This piece ended up being something of a symbol for my struggles with mental illness in a number of ways. On the surface level, spring is my favorite season because it heralds the end of seasonal depression; longer days, flowers, more light, life coming back! I still have regular ol’ depression to contend with, but I still feel so much lighter and happier in spring.
The color pink is also a restorative and healing color for me. I scorned it for years growing up, responding to my own internalized misogyny even though when I was very little it was my favorite color. But it was always my grandma’s favorite color. She wore all pink, decorated her home in pink, and was known as “the pink lady” in her neighborhood. She was the sweetest most kind human being on the planet, and when she passed away I found myself being drawn to the color pink more often. It felt like somehow, she passed the concept of ‘pink’ along to me when she died.
And in practice, this piece show cased how difficult it can be to do things you love when struggling with a depressive episode. This painting was really difficult for me to finish, it took me a LOT longer than it should have. Through the whole painting, I felt like I was swimming through mental sludge. I couldn’t see what to do next in the piece, or conceptualize how to do even simple things. It was hard to create, and finishing it is something of a victory (if a small one).
Special thanks to my patrons on Patreon for funding this one, I love you guys!Prints are available here - www.etsy.com/listing/707762589…
Great work as always. You have this amazingly consistent sense of quality and I really admire that about your work, besides its obvious beauty.
I relate to you with having seasonal depression on top of depression, Spring does feel so relieving from that dark place 💕
keep going, I love your work so much and I will probably order this print, it's so gorgeous and also means something to me as well 😩😭
very inspiring !!!!!
Your grandma sounds lovely ^^ every color is for everyone!!
Without reading the description, my first thought was that this piece just felt warm and energized, so I think that feeling carried in very well the way you meant it to, but I'm sorry to hear that the actual process of creating was such a struggle. I hope that as spring continues, you continue to feel happier and able to do more.