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Starter Frostgiant Slot

Sun Jul 22, 2018, 9:16 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



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Also selling slots to STARTER FROSTGIANT MARE
10247 Vanth by kaons
$20.00 USD each 
PARENT SLOT NOT REQUIRED

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What is HTTPS and why does it matter?

Thu Jul 5, 2018, 12:52 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



Hello!
Your friendly neighborhood host back again for another edition of "why should I care about this". Today, I am writing about "HTTPS". Firstly, what does HTTPS mean? Basically, it is "HTTP" but "secure" (which is where the "s" comes from). When you type out "http" into your browser, you are telling your browser the protocol over which to transfer data from a server to your computer. The protocol is basically the application foundation for all internet communication as it is HOW data moves from server to server, through cables/satellite/wifi/etc and reaches your computer. 

So what is the problem with HTTP?
Well, when you make a connection to a website, that connection has to bounce through a bunch of different channels. There are DNS servers, routing servers, mirror servers, etc. Essentially, there are many "hops" you have to make to reach your destination. With HTTP, that is not secure, anyone (really anyone because info is out there) can snag your data as it's making one of these hops. This is how a large majority of credit card information was stolen before HTTPS became a thing, and it's how your personal information is taken. If you use the same passwords for a bunch of sites, and that password gets stolen, then there are computers that will systematically go through your entire history and try those passwords to get access to your information. 

That is a BIT of a simplification of a complex process, but that's the "essence" of http. 

What makes HTTPS different? Better? 
The "S" for secured, means that the data transmitted by you and sent by the computer over those series of hops is ENCRYPTED. Encryption is scrambling up your data with a series of symbols, letters, and random crap that can only be de-convoluted by an encryption KEY. That key is usually a series of numbers. The longer the number, the better the key. There are entire industries dedicated to making encryption keys, and it's basically all math. ANYWAY, what this means for you is that if someone takes your information now from a hop, they won't be able to de-crypt it for... oh... 50 years of computing time?

HTTPS is becoming increasingly important with the implications from GDPR, the US's questioning of Zuckerberg and data safety and security. In fact, our great friends at google told all of us hosts and developers to basically get our act together and make everything HTTPS: searchengineland.com/effective… . I, personally, won't click on a site that says "NOT SECURE", and I CERTAINLY won't login to it! This means that I will be willingly giving information about myself to anyone who could want to use it maliciously. 

Maybe internet ponies don't carry quite the same weight as, say, your bank account, but we still share alot about ourselves through the internet - AND YOUR COMPUTER shares alot too that you may not know about :) 

The whole internet is moving to HTTPS because it's secure and safer for all users.  

Therefore it's our responsibility as content creators, hosts, etc to make sure that the sites we host are encrypted - for the safety of our clients and their users. 


Okay, so how to I get HTTPS?
"When you request a HTTPS connection to a webpage, the website will initially send its SSL certificate to your browser. This certificate contains the public key needed to begin the secure session. Based on this initial exchange, your browser and the website then initiate the 'SSL handshake'. The SSL handshake involves the generation of shared secrets to establish a uniquely secure connection between yourself and the website." - instant SSL.com
All servers have an SSL certificate whether you know it or not. You have to pay to get an SSL certificate for the server you're hosting on in order to establish that connection. Basically, you're buying 1) insurance for your site, 2) an encryption key, and 3) a fancy little green bar telling you that the website is secure. 

Here is an example of a secured site that I host
Ef6e9cb22bc25b8319b3e2da7ede5ee6 by kaons

Here is an example of an unsecured site (note the "i" and click for more information in your browser)
7aa6d2b20a27ac76879a8cdda37ed855 by kaons

Different companies will have special secure identifiers
5639c8ae14c486e3a802b83f56d4bae7 by kaons


There are a few different ways to get HTTPS SSL certificates. All of them require knowledge of networking, DNS, SSL on Cpanel (through WHM, not a normal panel), etc. When installing and setting up HTTPS, there are lots of ways this can go wrong - especially when it comes to browser cookies! Most sites use cookies to keep you logged in, so if you don't set that up properly, your users will never be able to stay logged in. 

