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Even Though I'm Flawed...

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Even Though I'm Flawed...

I can't believe how selfish I am. I want you to exist with every fiber of my being. I want you to be real. I need you to be. I told myself that as long as you were here- it be worth all the pain I endure. That it didn't matter if you loved someone else. That just your existence would make my promise worthwhile... But I lied. Lied to myself. I realized something. I'm horrible. I don't know you. I don't know if you're even real- but you're MINE. I don't want you to be with someone else. I don't want anyone else to hold your heart. I want you to need me like a missing piece. I want you to hurt without me, so you know something's not right. I wa

Done Being Human

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Done Being Human

I'm done being human. Come on, ASK me why. It's because of all the bad things- that make me want to DIE. All the hate and rage and complex interactions, all the expectations and lies- I am done dealing with it. I'll wear my ears and do what I want. Too bad for you if you've objections. Cats answer to no one- ESPECIALLY NOT humans. Sucks to be you if I don't comply with your demands, Right? But I want to be free. I won't let you hurt me anymore. I don't care if you accept me, Or want things done your way. If I can't leave this place, I can at least do what I need to keep breathing another day.

Devastating Depression

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Devastating Depression

It's happening more and more- the irritation, the sick feeling in my stomach, the desires to lash out. I hide away, I drown myself in distractions, but I can't escape. The need to break myself over and over again until it stops, choking on the urge to cry for something I'll never have. The worthlessness I feel for avoiding my friends and the project I love- the conviction I have that my existence here is pointless- It's all becoming too much. I don't have the energy to reach out. It's not like I'd trust anyone enough to let them in anyways. Despite my seeming calm, I'm more desperate than I can convey. I cut for the first time in a long w
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Just Another Desperate Day

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Just Another Desperate Day

Me:  Even I get angry sometimes- Them: EVEN?? *phfft* You mean you ALWAYS get angry, right? Cuz you're Child of Wrath. So don't go play'in' the saint or martyr, k? Me: ... You're right. When I say even I, what I really meant, was how dare it happen again? Seriously? Don't they get it at all? I'm freakin' DANGEROUS! I could end up killing someone, so why? D: Why do they do things that put me in this state? I try so hard to keep it all locked inside, and they never even notice... Them: Hey, don't ask US. We think it's hilarious. You get so worked up all by yourself, and we get to watch you struggle. Watch you force everything down and break

And.... What?

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And.... What?

    "I love you." The gut wrenching desperation in my voice as the words were sent into the void shocked me. Even with most of my memories gone, I knew that I didn't have anyone I loved. Didn't even let anyone close enough to develop feelings for them. Who was I claiming to love? The mythical Soul Mate that romantics claimed everyone had? An imaginary person I wanted to will into existence? In the darkness behind my eyelids, I could admit how weak I was. So weak that I hoped that if I said the words, the one to whom they belonged to would appear. In the silence following my rash words, my heart felt as if it was being ripped to shreds. I had
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Artist // Hobbyist // Varied
  • Aug 20, 1985
  • United States
  • Deviant for 8 years
  • She / Her
My Bio
profile pic was created by :icongattoshou: They do amazing commissions like mine!

My icon was created by :iconackeren-art: They also do amazing commissions like mine!

Writing is my passion. I also draw some and crochet(a LOT). I now have a shop on etsy to sell the blankets I make.
The shop name is BlanketKitten. Feel free to check it out!
www.etsy.com/shop/BlanketKitte…
Cat blob by photosoph
I want to reach out with my writings and inspire others. Even though it is easy to get lost in the darkness, one can almost always find a light-if you look for one. Some days even I don't look for the light...
Apparently I'm INFP, but aspects of it are a little skewed due to mental illness. I may be a bit strange and unconventional-I am a Kitty Cat Imperialist. (and yes, I'm serious) Anyways, I like making new friends. I try and be a nice person. Sometimes I watch people on DA because they seem really interesting! I hope you find what you are looking for and have a great day!
All shall be accomplished while serving the Kitties, who rule this world, though it is not widely known.

I have a novel in progress with my writing partner :icondevontomatocat: You can find all of it in my gallery in it's folder: Slipping Between Dreams. Feedback is always welcome!:D
www.deviantart.com/kittysib/ga…


I also have an account :iconamnesiarose: I don't currently post stuff there, but I can't bear to delete it...

I love to read books, especially Ilona Andrews, David Weber, Anne Bishop, Louis L'Amour, Ali Brandon, Sofie Kelly, Lorna Freeman and Bruce Coville.
I'm a HUGE manga and anime fan! Some of my favorites are: Fairy Tail, Chobits, XXXHolic, Kamisama Kiss, Library Wars, Vampire Game, Mugen Spiral, and anything by Yuji Iwahara-including but not limited to Cats Paradise and King of Thorn.

