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CMYK by kakeru119 CMYK :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 2 12 Tokyo-II by kakeru119 Tokyo-II :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 3 0 Tokyo-I by kakeru119 Tokyo-I :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 7 7 Flat by kakeru119 Flat :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 0 1 interlaced panel by kakeru119 interlaced panel :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 8 5 interlaced menu by kakeru119 interlaced menu :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 173 84 Experimental by kakeru119 Experimental :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 12 19 kakeru 6.11 by kakeru119 kakeru 6.11 :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 3 0 kakeru 6.10 by kakeru119 kakeru 6.10 :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 3 4 fake smiles by kakeru119 fake smiles :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 1 6 my styles by kakeru119 my styles :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 0 1 my desktop by kakeru119 my desktop :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 0 2 Devious by kakeru119 Devious :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 4 7 My Orange Theme by kakeru119 My Orange Theme :iconkakeru119:kakeru119 0 6

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true love waits
in haunted attics
that crest their way
into the warped corners
of my mind,
a sheet of adoration
and sadness crystallizing.
etching slowly 
into the drumming doldrums
that weigh like confessions,
i tuck myself into this space
of my thoughts
and let my skin
find its film as scenes
of discovery fade
down that slippery
fetal, fatal fear
of everything that was you
because you are exactly
what i wanted, exactly
what i needed,
and i couldn't have you.
in a cocoon holding
love to my chest
and away from
your kind eyes
and heart-melting smile,
you are the one force
i could not deny.
the air, that i let slip
into quiet drafts
never published,
was the same one
you carried in a jar
spiraling and recoiling
against the glass
before it breaks free.
shed demons being swept
and cascaded loose,
ripped apart, and blown away
as you have rattled my cage.
and there you were,
and i was weightless.
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Duality of Despair
Darkness calls forth my deepest desires,
making me tremble with need.
The song of blade and blood,
the trigger of despair-
Nothing can deter my sorrow.
Light beckons back,
but Darkness calls forward.
Forever I sway between the two.
Is there a way to appease my inner demons?
Can Light really dispel years of inner scars?
I want to know.
Can I change the person I've been for so long?
Can I be remade to Shine?
How can I have self worth,
when I know I'll never be enough?
Why a mistake like me was called into being is beyond my knowledge.
All I've desired is to undo the mistake that is me.
Is there another way?
A way to earn my life?
A way to deserve to live?
For so long I have felt unworthy.
Even now I cannot understand.
Others see something or someone within me.
Someone to care about or admire.
When I look inside,
Darkness and shattered pieces are all I see.
I can love,
but accepting love is harder.
I can hate,
but only myself.
The eternal question of why haunts me.
Why am I here?
What pur
:iconkittysib:KittySib 29 23
Words Are Weapons
Words are weapons 
Sharp as they come
Cutting and biting
Into everyone.
Words are weapons
Pointing the skin
Making you feel
So worthless within.
Words are weapons
Stabbing the heart
Tearing oh so
Many apart.
Words are weapons
Of the final breath.
Who thought just words
Could lead to such death?
:icondespicableme1:DespicableMe1 68 27
We Tried.
hideous people
living in
a beautiful
to be something they are not
beautiful people
living in
a hideous
not to be something
:iconwovenlioness:wovenlioness 30 22
Hanging On By a Thread of Music
The music is on as loud as it goes
The beat blasts through me like a second heartbeat
It's so upbeat and addicting
Pulsing in time with the music are my wayward emotions
Pain surfaces along with impulses
I could float away if I want-
or I could bleed out the sorrow and rage
Everyone says NO
but that makes me want it more
Immersed in the music
I just want to run away
What am I even doing?
Trembling hands and salty tears
Why does it hurt?
I've been good for so long
I don't even know why
Everything is spiraling out of control
I am overwhelmed
Only connected by the thin thread of music
:iconkittysib:KittySib 26 8
It swallows you whole,
Exceeds your control.
Apprehends your soul,
Until it has taken its toll.
It’s an overwhelming feeling.
That is made to be appealing
And you can’t help revealing,
The doubts you are concealing.
It’s an undefined dimple
And a well known jingle.
But only when you are single
Does it all seem so simple.
It is one of life’s many gifts,
That empowers and uplifts
And can lead you adrift.
Should you miss your shift.
It is impossible to describe it.
It is impossible to fight it.
Because once it is ignited
And once you have tried it.
It will take your independence.
You will become used to its presence.
You will become addicted to its essence
And include it at the end of your every sentence.
It exists even in the hearts of its haters.
It is a taste even they will savour
And although its duration wavers.
There will never be a feeling that is greater.
It is...
Everything I have said and more.
I am merely repeating what you already know.
Tears o
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Cloud Tutorial Part 1 by yuumei Cloud Tutorial Part 1 :iconyuumei:yuumei 26,962 931 2013 Shilin's drawing tutorial/walkthrough by shilin 2013 Shilin's drawing tutorial/walkthrough :iconshilin:shilin 6,199 123 .:Summer Glow:. by MissLaurelle .:Summer Glow:. :iconmisslaurelle:MissLaurelle 959 164 .:Une Belle Histoire:. by MissLaurelle .:Une Belle Histoire:. :iconmisslaurelle:MissLaurelle 939 183 .:College Girl 2:. by MissLaurelle .:College Girl 2:. :iconmisslaurelle:MissLaurelle 793 132 Wilhelmina by KarmaLizzard Wilhelmina :iconkarmalizzard:KarmaLizzard 8,240 536 nude by haneto
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nude :iconhaneto:haneto 255 10
stage fright by creativephotoworks stage fright :iconcreativephotoworks:creativephotoworks 289 25 Contessa Vanessa by RGUS Contessa Vanessa :iconrgus:RGUS 819 53 Supergirl final small by ChristopherStevens Supergirl final small :iconchristopherstevens:ChristopherStevens 2,281 90



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SinRedemption Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the fave! :)
KittySib Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the faves!:D
JonasTrindade Featured By Owner Mar 4, 2013  Professional Traditional Artist
thanks for the fav.
tonysandoval Featured By Owner Apr 11, 2012
thanks man!!
BottomlessPitStudios Featured By Owner Dec 8, 2011  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the watch. We hope you enjoy more of what our studio produces =D

BottomlessPitStudios Featured By Owner Dec 5, 2011  Professional General Artist
Thanks so much for the fave on my poetry. I hope you continue to enjoy what we produce =D

grvrulz Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2011  Professional General Artist
Thank you so much for the fav :)
pitkon Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2011   Interface Designer
Welcome to :iconblackboxdesktop: ! It's great to have you with us - and don't forget to submit whenever you feel like it :)
kakeru119 Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
thanks. :)
pitkon Featured By Owner Aug 24, 2011   Interface Designer
Our pleasure :)
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