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  • Listening to: Kate Berry - I Kissed a Girl
  • Reading: The Darkest Kiss - By Gena Showalter
  • Watching: Law and Order SVU
  • Playing: nothing at the moment unless you count rping.
  • Eating: nothin'
  • Drinking: dr.pepper
I haven't updated or uploaded anything in so long it's actually rather depressing. I'm working all the time and then when I'm not there is usually something getting in my way.

Friday was my birthday and I am now officially 18 not that it changes much. I've been working on stuff but it's not really much that anyone would want to look at since my old computer died and took all of my work with it including my serial code for Open Canvas *Cries*
  • Listening to: my brother's fan (I stole it)
  • Reading: Re-reading Bitten my Kelley Armstrong
  • Watching: the dust bunnies on my ceiling
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: pudding or trying to anyway
  • Drinking: dr.pepper
I feel like shit. I've missed school all this week so far which is really starting to piss me off. Monday I couldnt' stop coughing long enough to walk or not piss myself because I coughed too hard(thankfully that's over). Then yesturday I went to the hospital to have surgery to get my wisdom teeth out. All the nurses and doctors were really nice. Thank fully they gave me a bottle of vicadine(spelling?) because it is so fucking painfull. And to top it all off I'm really shakey, exhausted, dizzy and the right side of my face has swollen to about the size of a grapefruit. I also am really really hungry because pudding and yogurt isn't really filling especially when you can't stick your tongue out past your lip or close and open your mouth any further then a centimeter. Ugh sometimes I think life hates me lol. Oh and can't forget I've run out of ice -_-;;;
I'm going to go try and eat some pudding now wml(write more later)
  • Listening to: Disturbed
  • Reading: Re-reading Bitten my Kelley Armstrong
  • Watching: ...
  • Playing: WoW (when I can)
  • Eating: salt and vinegar chips
  • Drinking: coffee
Lately I have been pretty much running off of coffee. I've been thinking alot about college and stuffs. I want to become a Veterinarian tech., first then go for a degree as a vet. All the classes I want to take are at U Maine which in truth surprised me that they had them. My dream job would be a vat at a clinic or Zoo. To own my own house with a couple acres  so I could have a small barn where I could have 1 or 2 horses maybe a couple chickens ( so I don't have to buy eggs) and a few dogs.Mainly the horses and dogs.
I have no idea how I'm going to pay for college I'm going to have to try scholarships loans, and grants. Because it's not like my family has any money to spare. There have been plenty of times where we haven't had heat or electricity. *sigh*
I've been yearning to do some traditional drawings but I can't seem to get them to look decent Grrr >_< It's making me mad *pouts*

(grr I want to insert a picture but I don't know how)
  • Listening to: bleach opening
  • Reading: Cerulean Blues by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: Bleach ep.28
  • Playing: Dynasty Warriors 4
  • Eating: mac n cheese
  • Drinking: grape juice &gt;_&lt;
is..........URAHARA KISUKE!!!!! *squee* he's just so kawaiii!!!! My friend got me hooked on Bleach >_>....
  • Listening to: mix
  • Reading: Cerulean Blues by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: Beast Master
  • Playing: Dynasty Warriors 4
  • Eating: chocolate ice cream
  • Drinking: cranberry rasberry juice
-There is no vaccine against stupidity

-wouldn't you love to say this to someone, Wipe your mouth ther's still a tiny bit of bullshit around your lips

-I'm ready to listen...when you're ready to think

-Why don't you slip into something  more comfortable, like a coma :3

-Never got to bed angry...stay up and plot your revenge

-You really are as pretty a a picture, I'd liek to hang you



Lol I thought they were funny anyway
  • Listening to: Hinder
  • Reading: Obsidian Butterfly by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: Naruto
  • Playing: Dynasty Warriors 4
  • Eating: strawberry cereal bar
  • Drinking: milk
I just got done watching the episode of Naruto where The thir Hokage performed the jutsu that the fourth performed on the Kyuubi. Did anyone else notice that when he drew in the captive souls of the 1st and second that the seel (exactly the same on Naruto's stomach) appears on the 4ths stomach. There for based on that I think that Naruto is actually Yondaime reborn even though I still favor the thought of it being his son becasue that would be too cute but besides that it would also  explain why Naruto has no family at all. Also another obsercation is that the soul that is tied to the front of the reaper is the exact siloette of Yondaime.
...;-; poor Yondaime ;-;
  • Reading: Bloody Bones by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: the game I'm playing
  • Playing: Dynasty Warriors 4
  • Eating: sunflower seeds
  • Drinking: dr pepper
Fianlly I was able to upload those pictures. Gah drawing hair and trying to make it look realistic is hard >_<
  • Listening to: Right Kind of Wrong By Leann Rimes
  • Reading: Bloody Bones by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: it's off
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: crackers
  • Drinking: water
I'm trying to submit a picture that I just finished and it just keeps giving my this "cannot retrieve category" ....so in other words I can't submit my shitty work -_-
  • Listening to: Remember the Name by Fort Minor
  • Reading: Lunatic Cafe by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: it's off
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: just got done eating a peice of cake
  • Drinking: dr.pepper
gah I've had so many Ideas for pictures it's just everytime I pick up a pencil I can't get them out it's reather disheartening.
I normally don't like rap.....at all.... but I was watching an AMV and I actually came across a rap song that I like. (if anybody is wondering I don't include Eminem as rap.) the song is Remember the Name by Fort Minor. It's just got an awsome beat and just kicks ass.
Mid terms are next week and I should be studying but I jsut feel I know it well . I don't even have to go in on wednsday which is awsome. I get to sleeeeeeep.  All the days next week are half days which is really nice.
Gah it's tooooo fucking cold. That's one of the things I hate about Maine. I've got goose bumps on my goose bumps.
  • Listening to: a mix but at the moment Nickleback is playing
  • Reading: Lunatic Cafe by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: it's off
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: just got done eating a peice of cake
  • Drinking: dr.pepper
GAH there's no point saving up to go through driver's ed any more, because they just passed a new bill saying no one can get there license until they are 18 years old. I'm not going to be 18 when I even graduate! =_=#
  • Listening to: a mix but at the moment Nickleback is playing
  • Reading: Lunatic Cafe by Laurell K. Hamilton
  • Watching: it's off
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: just got done eating a peice of cake
  • Drinking: dr.pepper
Okay so far (as in nothing is stopping me yet) in late June my best friend, my boyfirend and I also other people most likely will be going to Portcon Maine. I can't wait I'm going to be dressed up as Temari on one day a young Kakashi on another and on the last day I will most likely be dressing up as probably izumo......Oh fuckign awsome Idea has just struck me upside the head. On the last day or at least one of them .....anyway I'll leave that idea to myself until I can talk to Janelle >:3