My taste in music is varied, But some bands I absolutely adore are: Five Finger Death Punch, Three Days Grace, Five Iron Frenzy, Muse, Evanescence, Two Steps From Hell, Linkin Park, Papa Roach, Shawn Mendes, Epica, Nightwish and Blind Guardian. I also like to listen to a LOT of Nightcore on Youtube.

My main interests are writing, drawing, crocheting, listening to music, reading, watching anime, cats, tigers, dragons, time travel, alternate realities, magic ect. I have blue and purple hair, which I found to be a very important life choice in order to help with my depression.

I post a fairly wide collection of art types. Poetry, song, stories and chapters, cat pics, blanket pics, drawings and digital art (mostly DAmuro), and the occasional random other things. Being creative is something I cherish a lot, and one of the things I can't handle being cut off from. It's an important part of me, and I hope you'll appreciate it too! :D

:iconrainbowsparkleplz: If you'd like to chat about books, anime, or anything else, feel free to note me! I'm not usually a monster :iconhappykitty-plz: :iconrainbowsparkleplz:

Favourite Visual Artist
I just like pretty things :)
Favourite Movies
Princess Bride, Dr. Horrible's Sing Along Blog, Treasure Planet, How to Train Your Dragon 1 and 2, Puss in Boots, the Underworld series, Mulan, The Road to El Dorado, Anastasia, Big Hero 6, Frozen, DeadPool 1 & 2, Zootopia, Despicable Me 1&2
Favourite TV Shows
SailorMoon,BlackCat,Getbackers, RuneSoldier,Sgt.Frog,GhostHunt,LibraryWars,Chobits,Wallflower,BlueExorcist,Noragami,Fairy Tail, Devil Is A Part-timer,Sekirei,Heaven's Lost Property,InuYasha,MaidSama,Rosario+Vampire,InuXBokuSS,Gokusen, KamiSama Kiss
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
Blind Guardian, Five Finger Death Punch, We Are the Fallen, Linkin Park, Five Iron Frenzy, I Am Ghost, the Aquabats, Within Temptation, Pink, NightWish, Two Steps From Hell, 2Cellos, Piano Guys, Stone Sour, Three Days Grace
Favourite Books
fantasy, sci-fi, fiction, romance:The Others(Anne Bishop)the Borderland Novels(Lorna Freeman)-Manga also:Vampire Game,Library Wars,Mugen Spiral,Until Death Do Us Part,Undertaker Riddle,FairyTail,Kamisama Kiss,Soulless
Favourite Writers
Anne Bishop, R.A. Salvatore, Piers Anthony, Mercedes Lackey, Lorna Freeman, Bruce Coville, Sophie Kelly, Ali Brandon, Timothy Zahn, Christine Feehan, Sherrilyn Kenyon, Ilona Andrews, Karen Marie Moning, David Weber,Seanan McGuire,Christine Warren,
Favourite Games
tic tac toe,checkers,Hangman,Ovipets,Cookie Clicker, Munchkin,Mancala,Killer Bunnies,Qwirkle, Viridi, Guitar Hero, Apples to Apples, Ovipets
Favourite Gaming Platform
table games, card games, computer, dice games, X-Box (Guitar Hero)
Tools of the Trade
computer, pencil, paper, eraser, yarn, crochet hook, sewing scissors, Imagination, affection from my cat :D
Other Interests
My Etsy shop BlanketKittten, music, writing, drawing, painting, crocheting, Glitter, kitties, candy, ice cream, manga, anime, tigers, time travel, abnormal psychology, MLP:fim, supernatural creatures, romance, merpeople, helping people
Just realized I have no idea how to make this new site work, and am in total panic mode. Llama badges are now meaningless, since I can't see mine D: I feel like a complete loser. I don't know how to handle all the changes, and I don't like it. I'm r

Do you believe in soulmates?

  |  27 votes
  • Yes! I've met mine!
  • Yes, I'm a romantic!
  • Yes, but I lost mine
  • Nah, there isn't just one destined person
  • No, don't believe in soulmates OR Love
  • Other (comment please!)
  • Who needs love when there are cats??? @_@

Have you added any new art to your home lately?

  |  16 votes
  • Yes! Wall art!
  • Yes! Other art!
  • Nope, no changes to my decorations/art collections
  • other (comment please!)

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Thank-you for my llama badge. I shall wear it with honor, and cherish it forever.

KittySibHobbyist General Artist

You're Welcome!:D

gleaarNew Deviant

Thanks for the llama! <3

KittySibHobbyist General Artist

You are welcome!:D

Thanks for the llama, kind madam!
KittySibHobbyist General Artist
You are very welcome 😊
JKC16Student Traditional Artist
Thanks for the llama badge!