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Update Jan 9, 2017

Tue Jan 9, 2018, 5:22 PM
FAQ + TOS - Work Queue - Commissions - Note Me

Edit (Jan 10th, 2017): The vet fit in an emergency appointment this morning and my cat's been diagnosed with a chronic illness- she'll have it for the rest of her life- BUT a single pill of medicine a day will keep her with me for a while longer. She purred for me when she came home and I cried because I thought I would never hear that sound again. It felt too soon to say goodbye, even if it's already been over a decade. My Mother is out of surgery, but staying in the hospital. The surgery was a success and I'm SO thankful for the nurses and doctors who worked with her and helped keep my mom safe and healthy. I still haven't heard news about my grandmother, but I pray it's good news. - Thank you to everyone who commented or contacted me to wish us well or pray with me. I speak sincerely when I say it meant the world to me!
Original Journal
I try not to post my circumstances or make lots of "this is my life" posts unless they directly relate to my art/dA life.
I'm also not really keen on whining or complaining or posting sob stories- life is life and sometimes it sucks but you get up and move on and face a new day.

But for this one time, I'd like to make a small post about what's actually happening and why I've been so quiet and ask that everyone be patient with me.

Yesterday I saw a specialist I've waited months to see- and I faced the fact that I still don't know what's wrong... and that any answers I do find from this point onwards reveal I may never work as a nurse again... that there's a very real possibility my health might permanently put me on disability. At only 27 years old, this is pretty terrifying. And it's a lot to handle. 

I've been preparing for my mother's surgery (8 am, Jan 10) for a while. I'm worried, and nervous, but prepared. What I wasn't prepared for was for my grandmother's surgery to be moved up to the SAME DAY at roughly the same time. No one's really been upfront with me about what's going on with her- so I don't have any solid information on what kind of surgery or if it's life-threatening. All I know is "hospitalization". 

I also wasn't prepared to have my therapy cat (whom I've had for over 10 years) suddenly take a turn for the worse. She's been losing weight for a while and I've taken her to the vet and had bloodwork and testing and no answers were found. I stayed up last night and all of today to keep an eye on her- she's stopped being active and purring. She refuses to move from my desk (her normal napping place). She eats wet food, but barely drinks/voids and her gums and ears are pale in color. My roommate is a vet tech and she's been keeping watch too- tomorrow morning I have an emergency vet appointment... so we'll see. I'm hoping it's just a thyroid condition.... but in a 14 year old rescue cat it's very much up in the air (and this might really be goodbye)....

This sounds like way too coincidental to be real, but scarily enough it is. 
I'm dealing with the reality that my cat might not survive, and theoretically, a family member I love dearly could pass as well. In nursing, I dealt with unexpected hardships and death all the time, but it's entirely different when it's personal and deeply emotional. I deal with intense physical pain every day with my illness... but nothing has brought me to tears until now. 

If I'm quiet or seem distant... I'm not avoiding you out of spite or malice- I am simply giving myself some space.
I'm still going to try to post art and be active on here... I need SOMETHING to focus on besides the reality of my situation.
If it's more-so vent art or doodles, rather than something owed- please, PLEASE understand I have every intention of working on your pieces! I would just rather my own emotional circumstances not reflect on the quality of the art you receive. 

Thank you to everyone who talks to me and supports me- you each mean so, SO much to me. <3
If you are religious and willing, please include my family in your prayers. 
Thank you again,

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Mxxgic Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Im here for you if you need anything at all *hug*
It will be okay buddy 
empiredog Featured By Owner Jan 10, 2018   General Artist
I know how scary it can be with family and pets in trouble! I'll be thinking about you and I hope everything goes well Kenna! ♥
KariStarr Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Man, that is scary, especially with all the uncertainties :c I hope everything goes as well as possible. Take care of yourself!
buffbears Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i hope things go okay kenna <33
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