You will need to ask your host to give you HTTPS!

If they say you don't need it, make a face and start looking for new options. 



Internet safety is VERY important. Your data security is very important. Encryption is going to happen across all sources soon, and it's better to be prepared :) 


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Using ESRB ratings for RPGs

Mon Jul 2, 2018, 1:37 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



** Update! eshye found this MUCH better ToS and Privacy Policy generator! getterms.io/


Hello! 

Your friendly host kaons here to write the equivalent of a blog on game ratings for RPGs. After helping Caeleste out, I realized that most RPGs use a system called rpgrating.com/ . It's a decent system, and I like that it uses elements specific to content found on RPGs, but there are a few issues with it. So, as a host, I decided to stick to ESRB ( www.esrb.org ) ratings for RPG websites. 

Why? 

  • ESRB is a VOLUNTARY system where you can submit your game, app or site to a committee to get an official rating.
  • The United States FCC calls the system a "success"
  • It looks at the game overall and takes into account topics such as sex, alcohol, drug use, murder, violence, etc to assign ratings based on the recommended age required for a child to play. 
  • ESRB DOES rate board games, table-top RPGs and other types of very similar games to play-by-post and even HARPG. 
  • It gives clear, defining age lines for those allowed to access your content. ALL internet content, however, must be 13 years or older due to COPPA laws. So, really the "tipping point" is that there must be adult permission for children under the age of 17 to access "M" rated content. 

But mainly:
ESRB ratings are WIDELY RECOGNIZED AND WELL KNOWN! 

Some limitations: 
  • ESRB applies primarily to commercial content, so the fact that no money is made from these RPG websites helps to limit your liability. 
  • Your content has to be applied to a specific storefront to get an international rating, and since our content isn't commercialized, it's impossible to get an official rating. 
  • You can get an official ESRB rating, which is mainly for US consumers. 


To close, I think that ESRB ratings are mainly better because they are widely recognized. If someone sees that "M" on your site, it's recognized that there WILL be mature content displayed. This does NOT EXCLUDE YOU from having an AGE VERIFICATION PROCESS! Think about it! Video games are sold online with age authentication through credit cards or in stores where you have to show your ID. Therefore, as a site owner, YOU are RESPONSIBLE for age verification PRIOR to users being able to access your site. 

There are free resources out there for age verification, but all sites hosted by me are getting a special MyBB plugin which age verifies and stores a browser cookie. 

On a similar note, please take a moment to look into the following topics: 

If your host is located in the EU or the UK, there may be ADDITIONAL rules due to GDPR and the data restrictions. It's important to note that you DO NOT sell user information to advertisers. 


MAKE SURE YOUR SITE IS ENCRYPTED AND SERVED OVER AN HTTPS PROTOCOL! 
Laws are changing, and google will start making all HTTP sites as UNSAFE! It's very important that sites are served over HTTPS because of safety and security of your personal information, the safety of your database and the for all users and visitors to your site. 



If you host with me, I help you guys with all of these things and HTTPS is standard :)


**** DISCLAIMER: I am not a lawyer! I cannot verify the legal content here - I've only linked what I've googled and give you information based on my best personal judgment. 


091e03af1e7b1d5f230f885e747f04c3 by kaons



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Web-Hosting Updates!

Thu Jun 14, 2018, 12:02 PM by kaons:iconkaons:





This is a notice that any site hosted by me, kaons hosting, will not tolerate adult material being displayed which is not in accordance with US laws! 

All sites wanting to display 18+ content MUST apply an appropriate filter which is COPPA (
www.ftc.gov/tips-advice/busine…) compliant! 
I will server-side IP ban. 

And I will apply one for you if I host you :)


091e03af1e7b1d5f230f885e747f04c3 by kaons

www.kaonsdesigns.com


ever wanted to do your own forum thingg???


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Terms of Service

Mon Jun 4, 2018, 6:42 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



Effective Date: 6/4/2018

Terms of Service


The outline terms of service in this document are binding to both commissioner and the commissioned (myself). I have the right to edit, modify or change these terms prior to any agreement. Once payment is sent, the client agrees to the terms without exception. 

