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Drawing again after 10 years by Kim-SukLey Drawing again after 10 years by Kim-SukLey
I began to draw many years ago.  From the age 12 to 14, I remember I dedicated every second to drawing. I did this because there were so many stories and characters inside my head, and I just wanted to see them materialized into something physical; I wanted to give them life.
Since my family never had money, they didn't support my art and saw it as a hobby. I recall saving part of my lunch money ( I was given 40 pesos a day, that's 2 American dollars) just to buy some magazines and books with all the information I needed to learn to draw humans and everything that made them people: clothes, expressions, hair, sorroundings, and more. Every time I got one of these new magazines in my hands, I quickly read them over an over in the course of an hour, got my sketchbook out, and starting applying those new drawing tips the pages had offered me.
Wherever I went, I carried my sketchbook and a pack of Rose Art colored pencils an aunt had given me. Yes, wherever: the car, school, family reunions--- and any "spare" time was time to draw something.
Luckily, although my parents didn't really care about this hobby, during those times they didn't tell me away from it either. It was just a little cute thing their kid did.
To my fortune, I met people in school who loved what I did and admired my work. They often gave me gifts: 3 colored pencils, an eraser, a black pen, little things that were great to me, and soon, I built a small art supply collection.
By my late 13s, I had sent a letter to Club Nintendo (MX). My letter contained a drawing meant for the gallery in their magazine. One day, one of my classmates came tome with the new issue of the magazine in his hands and showed me the pieces in the gallery, "It's your drawing, you're drawing was chosen as Art of the Month!" he said. I was so happy I cried. I wish I had the magazine on hand to show you guys :( I'll look for it.  My drawing wasn't pretty, or at least by my standards of today it wasn't. Regardless, it was Link from Twilight Princess holding Midna, one of my favorite games at the time. I remember putting all my effort into it, and seen the people from CN appreciate it so much made me realize I was doing something important.
For once, my parents were proud of me; being smart kid in school for them was just how it should be, so it had poor meaning. Yet, excelling in something different  caught their attention. 
Then, my father gifted me a pack of water colors (which I still have), and my mom got me acrylics. I continued to work, practice and practice.
During late Preparatory school (before Uni), my mom kept supporting my art and telling me about anime events I could attend to learn more about what I liked. However, my relationship with my father had already been heading downhill by that moment. Soon, he stopped supporting what I did, he didn't like my "girly" men, my gay boys, my "ugly" work. "What will my family say if they see that?" he always said.
Added to that, I became very sick, and since my early teens, I piled up weight. Remember I saved a lot of money for my magazines? Well, I ate a lot of junk food, it was the cheap option. My illness left me completely handicapped for 3 days; I thought I was going to die. Those three days were the first time in my life where I had to stop drawing.
After that, I became paranoid and my life changed forever. I became lonely,  and started to communicate more with my characters, my "imaginary friends".
I was 17 when Uni came. My relationship with my family was unstable, but I kept arting for the first semester. Starting the second semester, things became slow. I decided to focus only on my studies, be the best, learn, and give myself a better life. My art had a bit of a stop for 3 years.
I became depressed and suicidal during that time. Violence in my family, poberty (we spent 3 days with no food), and no art to support me; I was done. I won't tell you my suicidal experience right now, but I'll let you know I seeked help right the day after. I went to therapy and the man there helped me a lot.

Nowadays, it's still hard. I don't have a working space (hence why you don't see much traditional art anymore), I have to work a lot to support my mother and brother--- oh, and my cat. My country is slowly decaying, and each day we have less. 
The hardship made me put double the effort into everything I do, and that included my art.
Regardless, I'm thankful because I al least have the opportunity to try and become better, which I'll continue to do in every aspect of my life.

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Sorry if there's something wrong in my anecdote. Proofreading it is a bit sad to me, so I didn't.


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This is my OC Joshua. His hair is naturally that color.
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Crazy-Cucco Featured By Owner Edited Mar 16, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i saw this a while back, but never commented for some reason. But i just want to say that your story is truly inspiring. It makes me want to try harder, but unfortunately.... *sigh* i dont know, everythings just difficult for me. Mental wise, anyways. In certain ways i feel like i have given up, but at the same time i know i fully haven't. I deal with issues and depression too, and it's one of the reasons why I dont try to draw fully on my own. I never really ever have any motivation. When im upset, i literally cant try at all, and it feels like the world is crashing down on me, and i cant function or do anything. It's so sad and unfortunate, because ever since I was little, i had a big imagination and creativity. And i feel like i've let it all go to waste. I could have spent all this wasted time drawing and practicing, but instead, i sit on my ass all day feeling sorry for myself, unable to try. But, im only 15, so i am still pretty young and have a lot of time left to practice, and i keep saying i'll do something, but i never do. I cant bring myself to try. It's so hard being trapped inside of my head. I also know what you mean by talking to your imaginary friends. I do that too, because i've always been lonely my whole life, so i (i think) created a voice in my head i talk to. But anyways, keep up with your amazing artwork, and I hope as time goes on you get more watchers and support. Green Link Approves Icon Violet Link Smile 
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Kim-SukLey Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
I think it's important to try to use your art as some sort of therapy. I've had this mentality of trying to make good things out of which I consider bad or saddening. Even when it comes to the Legend of Zelda community, for example, I don't feel a part of it. In a way, I've created my own parallel universe within this fandom, to the point where there are fans who hate my work. There were many times, due to immature hatred from others and my own metal state, when I thought about letting it all go. Then, instead of doing so, I decided to become better at what I did, paint better, draw better, but never change the essence of what I believed in.
Everything finds a way to fall into place.
I hope you find the time and inspiration to draw if that is what really appeals to you.

