Current Residence: Legacy, Bloodthorn Hall; Antonia Bayle Favourite genre of music: anything I can sing to! Favourite style of art: 3d Operating System: Macintosh OS X MP3 player of choice: itunes Favourite cartoon character: she-ra, sunflower
Another crazy day. I realize it's been almost a year since I updated my journal, so where am I at:
- Have lost my house, but am living in an apartment with someone I care for and respect.
- Have lost my boyfriend, then my girlfriend but am dating an incredible guy I really dig.
- Get to bring one of my furbabies home with me.
- Getting rid of the storage unit, and filing for disability
- Diabetes - a1c of 6.1 in the hospital.
- Arting for myself mostly these days.
- Loved by wonderful people.
Hope is an odd concept for me. In the past hope has meant defeat, and disappointment. But, I'm doing better. My numbers are consistently under 170, my a1c came back as a 6.9 and painwise I'm finally starting to feel better, having days again that are good. I have my posse, and I'm starting to realize they ain't going nowhere. I've not really experienced that kind of love since my husband died. I have a fantastic new doctor. My thyroid is finally normal, and I'm pretty adjusted to the idea of needing to take like 12 pills a day to live. My blood pressure is good, my pulse is good, and there is a chance the diabetes related damage might heal.
Tomorrow will be the five year mark of miscarrying in my second trimester. About a week after that is the five year mark of losing my husband and Master to cancer complications. And a few days after that will be my thirty-first birthday.
Am I where I want to be? No. Sick, unemployed, battling diabetes and the inevitable depression, alone, unowned... No I'm not. But I'm getting better slowly and while the last year wasn't easier, I have made noticeable progress. And honestly, there is nowhere else to go but up. The last month I feel like I took considerable steps backwards. But I go see my doc on the ninth and hopefully things will begin t
I just wanted to thank you for the on Wallpaper – Nice Elves…[link] I really appreciate your support and taking the time to browse through my gallery of fantastical creatures and beautiful Elf maidens, strange cookies and support stamps!
As a special "thank you," I am continuing to offer cookies for faves! So enjoy and come back when you're hungry again! ~Ellen
By the way… I know that it was a LONG time ago, but I'd be interested to know how you found my artwork, if you remember... Was it just random browsing, or part of a group, or in someone else's faves? Or maybe you've come to visit me before and I just don't recognize your username/avatar yet?... Just curious