(I) Payment


  • Payment will be send through PayPal in USD, Venmo in USD, or through Amazon Giftcard in USD via email. 
  • All commissions under $100.00 USD must be paid in full PRIOR to beginning the project 
  • All commissions over $100.00 USD must pay 50% PRIOR to beginning the project and 50% AFTER the confirmed sketch and/or concept art has been approved
  • Payment plans are available upon request 
  • Prices may be subject to change for a variety of factors 


(II) CODING CopyRight and USAGE


  • All code (forum skins, websites, etc) may only be used for the purpose of one website with a single domain
  • Code modifications are always allowed as long as my credit remains visible on the website 
  • The skin or coding may be sold to any site as long as it's only ever displayed on one website
  • Reproduction of any piece of part of the code which visually resembles heavily the original design is not permitted 


(III) Art copyright and usage


  • The client is allowed to use the art in any non-commercial way which includes personal prints, avatars, banners, forum posts, holiday cards, etc. 
  • The art is allowed to be modified, edited or redesigned as long as my credit remains intact 
  • If stock art is used, the stock credit must be visible at all times 
  • The client is allowed to claim the right to their characters but not the artwork itself
  • I retain the right to ONLY display and use your commissioned artwork for portfolios and self-promotion (DeviantArt, Behance, Art Station, etc)
  • Commercial usage, in which the client will have monetary gain from  sales using the artwork, requires a commercial license which can be discussed (in general, a licensing fee of 300% the original commission price)


(IV) dESIGN COMMISSIONS, ADOPTABLES AND RESALE


  • Design commissions come with only 3 roughly sketched, alternative designs. If after rough concepts the client is still unhappy, they can request a refund up to 80% or pay an additional 10% for more concepts. 
  • Design commissions should be specific and be accompanied by music, mood boards and a strong concept of what is desired (artist's choice is also available in which I take full control)
  • I will do any design commissions or adoptables in which the direct inspiration is copyrighted material (ie books, movies, shows). An amalgam of characters used for vague references (ie he speaks eloquently like Hannibal from the show "Hannibal" but is a brilliant doctor like on "House") is okay. 
  • I will never intentionally use or reference from oppressed/minority cultures in any designs or adoptables.
  • All designs and adoptables can be resold at any price point, but I'd like to be alerted to their sale. 
  • I must always be given credit as the original designer, even if modifications are made. 


(V) Process


  • I will always strive to be as efficient and timely as possible, but art takes time and good art takes experimentation, trial and error, and inspiration. I will take at minimum a few months to complete a project and at maximum half a year. If a specific time frame is required, I must be alerted ahead of time and give a due date and buffer dates. 
  • All communication about commissions should either take place via email "elisethechemist@gmail.com" or discord "elisethechemist#4682" since DeviantArt notes are terrible. 
  • All artwork will come with one optional revision PRIOR to the coloring stage. All revisions after coloring will be assessed a fee proportional to the amount of time it will take me to fix the piece. 
  • I will show you works in progress and stream your commission at your request! However, I cannot be expected to stream only when you are online unless you agree to a very long commission time. 
  • You will be given a full-sized, large format .png file for any use. If you need any other format, I can provide upon request. 
  • All animation files will be given in a .swf and .mpg4 file format unless another type is requested. 


(VI) Customer Satisfaction


  • It is my greatest hope that you love the final product, but I also cannot operate at a loss of time and money.
  • After a commission is finished only small changes can be made by me 
  • Any and all mistakes on my part will be fixed free of charge - unless you approved the concept with the mistake.
  • For coding, I am available with a 48 hour window to perform any code fixes that may arise from bugs or my mistakes with plugins. 
  • All coding support is free to sites I host.
  • I DO NOT KEEP BACKUPS OF ALL FILES. Once the piece is given to you IN FULL, I am no longer responsible for the storage, alteration or keeping of that file. 


