So... Perhaps among the updates I've written in the four years I've been on this website; this is going to be the hardest one that I will be writing.
As of today I will be quitting Deviant Art for the foreseeable future and before I get to the reasons I should explain this a little bit.
I say "I'm quitting" because unlike my last update I honestly don't know or foresee when I'll be back or whether or not I will be back to this website at all. In my last update I claimed that I would be on a hiatus for about a month or a little bit longer and that was mainly because all the changes I was going through with my life but now those changes seem very little compared to the stuff I'm dealing with now but enough of that.
First reason for this whole thing is that, again, a lot has changed in my life. A lot of it is good and some bad. With the good stuff I'm relatively happy with it and that is awesome but with the stuff that is bad... Well shit happens so whatever. It's life and life is a big mess of "Shit happens" and because of these changes and things I deal with I honestly can't have the time I used to spend on this website.
Second reason is that I am not as productive as I used to be. When I started this: It was a poster per week and nowadays I just stare at a blank page and the blank page stares right back. It's a creative block mixed with a reduced amount of passion. I'm not saying "I HAVE NO PASSION FOR THIS BULL..." or some crazy bitter sentence like that. I love this. I was built for this. Art has been a huge ass part of my life since the day I was born. I still love drawing and I still love writing. I guess I just can't be that active about it that much, anymore.
It really is surprising to me that my work has been able to reach to the amount of people it did. Granted it wasn't as big as some of the giants of this website or the internet when it comes to art but every once in a while I come across one of my stuff on a website and the reaction people give to and honestly that brings a smile on my face and that really is it for me. If my work can make someone think or say "Oh, that's pretty cool" then to me that means I did something right and I'm happy about that. I don't think I've ever gotten a bad "review" of any of my pieces -even the really, really bad ones- and that's great. It means someone out there likes it and that is cool. It might sound a little contradictory and I really don't wanna sound like an asshole but I really was never in this for the attention, money or internet fame. I was always in this for the passion and the idea that "it can't hurt for other people to see it".
In the beginning it was really rough for me. I never claimed to be the greatest artist ever lived. Throw a rock you'll hit a better artist than me. I didn't know anything about digital painting, anatomy, colors, copyright laws, fair use and/or Photoshop/Illustrator but I learned along the way. I was just an asshat who doodle stuff he saw in comic books but it was an interesting turn of events that in the end I was able to develop this interesting and weirdly chaotic style that was influenced from a lot of posters you see online and I honestly enjoyed it. I also learned how to deal with criticism which really was the lesson for me. It was an amazing ride where I learned a lot of stuff and made friends who helped me a lot in my craft and personal life.
I think this is the part where I should talk about funny and weird stuff happened here. I wrote a couple of journal posts shitting on Capcom. Still doing that in the dialogues with my friends. I wrote posts about life and English not being my native tongue for which I was called an idiot by a kid who repainted Sonic sprites and called it his own totally original pixel art (you know who you are) which ended up with him starting to leave ridiculous amounts of mean comments and no actual criticism. It was weird. A lot of my work somehow found it's way to Tumblr and oddly enough one of them to Nerdist.com and got amazing reception. The most amazing thing ever was seeing a poster I made on a t-shirt and I don't make or sell prints. It was just some random guy who liked it so much that he got it printed on a shirt and that blew my mind and a lot of stuff I can't remember because my memory is kind of shit.
So... Cool stuff all around. This might sound like I'm quitting the art stuff but I really am not. I will just post them on Tumblr but it won't be frequent or something. Whenever I feel like something turned out great. I will put the link below and once again. Thank you all who looked at my stuff and liked it or didn't like it. It was a great four years.
Thanks for reading and goodbye.