Hi guys, it's been a while, huh.
I'm coming to you with a message. I'm going on a hiatus for a some time. For a few month I had a really bad art block. I'm not satisfied with the things I create and things I created. I got too caught up with the whole commission thingy. I wanted to get popular and earn money from my art. After a while, I finally understood that that isn't the good way. I wanted cash by making art, but by the way I forgot myself. While making my works I was thinking more about what will the client think, than about my preferences. Also, after a really big, major breakdown in my life - loss of someone dear and close for me- I couldn't do art like it was before.
It's even more demotivating for me that I see how other people develope their styles and I do nothing because I can't find anything satisfying enough for me. I know it's weird - my inactivity started in September, after publishing the pricelist of my renewed commissions, but I got to these facts just right now, with proper moment.
When I come back, I might change my entire dA account - I will probably drop my original characters - maybe I will save some for roleplay, since it doesn't involve drawing. I plan to join an art course with other, more professional artists which will help me built everything from the beginning. I think I need this. And if it does not help me, well - I don't know. Maybe I will not come back here. Let's hope that will not happen.
So far, I enjoyed my stay on deviant art, so many great artists and people. I even got used to the weird part of this site, really. All I need now is a pause.
Hey, if you got to this part of the journal, leave a fav or a comment. I was so inactive that I think no one will read this. And if you do, hey, good for you. Thank you for sharing your time with me. That's nice.
So, see ya on my next artwork, whenever it is going to be published. Wish me luck with finding a new, comfortable style for me. Bye!