I'm in a similar boat with the juggling part.
But the demands of making ends meet has pretty
much robbed me of my personal time and energy.
I can't seem to catch a break. Once in a blue, I'll manage
a drawing or a post or two, but I haven't been as consistent nor
productive as I would like to be.
Sad to say, I'm just too busy to do art.
Even with every efforts of improvising, I get mentally tired, when I push
to make time for it. But all I can do is continue to press forward, and manage
in anyway possible. I've always been a fighter at heart, so I'm not giving up.
Things could be better, and in other areas of my life, things has gotten better.
It's just when it comes to the art department, that's the one area in my life, I could
barely accomplish. I'd have to fight tooth and nails to get it going somehow. My situation
doesn't seem to support me as an artist. So, I really have to push for it somehow.
Sometimes, I went as far as pretending to go to work on my days off, just so I can find a quiet
spot on the luxury yacht at my job, and work on my writing and drawings without any further
distractions. Before hand, I'd have to study the white board for boat schedules, crew, best place
of entry and exit of the boats. I'm well, technically a "ninja" artist.
I've gotten good at it with each
practice, but I don't do it very often, since it's wise not to push my luck. So I only do it discreetly, if I have no other way to work on my project. That's my rare ace card.
At home I have no solitude, and in every home that I have moved to, I never had the luxury to concentrate on
art and writing. I always had to improvise. But the lack of time and practice in getting better at art suffers. Too many setbacks in my life, makes it harder for me to improve or practice. So, I'm forced to work with what I know.
I need the opportunity and it's the one thing I can't seem to get ahold of. I'll have to keep fighting for it and hope for the best.