Hey everybody, I am so sorry for being quite and away but the truth it I am super depressed right now and having a hard time lifting my head.
I have recently finished university and it has left me feeling…empty to say the least. I have a glass that just won’t fill.
I have lost the ability to do anything creative: drawing, cosplay, singing, you name it. I just couldn't give a fucking damn.
I am feeling restless. I want adventure, I want to walk streets I have never seen, new faces and smiles, smells and taste and I just have no idea how to find it. I want to move out of my country and get a job elsewhere for a while but without the correct funding that is not happening.
Now it’s not the waiting that is killing me it’s the decision of what to do. I have a boyfriend you see and it’s not that I don’t love him I just feel really tied down and trapped. How can I leave my life behind with him apart of it? How can I break his heart and tell him I may have to move on without him? There are some other complicated parts that keeps me tied but I won’t go into that.
Along with this I am not eating much due to a loss of appetite and whenever I do eat I feel really sick about half way through and have to bite my lip to stop it. I have been force to leave some of my best friends in the world and independence behind to be plunged into the world of the past.
I feel so lost and don’t know what to do. I can’t stop my mood going up and down and I keep randomly crying and feeling dizzy.
I really hope letting it all out here will help.
Thanks to everyone who made it this far and for listening.
Been a while and a lot has changed.
So I did some Voice Acting stuff...
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HAPPY HOLIDAYS OLD AND NEW WATCHERS!
Also well jealous that you're at Expo right now, hope it gets your creative juices flowing again
So I gave myself a kick up the butt and decided to freshen myself up with a new look and plan my next move in life out
After the convention this weekend I have promised myself to get art making.
Thank you again! Your concern means a lot.