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Honest Is As Honest Does
Honest is as honest does,
And I become what I always was.
Entombed in such presentiment.
Strong enough to pull me from the cement?
I know.  I know.
We see what's coming.  Coming.
We're all liars, in the streets,
And we keep lying between the sheets.
Shining grins through grand defeats,
We all keep playing through.
But, damn, I need something true.
When we see what's coming,  Coming,
Do we keep running?  Running?
Do we run our mouths, while we run in place?
Do the eyes
See the disguise,
Or the face?
I know.  I know.
We're all liars, in the streets,
And we keep lying between the sheets.
The front page faces don't know discrete;
We lead an extra life or two.
Just give me something true.
If honest is as honest does,
Can I become what I never was?
Entombed in this presentiment,
Can you chip me out of this sediment?
When we see what's coming,  Coming,
Do we keep running?  Running?
Do we run our mouths while standing still?
Does it sing?
Does it sting?
Does
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Literature
A Representation In Defenistration (Kindness)
I fell for the depth of you...
But I'm losing myself to the things you do.
Oh, all the things you do.  The things you'll do...
No.  Oh, no.
When was the last time... that you showed me any kindness?
I'm not talking about a pardon, a bow, a 'your highness.'
When was the last time... that you showed me any kindness,
Without your knife at my neck?  And that general lack of respect.
I threw myself upon your mercy.
Silly me.
To say you didn't spare me any
Falls short of the
Reality.
I love the depth of you.
I do.
I'm drawn to the sacred sinner I once knew.
I'm addicted to those moments you
Gave me just a drop of your kindness.
Just a drop, enough to hold me off...
Just a little bit of something soft...
When was the last time... that you showed me any kindness?
I'm not talking about a pardon, a bow, a 'your highness.'
When was the last time... that you showed me any kindness,
Without your knife and a threat?  And the glare that comes with your regret.
I love the depth of
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Literature
The Great Pretender
Do we fear the little things that we are?
Do we go, but go only in so far?
Do we? Do you?
You want
What you want,
'Til you've got it.
You'd haunt,
And you'd flaunt
As you sought it.
And you fought it,
Once it was in your hand.
Aye, once at your command.
Who will you convince
That you're proper?
Call yourself a prince?
You're a pauper.
Miser with your heart.
Violence is your tender.
Called it from the start.
The Great Pretender.
Do we fear the little things that we are?
Do we go, but go only in so far?
Do we wear the masks of bravery,
But let fear tighten the bonds of slavery?
Do we? Do you?
I know you do.
You love
Like you leave,
In a hurry.
You shove  
Up your sleeve
Cards of worry.
Rain or flurry,
You'll play, as you see fit,
The very last of it.
Who will you convince
Your golden coffer
Isn't copper?
Call yourself a prince?
That broken offer.
You're a pauper.
Hero in the head,
But demands surrender.
Villain in the bed.
The Great Pretender.
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Literature
All About You
Bash out,
Trash out,
Lash out,
Hit the world. Hit the world. Hit the world!
Slash out,
Smash out,
Crash out
Of the box. Of the box. Of the box!
One lip,
One rip,
Unzip,
Break the girl. Break the girl. Break the girl!
One slip,
One trip,
One chip,
Get the locks.  Get the locks.  Get the locks!
Shut it off, Shut it in,  Shut it down.
Shutter up, close your doors to the sound.
The cries in the night,
They give you such a fright,
Alright...
'cause they're all about you.
You took a fragile fiction from a book.
You gripped it by the throat, and, oh, you shook.
You made a mess, you made a mess, again.
Say you got it bad?
You're not cursed, you're fucking hexed.
Rough and brittle,
Under-loved and over-sexed.
Barely know where the hell you've been,
How can you know what's coming next?
Only one to hit the ground so hard?
Oh, what a poor thing you are.
Head hung,
Bell rung,
You've flung
To the ground.  To the ground.  To the ground!
All stung,
Unsung,
Your tongue
Lost his
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Literature
Midnight
Midnight's grim smile comes
To ask too much of us.
Calloused heart and calloused thumbs
Cold brush the few such as us.
The rough touch scrapes and bruises, chills us to the bone.
Midnight's grim smile abuses the hope of the alone.
A wound in the arm
By the blade of his charm,
He rips it open, again.
Salt in the cut,
It's a punch to the gut,
But it's all the same old pain.
The dark comes quickly, now.  Quicker than it has, before.
And he comes sickly, now, sicker than he was, for more.
Lanterns darken on the cobbled paths.
The journey home's grown colder, even in
The summer wind.
Midnight's maw opens and laughs.
Hera bows to the crow who told her, do begin
To get thicker skinned.
Midnight's grim, smiling countenance,
Will ask too much of us, again.
Cowardice wears masks of confidence,
To guile the few such as us, but then
We have come to recognize the little tells that tease.
Midnight's guise, the alibis, and we, revealed in threes.
The dark comes quickly, now.  Quicker than i
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Literature
You Don't
Every time I try to help you stand,
You don't ever take my shaking hand.
I don't care- I do,
But I keep standing here for you,
And you don't-
No, no, no.
Never mind it.
The problem's mine,
And there to find it.
Even in all the ugly things you say to and of me...
I won't believe that you don't love me.
Every time I try to breathe the words,
You don't hear. You act like I'm absurd.
I don't care- I do,
But I keep saying these words to you,
And you don't-
No, no, no.
Never mind it.
Mouth's a loose cannon,
I should bind it.
Even as you try to build yourself so high above me...
I won't believe that you don't love me.
This honest liar makes one pretty, little idiot.
If this thought was anyone else's, God knows I'd pity it.
You don't keep company with kindness, you don't give an inch.
Next day, you cave, you highness, and wonder why I flinch.
I shouldn't say such things, but I know you don't hear.
You don't listen to the words whispered in your ear.
You don't hear the shouted confessions,
You
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Literature
