him madMy dislike for the majority of men stems from himHis words and ways make my future with a man seem rather dimI mean really, tell me the truth, does he really love me?If it were up to him, he'd leave us for the ArmyMother, Mother, these words are painfulI knowBut I wanted to tell you thisBefore I have to goRemember the night you tried to make me promise not to go down that road?Well thankfully, I distracted you so I wouldn't have to say "no"The truth is, I like girls as much as boys if not moreAn
This ConfusionCloser and closerI beg my lips to remain sealedSo easy it would be to let it slipAnd let my confusion consume meI sit in the pews and feel the internal fightWhat to do?In public I am fighting between two beliefs and it's tearing me apartMy religion crumbling as my heart bleedsWhat to tell others?I stand in my beliefs. I stand on thin ice.How to find balance when fires lick at my baseOne side of me is bitten and worn by their disapprovalHow do I continue?Home is no rest eitherAs they do not like the other side of me.Water is boiled at schoolFire is doused at homeMy soul splitsMy head hurtsMy heart achesHow do I balance this?Confusion devours my brain as I search for balanceMy heart and my loves are shakenBut so is my belief and churchHow am I going to manage this?I've shaken a fist at my GodAnd I'm keeping my heart under a cushionI'm scared of my family's reactionAnd weary of my friend's as wellTwo voices arguing in my headWhy won't they stop?There's no ne
Opossum CrossingI walk down a street and I see a sign.Opossum crossing.I stare into the vibrant brown eyes of their furry facesAnd I think of your deep blue ones.Oh the danger you brought when you crossed my path.How you flipped my world upside down.But I'd be willing to risk it allTo make sure I didn't hurt you.But I wonder if you'd ever stop for me?Or should I have played dead and let you go onIn blissful ignoranceAnd let the blessed leaf lie in the dull dirt?I tried to ignore the signs, defy the truth in front of me.I should of have kept on driving, never let you in my life.But I couldn't let myself hurt you by ramming on through,Neither could I ever let myself let you go.Underneath this silly smile where everything is simple, a storm rages within.Could you please help me?The edge of my being continues to fray, the moths nipping at my sanity.Would you please help me?I know you're out of reach, but the world wants too much from meWhen I only want you.I feel the glare of their c
Love ConfessionYou smell wonderfulI like to be around youYou make me feel betterWhen I have a sucky dayAll I have to do to is feel your touchAnd my troubles fly awayYou may not feel the same, but I love youJust your touch calms the storm in my mindYour laugh makes my heart beatI'm giddy when I'm around youEven now I am shockedNever before have I not been able toWrite a more sophisticated poem about my emotionsMy feelings for you are beyond what I can tame I guessYou are so beautiful, it hurts when you can't see yourself like I doI see your face and the rest of the world fadesAll I need is one touch and I can face anythingI love you.