Gosh I feel so awkward being on DeviantART for more than 2 minutes a day.
If you didn't notice (I don't blame you if you didn't) I have been
anti-social on dA for many months. If I count correctly, from the start of September all the way to now has been a big hole of *nothing* from me. I really really REALLY apologise for that! TAT Yeah, so what's your excuse for this, silly girl?!
Eeek, umm, welllllll, I kind of needed to get some space from here. What kind of space? Do you hate us all secretly? >:U
OH MY WHAT- NO. I love you all very muuuuuch, and I really sacrificed so many friendships on here for my own selfish needs, I'm so sorry! ;A;
Honestly, I was finding that drawing was becoming more of a task rather than something I did for fun. It was consuming so much of my life (including precious study time 8A8). I just felt that I really needed a break from it all since it also frustrated me when I couldn't draw something. Plus the neverending list of owed art just put me off and stole any motivation, in any, I managed to gather. . .
It also kinda felt like I was obliged to post art every few days or so, reply to all my messages, comment, fav, be social, etc, when really I just wanted to get through things at my own pace :C
Plus with irl drama constantly bothering me there was just no end to this feeling of "WHAT DO I DO NOW?!?!" ಥ_ಥ Since I am the type of person who doesn't stop thinking or worrying about things all that was on my mind was a big soup filled with "You need to finish this!" "You need to talk to that person!" "You need to be a better friend!" "You need to do that assignment!" "DO ALL THE THINGS!!!" etc etc~
My mind never seemed to rest! QAQ
A real person (you, hopefully!) knows that this was definitely not healthy. It certainly took me a while to realise, however once I did I knew what I had to do.That is why I had to disappear.
There was no longer enough time in the day to fulfil every expectation. I had to cut back on something, and one thing was certain: It wasn't going to be my homework. :\
So yah.Yeah, okay, so what did you do in the months you were gone?
I'll make a giant list right here to fill you in: (not in any order)
♥Went to Manifest 2011 ♥Disappeared off the face of the planet ♥ Caught up in Homestuck ♥Did endless amounts of homework ♥Did endless amounts of assignment and assessment tasks ♥Got a new phone ♥Deco-ed that phone to death ♥allowed my Lolita wardrobe to GROW ♥Studied for exams ♥Passed all exams! ♥EVEN MATHS ♥Had a party by myself for passing maths ♥Got married ♥Lied about getting married :b ♥Visited Nursing homes and Dementia Daycares and talked to the kind elderly people there ♥Got kissed on the cheek by a sweet old lady who mistook me for her great granddaughter! XD ♥Made a scrapbook about me and a 48 page storybook about Dementia to show the people. (: ♥Visited a Hungarian Citizens club ♥Witnessed the most amazing reaction from a group of Hungarian people when they found out I was part Hungarian ♥Ate lots of yummy foods ♥Fought with friends ♥Regained friends ♥fought again ♥forgave (stupidly) again :\ ♥Got 2 awards (howdidthishappen) ♥My name in the newsletter whuuuut: gyazo.com/3efec99e464a0c79dc71…
♥ Completed Year 9! 8DD ♥Got food poisoning ♥Right before Christmas! ♥My christmas wish was to be better for Christmas day~ ♥It came true! ♥Got a 3DS Weeee~ ♥Got a Laptop, however it wasn't an X-mas presents, rather a necessity as my old computer was blue-screen-of-deathing ♥Went to my friend Claire's house, however she did not warn me there were going to be water balloons . . . ended up like a dead soak sewer rat . . . ♥Visited her house another time to say goodbye to Xenoccultus
who is currently overseas ♥Achieved many successful things at her house such as this: a7.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphoto…
♥Yes there is a 4th person under both beanbags . . . ♥ Probably drank over 30 cans of Chrysanthemum Tea over the whole time I was away ♥ Bought a lot of stuff ♥Got so excited when it was finally Summer ♥Waited for it to get hotter ♥And waited . . . ♥And waited . . . ♥And watched the rain while snuggled in 50435943 blankets . . . ♥Committed suicide over the fact that it was freezing in the middle of SUMMER ♥Realised today was actually nice weather! ♥Over the whole time I was gone felt so guilty that I was gone ♥Drew stuff ♥Ate stuff ♥Drank tea ♥LIVED. <3
Yeah, there is probably so much more but I suffer from this disease called I-dont-actually-care-because-I-tried-to-remember-as-much-as-I-can-so-be-happy-you-selfish-troll-itis. (:Excuse me, I have one last question! I saw you were actually kinda active on other sites such as Tumblr and Twitter. What's your excuse this time? :b
Well, I do admit, I was still fairly active on both of those sites, especially Tumblr. However, let me put it this way:
Which of the following would you prefer to wake up to finding? This:
Or something a little less threatening like this:
Yeah, if you were thinking correctly you would have chosen
the non Photoshopped one
the one without a billion messages. :b
I found it almost...threatening to look at all my dA messages. I honestly just wasn't in the mood to spend my time looking through all of those instead of just being able to enjoy art and photography like I should have been. It was nice to sit back. C:
But, I did come back right? That is all that matters, right? Now I can be happy AND active, as well as fully energised and ready to start drawing more again~
Yeahhhhh.Okay...I had something I know you needed to explain but now I forgot.
SILLY BONNIE-QUESTIONING-PERSON! You should know BETTER! /slap!/Yus. This is the part were you can say hello!, ask me anything, punish me, etc etc~ I will take any of these with pride! 8D I'll try my best to reply in a reasonable amount of time <3
Okay, time to depart now! This surprisingly took like an hour and a bit to write out, geeeeeeez;;
If you got this far in the journal, CONGRATULATIONS! Have this silly group of photos I made for my friend of me and my Chrysanthemum Tea
The straw wasn't working (or rather, the person operating it wasn't . . .) and she wanted to see what happened to my face in the process of me getting it working (Ignore derpy faces and messy room, I was sleepyyyy~) We even added captions!
~"Look! It's my tea!"
"Can't wait to have my first si-"
"WHY IS IT NOT WORKING?!?! >:U"
. . . And then I realised I accidentally got a straw with a cut in the side.
So then I enjoyed my tea happily.
Okay, I warned you that it was ridiculous. And I was derpy. I WARNED YOU.
*Crawls off to hole*