So, by the grace of someone mighty and important, I have finally got myself a job at a t-shirt printing company, and just finished my first week. My impression - the job is fun and interesting, but, since I don't really have any prior experience in printing (except the last 3.5 days I spent at my new work), the tasks assigned still confuse me, and, due to me being the good ol' anxiety incarnate I am, I managed to make a few stupid mistakes already, like almost screwing up 1.5 meters of thermofilm, and mis-registering almost another three meters of spent thermotape, in addition to incorrectly pressing down the heat press on a bag: I didn't screw up the positioning of the print, but I pressed down on the bag while its straps were under the main body itself, rather than being placed away from the pressing area.
Some of my colleagues probably sensed my awkward and a bit chaotic approach on the work, but I really can't help it - I mean, all this stuff is completely new to me, yet I am expected to replace the former colleague, who had done this stuff for years... I feel so inadequate and I fear that I might be dragging the whole department behind the schedule because of my slow learner's pace.
On the brighter side, the intensity of the work (save for lunch break) kinda limits my mind of going into the panic/anxiety attack mode, since it is always pre-occupied with calculating the precise placements of design on a thermofilm, making the correct adjustments for the CMYK channels when splitting an image into them for the screenprint, or paying all attention to carefully slicing out the printed designs for the heat transfer tapes. Now I know I might get some heart condition later down the road like this, but I suppose that's how life goes - to drive one poison out, another must always replace it.
Also, about driving, it is currently my 13th month since I last drove anywhere. Not to brag, of course, because this is nothing to be bragging about; I'm just stating the fact that my carquest was basically a useless investment, and that all that money could have gone towards something more useful for me personally - for example, those 15 months of multimedia design studies I'll start this summer (it's an official online course, so I think I can manage combining my job with it).