Love Finds A Way (A Supernatural Fiction)
It was a lazy day, on the planet below. Every wind was calm, in all the corners of the earth. It was such a rare sight that it was worthy of attention. One wind flowed easily into the next, and there was calm, where there was usually chaos. It was the sort of perfect weather over the entire globe that could easily be seen as 'peace on Earth,' at least from a celestial distance. Many thought that it was hard to not see God's hand at work, on such a rare, beautiful day. Some even voiced this, despite the aching void that haunted many of them, in missing their father.
An angel leaned against an out-facing wall, gazing down into the perfection of the weather, but it wasn't the stillness that had his focus. His folded arms provided a pedestal for his chin to rest, as he watched the humans, and one, in particular. The humans had long been a source of fascination for Castiel. Father's favourite children, they fit so much complication into such a short space of time. So much feeling.  It
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Literature
Stranger In My Skin
Saw a reflection of another soul.
The unknown calls me from within.
Afraid to listen to that glistening whole,
I'm a stranger in my skin.
I am only certain of what I am not,
And I'm not sure where to begin.
When certainty's a luxury I haven't got,
I'm a stranger in my skin.
I am most myself when anybody else.
I've tried to say it, but you do not hear.
I feel at home within a guise.
But you won't realize
That this lie is more sincere.
I am a player on a stage within this hell,
And I have tried to make this clear.
The mirror only tells me lies,
But you won't realize
That we all are players here.
I am mostly what cannot be true.
But truth, they say, will lie within.
If I feel it, does that make it real to you?
No. I'm a stranger in my skin.
What can you know of me that I do not?
You say you're certain, so begin.
When certainty's a luxury I haven't got,
I'm a stranger in my skin.
As certainty's a luxury I haven't got,
I'm a stranger in my skin.
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Literature
Stranger
Hey, Stranger.
Quick tongue.
Bring the hurt?
Do it while I'm still young..
You're a Danger?
How fun.
Warning you heard;
You know, you better run.
Put me in my place?
Gonna need a crane.
Baby, I'm high above you.
Hover in my face,
Wanna bring the pain?
Trying to make me hate or love you?
Can I get a read?
Think you got a take?
Don't you know you're playing with fire?
You think I'll concede-
You strong enough to shake
My high wire?  My high wire?
Silver is the tongue.
Silver is the knife.
Bring the hurt?
Baby, not on your life.
Only having fun?
You're in Danger.
Seen and observed;
I know you, Stranger.
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Literature
Cat And Mouse
Oh, cat and mouse-
Are you confident
You know which role you play?
Shake this old house,
And it comes to dust.
I'd pull the thorn from your paw-
You'd only eat me,
Anyway.
All wounds are raw
When it comes to us.
Mirror, Mirror, on the wall-
I swear to God you look just like me.
I see the master fall,
And I promise that's not all that I see.
The world is changing
Reformation
From our broken parts-
Fast rearranging.
Bless the nation
That walls in our hearts.
Your cat and mouse-
Are you so sure
You're the predator, dear?
Burn down this house,
Ash, it comes to dust.
I see the fangs in your jaw-
You think you'll eat me,
Anyway?
All wounds are raw
When it comes to us.
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Literature
Beautiful Disaster
Martyr.
Secret Jesus.
Pay for their passage on the river Styx.
Fight harder.
Suffering eases?
Only in the moments when you get your fix.
I see you.
I see you there.
I know you.
I know you care.
Nailed to the cross for another's sins.
Where does one hurt stop, and the next begin?
Open wounds.
Bleeding heart.
Suffering
Becomes an art.
All we know;
That pain and strife.
It becomes
A way of life.
I see you.
I see you.
Play the god,
You play the master.
My beautiful disaster.
Martyr.
Secret Jesus.
I see your eyes, holy, and I know you.
Fight harder.
Suff'ring never ceases.
They don't hear the words inside the screaming we do.
I feel you.
I feel you there.
I know you.
I know you, bare.
Nailed to the cross for another's sins.
Feel the red trickle over our skins.
I see you.
I see you.
Play the monster,
You play the master.
My beautiful disaster.
Fight harder.
Never ceases.
My martyr.
Secret Jesus.
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Literature
Rest
I'll fold myself over you;
Protection from this world.
Drop my wand,
Around which fingers curled.
I lay my shield,
As I lay upon your chest.
I'm weak.
I need
Rest.
Bit by bit.
Bit by bit, we break our chains.
Bind me in your arms,
As we forgive each other pains.
Bit by bit,
You'll see, we are the same.
Hold me in your arms,
And I'll let go of this game.
You don't have to be
Anything for me,
But a pair of arms before these moments pass.
However it may sting,
I don't expect anything.
Just please don't try to break the looking glass.
I'll fold myself over you,
With what little warmth I bring.
Lay down my head...
Lay down everything.
Lay down your shield,
As I lay upon your chest.
Just breathe.
Just be.
Rest.
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Literature
Flicker
Flicker, flicker,
Burning torch
Like to char,
Quick to scorch.
Fast to burn.
Fast to spread
The fire raging
Inside your head.
You forget,
As you're burning up the night-
You are
A light.
Flicker, flicker,
Burning flame.
Lick the spirit
You would tame.
Quick, the embers
Rage to whole.
The fire battles
In your soul.
Don't forget,
As you're burning up the night-
You are
A light.
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Literature
Idle Hand
You are the idle hand.
A host ill-used.
Crush the lily.
Petals bruised.
Demons
Screaming
Pleading to get out.
Destructive
And Devout.
Live the lie.
Lie idle.
Praying for release;
A Declaration
Of Disease.
The wilted lily
Will understand.
You are no devil.
You are the idle hand.
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Brianna Lee
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Life is... crazy.  Good and bad.  I don't really know why I'm doing one of these.  Therapeutic, I suppose, and I was told I should, and I don't keep an lj, or anything else, so here goes. haha