(VII) Cancellations and Refunds


  • I have the right to cancel and refund your money in full at any time. 
  • If you cancel a commission or request a refund, you will be refunded the full amount minus a percentage of whatever work I've done thusfar. 
  • If you file a chargeback against me, your right to any and all artwork or progress I've done is forfeit and I have the right to sell any of that artwork to a new buyer.
  • All clients who file a chargeback are forbidden to commission me again, and I retain to right to file complaints against you with whichever payment method you used publicly and privately. 


I can be reached at anytime by email or discord! 


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Looking to commish

Sun May 6, 2018, 4:02 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



Hellooooo looking to commish some art of my dudes 

Dimi Dimi needssss
  • Manips
  • Drawings/paintings
  • icons/pixels
  • (all as a horse art)


Eleanor the Dark Sun Reference by kaons  Character Headshots by kaons  Ellie Darksun by kaons
Ellie bellie needss
  • Horse paintings
  • Person paintings (blonde or dark haired)
  • Person art (blonde or dark haired)
  • Person art in full armor (a little WH40k ish)


NEW YEAR ADOPTABLES by Rhiaan
Wolf needs
  • A reference badly! (something I can upload to my account with your credit)
  • All types of horse art 


My Human by kaons  I need a gangster by kaons
Kahul and Phi art
  • Peoples art needed! He's a big red monster with black stripes
  • she's a heterochromatic tech genius with plenty of vices 


???? A NEW CHARACTER?
I've really been wanting a new character. One of the characters I was interested in alot sold ;-; ahh
But that's okay because new is good! 




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My Thoughts on Art Tipping

Thu Mar 29, 2018, 1:13 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



SO! Lots of conversations happening with friends lately about when you should tip your artists, if you should tip your artist and the etiquette around that. It's not something often talked about like tipping wait staff or food service, so I figured it'd be good to get it out in the open again! I know there have been a few journals and polls about this , but I thought it'd be a great idea to have a discussion. Here are my thoughts on tipping: 


When to tip:


  • When you damn well feel like it and/or feel that the artist is doing an amazing job and really going above and beyond
  • If you order something that you know is complex and is going to require more hours than the artist calculated for their base price 
  • If you are aware that the artist is doing something for less than the art is worth - ie, sales, etc. 
  • Because you are a good person

How much to tip:


  • I generally adhere to 10% above the base price of the commission for all commissions
  • 20% for above and beyond artists 
  • 30% if your character is going to take for stinking ever (looking at you people with multiple wings ;) 

Discussion Questions:


  1. How much do you tip?
  2. When do you tip? 
  3. Do you think you SHOULD tip always? Occasionally? 
  4. Should you, as an artist, expect to be tipped for commissions? 
  5. Additional thoughts?





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Drakehest Slot Sales nClv mare added

Fri Mar 2, 2018, 2:14 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



21498 Marchocia by kaons
nClv nWlv mare out of two group horses - starter x starter 
Unrelated to any other mut starters
** Make Offers


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20744 Glamazon by kaons
dom Holi
$30.00

20679 Valke by kaons
dom bifrost
$50.00

20001 Sumi-e by kaons
dom veiled
$30.00

20936 Bones by kaons
nDrk
$15.00

20493 Choronzon by kaons
nBfst
$15.00

Natural Starters - $10.00 each
10175 Cassini by kaons  10109 Rose by kaons  F110 Oiseau Qui Souhaitent by kaons



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Drakehest Slot Sales

Fri Mar 2, 2018, 2:14 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



All are starter x starter or starter x second gen

X115 Odin's Son by kaons x  10247 Vanth by kaons
Starter x starter dom frostgiant :) 
$80.00 for both slots
$50.00 for vanth slot alone
$40.00 for odin slot alone

20744 Glamazon by kaons
dom Holi
$30.00

20679 Valke by kaons
dom bifrost
$50.00

20001 Sumi-e by kaons
dom veiled
$30.00

20936 Bones by kaons
nDrk
$15.00

20493 Choronzon by kaons
nBfst
$15.00

Natural Starters - $10.00 each
10175 Cassini by kaons  10109 Rose by kaons  F110 Oiseau Qui Souhaitent by kaons



