Made it 39 Years/Hellish Year Update
So yes, I'm 39 years old now and yes, I've been M.I.A. for a while.
Oh man, where to begin...
Okay spring 2019 I guess. last we talked would have been a year ago on my 38th birthday. By about the month after that I got really sick, and it lasted like a while, couple months, the summer was pretty much dunzo, insane fever I couldn't kick. I think it was into the end of July before I was back to normal. Was kinda busy at home for a bit as the summer ended and autumn started up, but then...
...IT happened. November. I get this insane sinus infection that I can't kick for a while. Around the same time I started noticing odd spots in my right eye. Which continued to get worse until my vision was distorted in spots and had these awful dark shadow blotchy things blocking off chunks of my vision, it was terrifying, I didn't know what was wrong, I was still getting over that sinus infection, I had one of the worst nervous breakdowns I've ever had, I was worried I would lose my vision totally, I couldn't even look at a computer screen the eye strain it was causing was insane. It was a nightmare, I didn't know what was wrong with me, thought it was going to turn out I was dying or had something really bad, y'know, the types of things someone with severe anxiery disorders like me just dreams of nightly, lol.
What it turned out to be was a hemorrhage in the back of my eye, where you see through. It's like a vein blockage or something that causes it and it bleeds into the fluid at the back that you see through. It kept filling with blood causing my vision to go bye-bye in that eye.
Now, this type of hemorrhage does go away on its own, the blood is absorbed and eventually vision goes back to normal, the worse it is the longer it takes. BUT. Mine did not stop hemorrhaging, so it just kept filling up faster than it could go away. I had to get a barrage of tests done, blood tests for everything including rare stuff, neck ultrasounds, optic nerve scans, all kinds of stuff. Turns out everything is fine except one thing: Hypertension. I have inherited my Mother's early onset high blood pressure problems (ie: caused by literally nothing I can control myself) which is a very common cause of what happened to my eye. Although its normally more common in senior citizens.
So I had to sit until later on in January to see if it would go away with my blood pressure now under control. I did not, it got worse until all I could see was light and shadow, terrifying the shit out of me even more (would my eye burst eventually? Would they have to remove it? etc etc). Now I did rock a pirate patch for a while to try and only use the one good eye for a while and that sorta helped, I could at least play video games again. But when they tested the eye and went from being able to read most things around the blocked spots, I now couldn't even read the letters when it was just one big giant "E" on the screen. Clearly it wasn't going away on its own, which meant the only way to fix it was with...
...needles. in the eye.
Three of them, no less. A month apart. I just got the final one about 2 weeks ago or so. So basically the last bunch of months have been just lost, I've only recently been getting back into art stuff again successfully since last month or so as the eye improves (it still has distorted spots but I dont really notice it anymore when using both eyes) and hopefully it goes totally back to normal, but at least I'm functional again. The blood pressure meds work FANTASTICALLY and there is a physical calmness I can't explain (specifically in the heart region) since I started using them and my blood pressure numbers are amazing, so it looks like I'll be on them for the long run.
So yay, everything's back to normal now, right?
NOPE! HERE, HAVE A PANDEMIC!!!
My city is effectively in lockdown until AT LEAST the end of May as the virus spreads rapidly. Somehow I don't think it's going to be lifted by then.
But, I can do art and play video games here while in quarantine. I've gone full-on Boglin mode, just hiding in the dark and eating trash. Although my brother did manage to get a selection of local craft beers delivered to me for my birthday so I can sit here and drink alone, lol :P
So yeah, I know all of you are all going through this pandemic thing as well, seeing as it's pretty worldwide at this point, so I hope you are all doing well, staying safe, and keeping healthy! Hang in there, we're all in this together!
Made it 38 Years!
Man really went through alot Kris. As for the high blood pressure. That can be taken under control. I've seen on blood pressure pills since I was 26. I'm 36 now and still do my best to maintain my blood pressure levels. Another way to keep it steady would be to eat raw garlic once a week. The garlic will clean out your cholesterol a bit but you'll be fine.
I wish you all the best!!!!!
Missing In Action :)
Staying home as much as I can, only popping out once a week for necessities if I have to, but outside of that I'm inside and (hopefully, lol) safe :D
Take care and stay safe yourself! :D
Glad to see you back doing the art thing. Best of luck, happy birthday, and stay safe dude.
Yeah, I'm still trying to wrap my head around it, it's super bizarre to see so distorted out of it, it trips me out.
Thanks! Staying safe as best I can! Take care yourself!
(new art on the way, almost finished with a Skeletor to go with that He-Man!)
Take care and talk again soon.
Thank you kindly! And good to hear from you too, glad you're still kickin' around here on dA yeah, it's just been one thing after another, but I'm glad to be back and (so far) on the road to recovery. I mean its not far off from normal, like if they said "this is as good as it will get" I could live with it at this point without issue. But hopefully in a few months it will be totally just normal again.
Take care and stay safe! :D
You too, take care of yourself and keep up the Boglin mode until it's all over, pal.