Gah I can't wait it'll be so much fun. She's (Janelle) is going to be dressing up as deidara and yondaime. We're thinking about doing a skit.
  • Listening to: hinder
  • Reading: Just finished one have to pick out another one
  • Watching: well nothing it's 7 am nothin good is on
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: air
  • Drinking: dr.pepper
I'm so tired of waking up around 1:30 or 2 am and then not being able to get back to sleep. Right now Im in a total drawing rut not that I haven't had planty of inspiration I just have been incapable of appling it to paper.
This time when I woke up I was plagued with a horrible stomach ache where I thought I was going to loose whatever I'd eaten in the past 24 hours. Then being pestered by one of y dogs who wanted nothing more then to lay on my stomach, all 85 lbs of her, and lick my face.
Lets just say I'm not in the best mood. My mom had to take my "step-dad" to work and so I'm stuck getting my little brothers ready for school. At 9:45 I have an orthodontist appointment which is to assure mouth and jaw pain all day.
...All I want to do is curl up in my bed or beside Jesse and sleep.
  • Listening to: adema
  • Reading: When the Wind Blows By James Patterson
  • Playing: a gaia puzzle
  • Eating: candy
  • Drinking: pepsi
First Date-Blink 182


In the car I just can't wait,
To pick you up on our very first date
Is it cool if I hold your hand?
Is it wrong if I think it's lame to dance?
Do you like my stupid hair?
Would you guess that I didn't know what to wear?
I'm too scared of what you think
You make me nervous so I really can't eat.

Let's go, don't wait, the nights almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this night last forever

When you smile I melt inside
I'm not worthy for a minute of your time
I really wish it was only me and you
I'm jealous of everybody in the room
Please don't look at me with those eyes
Please don't hint that you're capable of lies
I dread the thought of our very first kiss
A target I'm probably gonna miss

Let's go, don't wait, the nights almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this night last forever

Let's go, don't wait, the nights almost over
Honest, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this night last forever
Forever and ever, let's make this night last forever



(this some reminds me so much of Jesse and . It descirbes me fears yet the fact that I couldn't love anything more ever. It reminds me of him especially in the first stanza lol. I love his "stupid hair" it's okay if he doesn't like to dance.*couldn't be more happy*)
  • Listening to: Jericho is on in the bakground
  • Reading: When the Wind Blows By James Patterson
  • Watching: Jericho
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: candy
  • Drinking: milk
All this year (so far) and last year during school I fought and debated with myself weither to stay in JROTC. I originally joined because my friends were joining and it would look great on a college application.My freshman year was great. My sophomore year was okay but it didn't hold the value it had used to and the people in the program were gradually accepting and getting the attitude of being better then everyone else. This year everything has been mind numbing boring, I can't stand the uniform, it's a bother and trouble then anything else. The class is repetative and then nearly all the people I've talked to and interacted with in the corps. are stuck up and conceited or at least treat me like crap. I'm tired of it and I can't take it anymore. Colonal is a sexist old man who doesn't notice it but with his jokes he can be hurtful sometimes. He's also stereotypical.
All last year I slacked off with my grades and I have devoted myself to raising my grades and GPA I also need to study and get better in grammer and math for the SAT's in the spring.

I wish dearly I could make up my mind on a career. I think I'll just be a veterinarian I love animals and my life revolves aroudn stuff like that. I would live on a ranch if I could. Disections and lood and puss and stuff like that doesn't gross me out so I think I'm going to take Latin next year as well as anatomy because I figure itll help make up my mind. I also have to figure in how to have two math courses but then again I only HAVE to take a english class next year as a requirement of all seniors. ANd I have 8 empty spaces to fill. Art is just a hobbie. I couldn't do it for a living especially if I had a deadline. I just wouldn't make it I'd be fired easily even if they liked what I did.

So now in all I'm actually going to have a stable study hall  and have more time to do work and study. Next stop..getting a job.
Finally after months my computer is actually letting me submit art *happy tears*
I can never submit any of my art other then that first one I have about twenty I want to put up but it never lets me post them!!!!It'll get to the 3rd stage and then it'll act like it's going to work but when the page laods like it'll be on the 4th stage of submition it goes back to the third!!!!!**crys in frustration**