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Animated Painting Commission Open

Wed Jan 17, 2018, 12:54 PM by kaons:iconkaons:




Man's Best Friend by kaons
Wulv by kaons




OPENING: 
- 1 slot
- Will be of similar painting quality as this one! (or better, I improve with each one)
- Any background option
- Maximum of 2 subjects (either horse and rider, horse and horse, horse and companion, etc)
- 3000 + painting canvas size
- 1500 px animation (or slightly smaller)
- Animation will be given to you in an .mpg4, youtube upload, and an swf file for the web
- You can use these animations as banners for RPGs :D 

- I can animate seidr, make things move a little across the canvas, fog, smoke, snow, "bursts" of light, twinkling stars, frosty breath... glowing stuff. I can do alot! And I can figure out how to do even more :D 

PRICE: 
AB: $200.00 USD
SB: $80.00 USD 

* I can do payment plans
* This commission won't be completed until sometime in June/July as they take me around 2-3 full weekends


(proof I get better at painting each time)
A couple of weirdos by kaons



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Art Feature pt 1

Thu Dec 14, 2017, 2:21 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



Some stuff I love <3 
Please go watch these people! They are all incredible. 

Prancer by sealle  [Com] Nasim by Beccaespi Top Dressage by MsCarmen  Brothers by littlewillow-art  Misty meadows - dancing in the mist by Roiuky 
toil and trouble | commission by Miss-Mazzira

First Encounter by Memuii  We're Winter Warriors by SpytFyre-Ranch  Gonna Go Slay a Giant by BeIIoso  [comm] cue the morning by magtox  Raphael by PacificDash 
[Horses].:secluded sunset:. by The-Day-of-Shadow   Morrow by Yewrezz  Bearded vulture pegasus by Azany  morning ghosts keep your fear at bay by empluvie  Into The Woods | Gala by Winzer 
Sir Fancy-Pants  -- Commission by Astralseed

SA | Northmen by Ebbarie  mindful by toskurra  Brofist by Aliyska  SA | Humanization Requests! by yawnsyawns  Collab: May Prompt 3: Grump vs. Idiot by AstroPonies 
.:: Ancient Warriors ::. by cyprussian  Come With Me My Love by FINTRON  2075 Deshi Basara by Templado  Autumn commission by PacificNoir  Viking Mud Skirmish by dat-inu 

THE BOTANIST by Lunarlueur

RIFT BETWEEN WORLDS by Rhiaan  Simon Says by aapex  BOOTH by Ladyperfume  Tomorrow, Tomorrow! by jasmine-autumn  that's christmas to me {SS} by DestrierDesigns
-= Com: Crusader =- by Naia-Art  close your eyes by BEELBUHR  Mad Moon by Araxel  Every Little Thing |comm| by CarharttCreations  Commission Winzer by DikkeBobby 


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Free EB Slots!

Mon Nov 6, 2017, 5:27 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



Hey friends! I said I would do this and I finally figured out how :) 

The Rules


  1. You must comment below with an application! 
  2. One application per slot
  3. One application per person
  4. Winners chosen by RNG
  5. Failure to fill out the application will exclude you from the RNG

The Application


  • ID/Name/Link to horse you want the slot to
  • ID/Name/Link of the horse you want to/are going to breed my horse to
  • Reason you want the slot
  • Plans, ideas, canons for the foal
  • Why you love EBs! 

Deadline: 11/17/2017

Available Horses


1614 Ab Aquilone | Mountain by kaons
1 slot and I require a parent slot! This will be one of the FEW public slots to Abe! 

