Kaedegirl

Love Grows, I don't believe in love at first sight, such a thing doesn't exist for me. I believe love takes time and it's both a certainty and a constant discovery. I believe that love grows, and it has to be nurtured over time. I grew to love the sweet smile you have when you don't assume your next joke. I grew to love the sparkle of passion in your eyes when you're talking about films. I grew to love you in spite of the stubbornness you sometimes showcase. It's a long process, I see it now. I surprise me, thinking of you at the most uncanny times, I would make a sandwich and wish you were there to taste it with me. I would find myself thinking of the feeling I have when you stroke my arm. I would plan future trips with you, to the museum, to the stadium, anywhere really. Because all I would see would be the smile on your face as we get there. All I would think of would be the warmth of your embrace and yours heartbeats. It's a long process, I see it now. Love grows, Love

I have always dreamed of a cookie perfect future, where I would have it together. I kept burdening my shoulders with an unnecessary weight over the years. And as expected, I ended up being overwhelmed and disappointed. How could I not be, when I was the one to set the bar so high? I thought my life had only meant when I « became » something. The dreams I tried to fulfilled and the goals I tried to achieve were not realistic. The pressure I put on myself was so strong that it ended up suffocating me. And when my future slipped through my fingers and, I didn't reach my goals? I crumbled. What was the point of my life if I wasn't able to « become » who I wanted to be? If I didn't correct my imperfection and snapped those picture-perfect moments of my life? What was I if not a fraud? What was I, if not unhappy? I forgot how it was to enjoy my life the way it was. I forgot how it was to be me. I couldn't tell if it was time convincing me that I was nothing or the constant failures that

I was an egg once, in pristine condition, untainted by the world around me. As I was growing, my heart was filled with Hope, Love, and Trust. I believed people would take care of me, as I hatched into this new world. I believed in their kindness and their willingness to protect the weak and vulnerable souls. But I was wrong. I was an egg once, and as my egg hatched, I soared into this world feeling beautiful. Here I was, new, shiny, with a beautiful set of heavily feathered wings. Here I was, eager to grow in power, self-confidence, and love. I used to love me. so much so that I felt I could survive anything, But I was mistaken. There was no wonderland in the world I was born into. It was a nightmare They tore me into pieces, destroyed my very soul, ruined the love I had for myself. I was an egg once, in pristine condition, but I was tainted by the world around me. I lost all Hope I had on mankind, I lost the dreams I had about this new world. I lost the love I had for myself and