Why hello there.
It’s been a hot minute.
I’ve been drawing just not posting any of it cause it’s too good for your peasant eyes
haha its garbage
So I was looking through my gallery and trying not to cringe at some of my older stuff, (like one does) but also seeing what I had to say about it. It’s interesting to think back to the mindset I was in all those years ago, and how I disregarded proper grammar.
So let’s forget about art progression for once, I wanna talk about me as a person.
Did you know I made a tutorial for Photoshop? I did apparently.
And here it is. Besides the fact that some of what I had to say wasn't all that clear I don't think my tips are bad (if this was an actual 'how to draw' tutorial that'd be another story, good thing I never made one of those) One thing that struck me was my tone, in that its very sarcastic and jokey. I said 'if you don't use layers you're a triangle' That's stupid.
I'm gonna remember to start saying that again. The thing is i'm STILL very sarcastic and joke way too much so I guess that's one thing that hasn't changed.
What I was expecting looking through all this was something a little more 'I cant believe I said that' sorta deal. And I definitely had some of those.
LAYTOOOONNNN. I'm excited about the new game with his daughter, are you?
But lets not get side tracked. Which is what this whole pictures summary is about. I think I did this for a lot of my posts, going into great detail of my creating process. Not what I did art wise, but what I was doing, like at the time. I go into what I was listening to, what my cat was doing, and I go into a lot of detail about how I fucked up the first part of this picture, which I guess is kinda relevant? But girl. people probs don't care about what you were doing while making this. Lets stop over sharing useless information.
And then we had my IDs I used to put so much effort into.
I think these are cute ideas for ID's I just gave up trying to make myself look adorable. Now lets talk about some of the stuff this adorable lil turd had to say about herself. I went into more detail on the second description and one thing that struck me right away was what I said about 'drawrawr'
'who doesn’t love deviantart?? xD oh right, that silly little sight drawrawr~ (that place is a joke)'
well dayum gurl tell us how you really feel
If I remember correctly, 'drawrawr' was an exclusive art site you had to have a special code to sign up for, and a bunch of people got rejected. The funny thing is though i'm positive I never even tried to get in, I just thrived off the hatred of others who were denied. (drama fuels me)
Then we got the yaoi and yuri comments...oh my, all of that is more cringe worthy than my art. 'i'm not a homophobe I just don't wanna watch same sex people make out' is what i'm sure my reasoning back then was, but lets look at THIS tid bit:
'I don’t think yaoi and yuri are very accurate on what uh, gay sexual relations are really about' (why the 'uh' you're not speaking aloud)
When I see that excuse now, I think OF COURSE ITS NOT ACCURATE. ITS FICTION. And the same could be said on the portrayal of a hetero relationship in stories. Hell, relationships in general are glorified in fiction. Lets stop using that as an excuse to hate on yaoi/yuri, if you're not into it, that's fines, just don't make a scene about it. You'll just come off sounding like an ass.
aaaand I think that's long enough. To sum it all up i'm still the same sarcastic lil shit I've always been just older and with a few more life lessons learned. Does anyone else look back and cringe at what they said for the whole internet to see?