3588 Ulfric | Mountain by kaonsor  1026 Regem Ad Radices Montis | Mountain by kaons
2 slots will be rolled, winners choose which horse


1812 Leo de Gloria | Mountain by kaonsor  3463 Furiosa | Mountain by kaons
1 slot, winner choose which horse

3601 Lovecraft | Mountain by kaons
2 slots


1348 Bounce Back | Plains by kaons or  1352 Bleeding Mascara | Plains by kaons or  2766 Niveo Nocte | Plains by kaons
1 slot, winner chooses which horse


2857 Dreq | Oriental by kaons or  1796 Ash | Oriental by kaons
1 slot, winner chooses which horse

1188 Heka | African by kaons
1 slot


1418 Avaris | Desert by kaons
1 slot 



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Space Facts

Sun Oct 29, 2017, 4:03 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



Hey friends, I have a really unique privilege this year to take a space physics class taught by people running the Juno & Cassini missions plus people who've been on NASA science teams, are on NASA science teams and build stuff that goes into space! I figured I'd share some of the cool things I've learned so far. 

  • Venus' atmosphere is basically what ours will be like if we keep on with this global warming track and deforestation. It's a thick greenhouse gas cloud cycle in which sulfuric acid rains down, etches out the sulfur rich rocks and releases CO2 and SO3 into the air. Since there is a thick cloud of stuff in the atmosphere, it gets photolyzed into the sulfuric acid rain and the cycle continues. Venus also has a ton of active volcanoes that contribute to this. 

  • Mars has seasonal, polar ice caps that they think is a mixture of water ice and carbon dioxide ice. 

  • Mercury actually has some remnants of a magnetic field indicative of a once active, molten metal core, but its surface shows global contraction as if it significantly cooled. 

  • Mars has the biggest mountain "Olympus Mons" that's over 15 miles high. 

  • Titan, a moon of Saturn, has a nitrogen rich atmosphere similar to ours! The ESA sent a probe there, Huygen's probe, and they are still going through that data. However, RADAR data shows that Titan has lakes! They think the lakes are primarily liquid methane. 

  • Io, a big moon of Jupiter, has a ton of active volanoes that spit out so much stuff that it was a tail of material that gets ionized by the solar wind and contributes to Jupiter's polar auroras. 

  • One day on Venus is longer than it's year - it spins backwards! They think this happened because something really big hit it and knocked it off orbit. 

  • Uranus also has a backwards or "retrograde" orbit! 

  • Uranus also has a very extreme axial tilt! It's almost completely sideways and because of this, its moons do not rotate in the same plane as the rest of the planets. 

  • Earth isn't perfectly spherical! It's a little oblique. 

  • The geological activity of some of the moons in the outer solar system is due to the fact that they are in synchronous, resonance orbit with other moons and the main planet. Take Enceladus for example! It is in synchronous orbit with Saturn and Dione, another moon. The pull from Saturn and Dione cause "tidal" heating similar to how our moon generates our tides. It's thought that Earth may be so biologically active due to our moon for this very reason. 

  • There are a total of 13 planets if you include dwarf planets - they are in order of distance from the sun: Mercury, Venus, Earth, Mars, Ceres, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, Pluto, Makemake, Haumea and Eris 

  • Pluto is much more interesting than we thought: It has 3 different colored regions with mountains, ice and a thick, nitrogen atmosphere that's constantly being replenished. 


  • You can "hear" Saturn's rings here: www.nasa.gov/wav/123163main_ca… . Saturn gives off signal in radio waves, so the team pushed down the frequency into an audible range so you can hear what it sounds like. 

  • We have a rough idea of how the solar system formed from the big bang, but every new mission changes our perceptions! Space is one of the most highly evolving and fluid fields I've ever experienced. It's amazing being around people who are so incredibly willing and happy to be proved wrong and excited to figure out the right answer. 

  • Currently the "working, unofficial names" for features Charon, the moon of Pluto, is all science fiction related! They have Vader Crater, Tardis Chasma, Serenity Chasma, and other fun names. Here's a map with names: www.spaceflightinsider.com/wp-…



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Selling EBs

Thu Oct 26, 2017, 5:44 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



In a financial tight spot and I just got into a fender bender <3 




2254 by kaons
Second Gen, 322 stat mountain mare

1813 by kaons
Low lineage silver bay dun - no gender yet




Please make USD offers <3 


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me too

Tue Oct 24, 2017, 8:24 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



Supporting brave friends by admitting something that I had and still have a hard time admitting to myself. When you're told all your life that this shit doesn't happen to strong girls - that if you keep your head high, keys tucked between your fingers and dress like a nun, you'll be fine. When stories pop up on the news and the people you're around roll their eyes and say she was flirting too hard, asking for it, and deserved it for being a whore, you tell yourself that it was your fault. Because if it was your fault, then it was an unforgivable mistake and a stain on your permanent record. Admitting it is giving others permission to look at you with pity, disdain or guilt - wondering if they could have done something, blaming you for doing nothing and feeling sorry for you because you're 'another one'. 

