Believe in fate? Karma, maybe?
The last parts arrived. I spent a long weekend studying documentation, watching videos, carefully assembling step by step my last machine. Hardware doesnt evolve as much as it once used to, there are five, ten-year-old processors that play and photoshop almost as good as modern ones, if you wanna run old software in it. I hastly got an OEM copy of Win10 Pro (thats what they sell in Brazil) for a hundred bucks, and a hard drive to install it in the Monday before.
Tuesday 4th, night.
She posted. Windows installed. My room was such a mess, I forbade anyone from coming up in. I almost lost that little thumb-sized sticker with the second most expensive string ever (I paid a FORTUNE back then for a copy of Win 7). It installed. I named her Amerikana, in honor of her guts -- mobo, CPU, memory -- being entirely smuggled parts. I slept,
I was reinstalling Windows. I somehow broke the Control Panel, and Skype. Had a little trouble activating, but MS gave me a digital copy. I never registered it to myself, I was too focused on getting it all working a second time, Photoshop, Discord, moving files, formatting the Only thing that survived the wait from Norse, a single hard drive. Playing that paperclip game while I waited. I did other things to, but this is what I was Doing, changing silly network settings, and... getting her to work. To perfection.
I was changing a hard drive. Removing a broken one, leave just the good one; another causality of that last weird winter. Caviar Green Akimbo, once a pair in a mirrored RAID, now was Caviar Green. I left the machine, got distracted, ran it open later because testing.
Weird smell. So I opened it up to see what was wrong.
A big crawled into the cooler, it was torn apart by the fan, and made a mess of the heatsink assembly. Took it out, cleaned, took the CPU out, cleaned, thermal paste, reinstalled, closed, power button. Nothing.
Boot device led. Or so it seemed? Unplugged the drives, rebooted. Same LED. Now that was weird, see. It booted diskless the first time. So I booted and watched the LEDs go and nope, it was actually the DRAM LED. MemOK button. Took the clips out, swapped, tried others. Went lunch.
Took the CPU assembly apart again. Retrace the steps, make sure it was all OK.
CPU PCB corner bent. Might have been before. Just noticed now.
Rest was a blur of panic and reattempts. I can only pray for warranty. I have work to do. Possible motherboard damage, a row of pins shine strange, probably bent. Maybe from the first installation? I never had steady hands. I have games to play. I had a terabyte of free space between two drives, ready to move my files in, it was all done. Perfect. I went trough the motions. It booted. Once. Didnt see one of the two DRAM clips. Booted again, had to be sure. DRAM LED.
DRAM LED. Never white. Never red. Never orange. Second LED. DRAM LED.
The case is well-ventilated (Antec P100). It was open for a half-hour, tops. And I was near it.
The CPU was a sale, 300 USD; Motherboard was 150. Both survived dangerous, extensive travel, and were bought because they would. In Brazil, thats 2500 BRL for both; 800 USD. Plus a new copy of Windows, OEM.
Amerikana died after a week. She sleeps at a corner in my room.
I caused 800 USD of damage because of a bug.
So I ask, do you believe in fate? In Karma, maybe?
Update: Thursday 12
The series of events that make up my life led me to this sentence.
My mother put Amerikana back to work with an embroidery needle.
Its Saturday and Im still shocked that worked at all.