A lot of stuff to talk about...
Pixiv (and other contact ways)
From now on, you can also find me on Pixiv. I will write a lot in Japanese Language since being frequented mostly for people in Japan, and being myself a Japanese Language speaker.
You can find me on here:
In Pixiv I put few drawings, since I don't want to talk much anymore of my oldest artwork. But I put my 2017 onwards stuff.
I am moving from dA. I decided it some time ago. So I am on undefined hiatus on here.
Since some time ago, my main place for post my drawings had been Tumblr and also sharing my stuff on twitter and so on. Of course, my tumblr is rather a sort of personal blogging and "playground" place.
I never really believed on the dA "community", not even among the few Spanish-language speaking people here. Too many users this is more like a big metropoli where actually you do not even manage to know everybody, and I am only a minor user.
Also, this divided on two categories: Hyperprofesionalized popular aces who can also be sweethearts of administration, and also people who does not know how to use dA and use it like... come on, like... "fotolog"? Do you remember this old one? Latin American "emos" loved to use this XD.
Despite I talked of some of my opinions on society thanks to faving some stamps, or I opened myself about fandom issues, I still stick on do it by artistic means. Using stamps for expressing social topic opinions for me is secondary in dA when the main thing is for me drawing.
My drawing is mostly for talking about my crazy ideas, but also for open myself in fandoms. That's how I express I like some music, some sport. That's how I do statements about my issues and struggles. That's how I break barriers. Yeah, but I do it getting the tablet and actually doing drawings. That's the role of dA, for me.
Another reason is the treatment to art theft. It's simply non-efficient, and there is a lot of favoritism. Look at the sad case of Drachea.
Also, the drama and hate issues. Pandemic on all the internet and especially with the sad world politic situation. But here this can be so unmotivating for a person who draws, especially someone so unknown like me.
Finally, I feel here it is very compromising and serious, especially due my irregular publishing rates nowdays. Because the extremely underpowered laptop i have now, and my outside-internet life.
I highly doubt I come back dA regularly again. I have nobody to interact here with, and all the people I like to talk is outside.
So here goes for me the formal end of an era for me, so I can stick on share my artwork in my own means and in my own rhythm.
Why to talk about the late singer of a Colombian rock band who is extremely underrated on international level, such as Kraken is?
I think something changed brutally on me the day I put the music of Kraken in my life, and especially when the voice of Elkin trolled my life totally.
My fanart of him is very important to me. It's the kind of drawing that months ago I did not even expect to draw in my life, but the sad circunstances around that person and how I found the music he did with his beloved band made me to think this drawing is a major issue. To the point of spread it and even making me to come back temporally on dA.
Yes, I did this drawing too of another Colombian amazing person, Nairo Quintana. And actually thanks to my drawing of Nairo I got rid of my 2016 art block. These two drawings represent a major issue I had to face: My habitual lack of hope regarding my fellows. First I feel habitually slapped in my pride each time Quintana goes being so amazing, and being a Tour de France candidate. I know how overdramatic are other Colombians! I know that if Quintana goes to win the TDF my country will get NUTS NUTS NUTS NUTS NUTS NUTS NUTS NUTS NUTS NUTS.
But this issue with the singer of Kraken is another thing. Between my teacher of German talking of them and later finding their music on Spotify... and in the middle on temporal line the passing of Elkin... this had been crazy. Totally.
His voice was absurdly amazing, and for me to say his voice is one of prettiest ones I've heard in my life
, you don't get often such reactions of me, especially with another Colombian.
Now I harder and harder fall in love with bands, especially in my first language, Spanish. I often prefer to don't feel so attached on language issues.
But I like them exactly for the same reason in the past I wouldn't listen them: Because their lyrics reach my heart and I understand what they mean without no struggle at all.
I struggled to understand the reason of them in my life, especially on those sad circunstances and that I received late the sadness due the fact of the passing of Elkin. I only felt the pain of it when I heard his voice. I only began to feel that weird feeling of sadness when I found such gentleman he seemed to be (and that everybody knew he was even when he was alive).
Now, listening these songs, and seeing how my life is right now, I think I understand: It's about "hope".
In these times, to have songs about hope, the will of keep living, and so on, seems anachronic. But it's now when a lot of people has loads of sadnesses in the personal and other stuff, when it seems that nothing is worthy, I feel there is still hope. I had in last years a lot of grief and anger. And anxiety for my future, due things going awry. And, for worsen things, even if I could make my life better and put my life again on a good place, I still feel that anxiety and fear. Let alone my anger due a bad past.
And then you get this band, whose lyrics able of talk me of what I need most, of "hope" and "freedom", without being cheesy. And helped by an amazing instrumentation in a hard rock so hard they are popular among metalheads without being a metal band. And the beautiful voice of Elkin, who seems able of touch my heart and comfort it even if I can't meet him. Maybe it is because he really believed on the words he was singing.
Maybe it's what I still need. And bit to bit I can get up again. As I had been doing since some years. And... I am deeply thankful.
That drawing I've done of him reminds me that so.
Maybe that's why that drawing is so important to me to point of showcase it even on places where nobody will care because of the cultural hegemony of other places in the world.
And still I don't mind to talk about this. I share it because I want to. And maybe because how much of abnormal is that drawing.
Maybe that's what keeps me stronger right now despite of the sadness.
Until a next opportunity.
Thank you for all these years. See ya!