im really not fine.
my mind is so blocked i cant see a thing. i cant think and i cant create and thats agonizing.
the things i can think right now are things i wish i could forget. negative thoughts that come to my mind without my permission. even with medicines, even with therapy. even with all support from people around me. they keep coming and sometimes i just cant stand it
i really didnt wanna bring this kind of stuff up here, but i gotta be off for a while and i dont wanna just disappear as i usually do. i just felt like needed to vent right now. hopefully things will get better and i'll come back soon.