Family/money, money/family.  The big struggles. Can't decide which is crazier, right now, but it's not all hectic.  Issues abound, and I feel like I'm drowning, with the family stuff, but child is healthy and brilliant, and that's a blessing.  Crafty, though, which is vexing.  Good with the bad.  Still no heat, but we're working on it.   My mom won't tell me when she runs out of meds, because I have to buy them, so now I'll have to take inventory of her pills.  That's a bit maddening.   And between my brother and my sister, and I don't really know what's going to happen next.  Here's hoping smooth sailing will happen, someday. <_____>


Health is... frustrating.  Chemo ward was less depressing than I thought it would be.  Everyone was really nice.  I got the blood thing mostly fixed.  As much as they could.  No one knows why I'm not getting better.   I have good days,  but I spend a week paying for them.  No one sees that, and I don't really talk about that. Or what's going on.  I didn't think I could.  Sometimes, I still can't.  Not all words are as easy to just say as others.   I don't know.  I keep thinking I'll wake up.  I keep saying I'm too young for this.  For any of it.   I try to stay positive, but I find I only ever get half way to saying it.   The concept of time and limit, it comes up a lot in my head.  I feel it in my chest.  It's heavy.  I don't like being scared, and I don't really know how to handle it, or admit it, or talk about it.  I don't know how to deal with people.  Or pain.   I don't know.  It's frightening, and constant, and I want to be stronger than it, but I'm running out of brave face.  

I miss connections, but sometimes, I think it's a one way thing, so I let it be.  It was a gradual period of discovery, for one source.  I think I knew it for a while, but one day, it became clear.  It was a hard thing to process.  Things get twisted, and reason gets twisted, everything just contorts into something unrecognizable.   Sometimes, I hardly recognize people.  

I missed everyone on here and on the thingies.  I couldn't get onto facespace or proboards, because I had no computer (and pb hates linux phones). Now, I have one, but I can't get on, because it crashes the whole machine.   Everything crashes it.  There are a small handful of sites that don't, and I don't know why that is.  Even my email crashes it.  It's really frustrating.  Massively insufficient ram.  But some bigger ram is coming in the mail, so in a week or two, when it comes, and gets put in for me, I'll be able to get back on.  I'm really looking forward to it, because I really miss everyone, and I feel just terrible for being unable to get on.  I should also be able to make pictures again (which also currently crashes the computer).  I'm excited, because with everything else going on, I need some happiness pie.  :)


I love you, Listener.  Thank you.
  • Listening to: my heart
  • Drinking: no, but I should be.

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electrico22 Featured By Owner Jun 4, 2015
 I miss you brianna how are you and hope you are ok
pleaes awnser me pleaes!!!
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ei9 Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2015
 thanks for the warm comments Brianna and look forward seeing more from you in the future. God loves you everyday of your life!
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JuvenyleChylde Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2015
Thank you!  You're an angel, and your comment makes me smile. :)
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Thank you for the watch! Very much appreciated! :)
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Thanks for the watch!:)
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Thank you so much for the watch! :)
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Thanks for the fav!
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JuvenyleChylde Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2013
My pleasure! Love your work!
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