My body is wide and fat and covered in hair; I hate it.
I don't know what to do, everyone says something different.
I wish my libido was better.
When someone, for once, wants to be in bed with me, I always screw it up.
Now I don't even know if I want to have sex anymore, because I'm always scared I'll fail.
I can't just do things on a "just do it" and a "don't worry about how long it'll take". I need a schedule and a goal, otherwise I won't do it. I know from experience.
How do I start doing something?
Whenever even the slightest excuse comes up, I drop all my habits.
What if I like hating myself? What if I'm just doing it for attention?