My best little friend Benny, who was my bunny passed last week. Im in very much pain and sadness after his loss, I can't really find motivation to paint at the moment, but I will probably find it soon again.
He died of old age and I've had him since I was 12, so 10 years of friendship is all gone and I don't really know what to do, what to think, I miss him so much. Im happy for having 10 years with this amazing bun with his beautiful personality, and he has alway been there for me.
This past year he's been having a hard time with his health and im happy to think back that I was always there for him too and that I could show him how much I appreciated him. He later got healthier than ever but eventually these past weeks his body got week and he suddenly felt really tired, his passing was a really hard decition to make since he's always been a fighter. And I was there for him to the end. Im also happy I have my boyfriend who also was with me and Benny at that moment, and that I have someone to mourn with.
I feel a little guilt tho because I was not at home the whole last day of Benny's life. I was on a trip with my grandma and I left even tho Benny felt weak. I just really thought it was a normal stomach ache that bunnies get and because he was a fighter he always got through those quick, but this time it wasn't a stomach ache and I should have been home with him and I should have taken him to the vet quicker if I'd known. Im happy my boyfriend was at home so he could take care of Benny until I got home again. But I would really do anything to have another day with Benny so I could hug him, kiss him, and telling him how much I loved him because there wasn't much time for that when I got home from the little trip.
Here's my little fighter, who turned 10 years and 4 months this month <3 I miss him so much <3 He's the reason why my Da name is kaninkompis, it means bunny friend <3
I just really felt like writing about him, I will eventually be back guys!