I didn't and don't want to be a fucking victim. I'm torn between just owning the fact that I am and feeling that pit in my stomach that tells me I am totally and completely out of control. When your coworkers and boss see your bruises, ones you didn't even notice, because why would you? You just tell them that you got them around the house - you're clumsy - because... they wouldn't understand? Or saying it out loud would mean you'd actually have to face it, deal with the emotions and and admit that you've been abused not only by a man but by a system telling you to shut up and take the blame. 

So, me too. 

The details of my situation won't change anything. Not sure I am ready to admit those because I am afraid that if I do, I'll hate myself even more. So, I continue to do what I have always done. Pour myself into my work. Into science. Into my doctorate and into space. Because those things don't hurt you like people do. 

Just know you're not alone. 

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EBs for sale or trade

Sun Aug 20, 2017, 2:52 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



I haven't connected with these kids as much as I thought I would ;- ;


3464 Leia | Mountain by kaons
1349 Zilpha | African by kaons


Make offers! 
I am willing to accept stat offers(hunt images for Abe) , USD, points, or other EBs :) 




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Drakehest Slots for Sale

Tue Jul 11, 2017, 10:45 AM by kaons:iconkaons:



Selling 1 Slot of Each! 


Dom Bifrost
20679 Valke by kaons
- nBfst slot: $50.00 
- BfstBfst slot: $70.00

Dom Holi
20744 Glamazon by kaons
- nH slot: $30.00
- HH slot: $50.00

20582 Rafe by kaons
- $10.00 



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Selling Torleik and Ophelia

Fri Jun 23, 2017, 1:16 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



ADDED: LINKS TO ART
Ophelia: sta.sh/2f0hyswdvii?edit=1
Torleik: sta.sh/213y4gjepomc?edit=1 (lots of his art is also in Phi's folder)

Torleik's mom has given expression permission (can add her on FB if you want to double check). Tor and Phi as humans are their own thing, look vastly different and have different personalities, which means the only rule is: 
- Names MUST be changed

These characters are around 5 years old, so they have a ton of art - some art by people who are no longer doing commissions. All art, characters and tables is valued at around $2000.00

Your song by Yewrezz 
Since alot of their art is them as a pair, I am selling them as a pair. I have separate versions of them in MOST pieces of art. All full sizes will be uploaded to stash along with a ton of icons and around 25-50 posting tables. 

Ice Cold Memories by Lunarlueur  dancing in the dark in the pale moonlight by Nikkayla  Love from the stone by Araxel  cm: torleik + ophelia by Veradaine

Whispers of the Bloodskald by kaons  Torleik by Yumpy  Drive on Driver: Torleik and Irelyn [Commission] by TheArtlex   Torleik [Schwartze] by infinescence  Torleik by Eagle-Cry-Designs   TORLEIK png2 by kaons

 
<da:thumb id="416007518"/>  | the lady that haunts the woods | by LadyZizii  Com: Ophelia by sta-a  AT = ELEGANT AND BOLD by elizahveta  Ophelia [ArtTrade] by Twistyh-stock  my weakened heart by alimarije  ophelia, secret santa by melancholycoyote

Ophelia Orig By Lunarblues-d94u791 by kaons  Lunartorleiktable by kaons


SB: $400.00 
AB: $1200.00 (for the pair)
(talk to me about payment plans)

If you very much want one character more than the other, we can talk! 


