This isn't really a serious thing, but I do find it REALLY annoying, depressing and sad. (this is going to be a long one) So throughout the first half of my time in High School (about from the start of 8 to the end of 9 or 10) I was VERY annoyed with everyone. Just because (in my mind, at the time), everyone was just being trouble-makers. I liked a lot of my classes and teachers and liked high school other than the kids. I was a quiet person who never talked (and was probrably quite rude, at times, even though that was never really the intention) Then, when year 10 came around, my thoughts changed, I saw that I actually liked being involved and social. I really wanted to do that, but there was one problem, it was too late, the people at school already saw me as the quiet, antisocial person, so because of that, nobody ever talked to me. Everyone just walked by me, thinking that I'll never talk. I find it hard to start talking to people. So I found myself being pulled down more and more. I found myself sort of just going kind of crazy because of it. I tried so hard to talk to people to the point where I made an art project based on it. But by then I was too late, everyone graduated and i lost any chances of making friends with those people. Now, I'm at TAFE studying full time and find myself back where i was in year 10, annoyed, sad and depressed, just wanting to be him instead of embarrassing myself in front of people. I really want to make friends and show people who i really am, one problem that happened was that i chose to study part time in semester 1, so the students at TAFE only saw me for two classes every week, now in semester 2, I'm studying full time and find myself never wanting to be there at any class or break because nobody talks to me, i know that i could start a conversation with someone, but it's hard when people think of me as the weird anti-social person and when everyone already has a group to go to. I know it seems really weird, but sometimes in class, i just don't know where an appropriate place is to look, like should i be looking at people? Should i be looking down, i have no idea. Everything is just frustrating at TAFE, and i know that if people really knew me, they would probably like me, maybe be a little annoyed at me at times, but overall like me. One other thing that i find hard is being around girls since i really don't want them to think I'm a creep or have a crush on them, cause i don't.
If anyone can give me some pointers, that'll be much appreciated, thanks.