Thank you for your kindness and support :aww:
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SpoonPrince Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow - the improvement shown is outstanding! I read through what you wrote and, to keep things short, I'll say that I am really amazed and inspired. I can somewhat relate with what you said, but more so it's all very motivating for me to continue drawing. I've already seen your other journals and various other recollections of your life, so I'm glad to see art from you whenever you do post - and quite beautiful art, if I may say, given how stressful and time-consuming your life must be! Keep up with the awesome work as best you can!!!
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Kim-SukLey Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for your kindness!
I'm happy you've found some motivation to continue working on your art. Many times I thought on giving up and closing my dA account (to have no external temptation), but finally, not sure if it was that I became Buddhist, that I decided to take it in my hands and improve with every single piece I made and keep following my dreams of creating, writing, and drawing:)
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BlackRoseXDeath Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Even when life gets you down, when it seems to be waiting to attack at every corner, use those emotions that said situations put you in, gather them up and use them as your pencils, paper, paints, and stylus tool to make good art.
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Kim-SukLey Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Will do :)
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SullenHighStar Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Wowser;; Huge improvement over the years!! Anatomy got better and everything :00

Made me tear up a little reading the stuff about your life. I hope things get better for you in the future with the stuff you're going through and Mexico's problem [both with the USA and itself]
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Kim-SukLey Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! Anatomy was always something I enjoyed and tried to improve in every new piece. That is what helped me learn to draw without references :aww:


I just hope I find the way, and build the strenght to overcome everything that's yet to come :)
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NovemberTheFirst1 Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
i love the improvement and.... telling us about your life so far with art really made me tear up a bit. (hopefully we can see the picture in Club Nintendo someday?) Even though you don't know me, I am so proud of your journey. Keep being amazing, Shawn <3
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Kim-SukLey Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you very much for all the support and your kind words.
I often fail to see my own improvement, and being so self-critical, sometimes  I give poor value to what I've done so far. 
Thank you for reminding me I've done well  :)
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Andrea-Colunga Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2017  Student Digital Artist
>u< EXCELLENT WORK AND IMPROVEMENT! Congrats! Wow, :< Al leer tu historia que tiene que ver con como tu arte se fue dando si se siente que fue muy difícil de lidiar, pero como dicen "Si estas pasando por el Infierno (o sea tiempos complicados), sigue adelante" y eso es lo que tu hiciste, es algo de admirar la verdad, y te tengo que decir, me encanta tu trabajo (xD No se si te acuerdas que una vez te mande una nota por Tumblr hace tiempo diciéndote eso mismo), y también, FELICIDADES por haber conseguido poner tu trabajo en esa revista! :) Recuerdo que cuando era mas chica (como de 10 años), yo soñaba con hacer eso, pero nunca me atreví, y ahora que me siento mas capaz, la revista desapareció si es que no me equivoco.

Con lo de que nuestro país (MX) se esta yendo abajo tienes mucha razón, pero así nos toco vivir, y conociendo como nunca dejara de ser corrupto el gobierno, no creo que cambie lo mínimo. 

Espero que a pesar de todo esto que esta pasando, tu sigas poniendo incluso mucho mas esfuerzo en tu trabajo, tienes que pensar en que llegaras mucho mas lejos de lo que piensas en la vida!
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Kim-SukLey Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
¡Muchas gracias!
Las cosas no han dejado de ser difíciles, pero al menos teniendo un trabajo decentemente pagado y ya no estudiando he podido enfocarme un poco más en lo que me gusta y seguir mis sueños :)
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Andrea-Colunga Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2017  Student Digital Artist
:3 No hay de que agradecer! :D Que bueno que has podido salir adelante a pesar las circunstancias, >u< Te deseo la mejor de las suertes para que puedas cumplir todo lo que te propongas en la vida! ^u^ Y si, disfruta cada cosa que hagas!
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Avnil Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Amazing improvement! I really like seeing these improvement paintings
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Kim-SukLey Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you! :)
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Avnil Featured By Owner Jan 21, 2017  Hobbyist Digital Artist
you're welcome!Heart 
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