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I am very sorry

Tue Jun 20, 2017, 3:28 PM by kaons:iconkaons:



Hello friends,

I am writing this because (whether right or wrong), I feel very disconnected from the community at the moment. It's difficult to pinpoint exactly where I went wrong and what I have been doing wrong since I have been moving in so many different directions in my personal life. Not that I am looking for sympathy, but I figure it may help you guys understand me better. 

So, I started school with a certain salary and my health insurance paid for. The budget is tight, but I can't complain because my classes are fully funded and I have research grants. It's one of the best situations a graduate student could be in, but it's still a challenge to pay everything off at the end of the month and live. 

This spring, a few of you know that I had a very difficult situation involving one of the professors. It was bad enough that I considered quitting school all together. IN my small department, my anonymity was completely blown, and things are still tense. I've kept on because my immediate boss is fully supportive of me and my decision to drop that class, but since my classes are paid for, it looks bad. Basically because of this situation, they lost money. 

That whole situation then caused an emotional cascade of depression and anxiety that reached over into my other job/research job. I was put in a really bad spot where I was unable to fill out timesheets because they wouldn't give me access to a computer on the network, and the computer I was using got repurposed. I didn't handle the situation well because I am very passive in real life and didn't want to bother anyone. Things are getting better now, but I basically got told that I fucked up big time. Considering this is one of my possible careers, I was completely heartbroken. 

I've been trying really hard to redeem myself in the eyes of my department and other research job. Also, I am having to constantly justify myself in school so that I earn my healthcare.  It's emotionally exhausting and I am not an emotional person. I never realized before how anxious it makes me to constantly be on my toes to justify my cost to someone. It's... always in the back of your mind. 

So while I am not any more or less busy than I was before, I am... exhausted in different ways. Now, I am trying to buy a house because apartment rent in SA is pretty much a mortgage. I'd rather build equity. I've been going to see houses every night. 

Annnddd here's the thing. I put an offer on a house that fell through because they didn't disclose foundation issues, so I lost a total of 475 dollars. I've been saving for YEARS for a house, and to see all this money. Basically a ton of work just... disappear. Man, it's really, really rough. I've put offers on other houses, but no one has accepted. It's really disappointing. 

I've also given Helovia to Odd, Smitty and Blu (current admin team), because I realized when I went to go write there the other day that my spark was missing. I'm not sure how long it's been gone, but it's just... not there. I wish it was. I miss writing. I miss everyone. I miss my characters and exploring them, but I think because my emotions are already so tense, I cannot put myself out there anymore. It's why you've seen me backing away from personal equine OCs. I can't connect anymore.

HARPG has been one positive thing this entire year. The EB team is so kind and generous. They are amazing people to work with and that responsibility is good. I'm not yelled at. Very little drama, and it's just art. It's no pressure. The same goes with Drakehest! I'm able to draw characters and have a bunch of stuff decided for me (genos and such), and I dont' have to worry about some of the cliquishness of who is writing with whom and where. (SA is also so wonderfully inviting, but the freeform aspect of the world is a personal stressor in my current state when that freeform-ness is actually one of the best positives in a group EVER). 

So, I ask that you be patient and understanding with me. I ask that you keep me in your thoughts. I'm going to do my best to fulfill my commissions timely (check out my trello: trello.com/b/88uUGBYB/to-do ). 

I am also very open to taking suggestions on things I can do to get involved with everyone again. I miss you guys. I feel like I keep making wrong moves. Saying the wrong things. Doing the wrong things. I know I've messed up, but I want to prove to you that I am committed to improvement. Please note me. Add me on discord. (I am not on skype anymore because it makes my laptop run terribly at work). Ask me questions. Let me ask you questions. 

You guys are my family. 

- Elise 


Edit: Now I have another UTI (maybe too much info, but fuck it) in a long string of UTIs which probably means I am resistant to an antibiotic. Thanks doctors for over-prescribing. :| Also goodbye money I had in savings to pay for the doctor to tell me what I already know and give me drugs for which I already know the dosage. 

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Ref Commissions Open~

Sun Jun 18, 2017, 11:36 AM by kaons:iconkaons:



Taking 5 :) $20.00 USD a piece for flat with no shading. If you want the subtle shading, it's $25.00~ 

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